Sick of circling the same road
Sick of burying the guilt
In the crowd ι am the invisible

Slipping into thin air
Life is really not fair ..
Disappearing slowly
Looking at me , but only seeing my bad side
When all ι do is strive for your attention

Opening my self to people
Is way to evil
They ∂ση'т  see me but ι see them
Looking from the outside in

Outcast is what ι am
ι try my best . It ιѕη'т good enough..

This Is How I Disappear

Self concious always worried about what people think
Seeing my self sink
Watching them talk
Like they planning to conspire against me
ι wish ι could just be free
from all the things that bind me

ι'м starting to trip
ι'м losing my grip
And ι'м in this thing alone
With no purpose and no drive

Yess ι see you talking
If you only knew ι'м hanging by a thread
ι'м lucky if ι ever see the light of day
As my walls close in
ι watch my enemies belittle me by nodding me the penalty

Self harm seems to be the only escape
While you looking for the red tape
Smile on your face . But we all know its fake
For goodness sake
**** me than lie to my face .

Sick of circling the same road
Sick of burying the guilt
In the crowd ι am invisible

Slipping into thin air
Life is really not fair ..
Disappearing slowly
Looking at me , but only seeing my bad side
When all ι do is strive for your attention

Opening my self to people
Is way to evil
They ∂ση'т  see me but ι see them
Looking from the outside in

Outcast is what ι am
ι try my best . It ιѕη'т good enough..

Sitting alone all day
Wishing my self away
Watching the day and night go by faster than the speed of light

As ι notice my scars are faded
And ι realise ι made it
Being all alone like a castaway lost at sea
ι felt like ι'м not loved
ι let myself lose control .
Everything comes before me ,
Everyone besides me
Always left out .
Looking in from the outside

ι began to see the light at the end of the
tunnel
ι get rid of all my doubt
By drowning my self in
Unnecessary guilt

So ι cry just a little ,
Than ι dry my eyes .
Cause ι'м no longer a little girl anymore

So now ι'м fully alive .
As ι watch all my complaints shrink to nothing
And ι lie there afraid of all my somethings .
Afraid of the past
As much as my future

But this is wheRe it all ends
ι always dreamt about this moment
Waiting to feel loved instead of hurt

Fell to pieces and picking them up on my own
Anxiety's got me shaking
Faking what's real
Torn to the bone
A heart harder than stone

Here ι stand
With empty fists
Wishing for bleeding wrists
To stop the pain from the emotional beatings

Craving the burn and itch!
ι really do miss it
Take a look at what you've done
You broke me
Served me lies
And messed up my life

Sometimes my cravings get really bad
When ι feel really sad
ι wna carve your name on my skin

My worst dreams of you still stick with me
scraping through my head until ι dont want to sleep again

ι ∂ση'т  have a heart
Because you tore it apart
Breaking into my thoughts like you owned me
Stole my innocence
And controlled me

But ι wanted you to know .
The worst has just began
No one can steal my pain away
You caused it
And you will pay

As she sat there
Fearful of what might happen
When it all comes out

As she tries to convince herself that it ωαѕη'т her fult
He was like a thief ,
He stole her ,used her
And threw her away

With scars left on her heart
He ripped her apart
And washed her innocence away

He ended her with a smile
And тнαт'ѕ all it took
The smile stung mildly

He ended her life
And broke her heart
But ѕнє'ѕ still a butterfly only with punctured wings ...

My feelings ;
Deep, empty
Like a well тнαт'ѕ gone dry
'What has this come to' ι ask myself

Sitting here all dried out by the sun
Dried up by life
Dried out by you.

As ι sit here
Empty to the core
My cry for help
Is all too sore

ι take the blade and end my pain
Piercing into my skin  
The sight of my thick red blood pleases me

My heart is dried up and abused by useless feelings
Feelings that ι ∂ση'т  even feel
This is all too confusing

And you find it so amusing
but ι ωση'т let you have me
You may take my feelings but you cant have my soul ..