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I feel like i tell you too much
i tell you everything
your voice hits me like truth syrum
my words fly past my teeth
fall over my lips
and into your ears

i dont know if this kind of truth scares you
somethings im sure i should keep it to myself
of corse i wouldnt be lying to you
but my secrets could stay mine
and my thoughts be my own

im sure i will freak you out when you see how crazy i am
my thoughts sound crazy
they bounce from here to there
about this and that
about nothing and something
things that havent or will not even happen
what-ifs and scenarios that are unrealistic

the truth about how i feel about you
i like you too much
your ****, cute, sweet
i like you too much

you will think im obbsessed or something
truthfully i probably am
the way you feel
they way you look at me
the lines you get around your mouth and eyes when you smile

gah
"I AM YOUR INDECISION!"
The beast roared, shattering the thin, frail film of a shield with which I had managed to surround myself using the little energy I had remaining. I was terrified. It was too huge -- too tremendous. I could hardly make out what it was due to its enormous complexity. And the worst part was...

It was my own creation. I had taken on too many possibilities and had not decided. I had not decided!
But how could I? They were all so...fantastic! I loved each and every one of those possible outcomes. I loved them until they became a monstrosity. The thought of all those futures -- my futures -- becoming something...something like this... It... It...

Enrages me! It saddens me! It brings searing tears to my eyes because I still love the monster I see before me! The very thing that would devour my mind, body and soul if it could. But I would not let that happen. I am not my possibilities. I am not my past nor my future.

"I AM!"
And with those burning words of power I drew the sword which would sever the beast. From my heart the hilt -- gleaming golden grip with a fiery Phoenix crystal clasped in an iron claw. From my mind the blade -- sharper than obsidian flake and still deeper dark, kris like a slithering serpent. And from my soul the glowing strength to wield this sword and wings to carry me onward.

Forth, I fly.
Decide, I must.
Be cause is why.
Myself, I trust.
I know you know
I would do anything for you.
You know I know
You'd do the same.
Why do we dance around
The fire that's consuming us?
Why do we love to play
This game?
Memory...
Such a little thing.
You came to us that fateful night,
And I took you home.
I gave you food and water.
I kept you safe and warm.
We spent days together,
But only a few.

We had to part ways.
Forces beyond my control separated us --
Because it had to happen.

I brought you to a place
Where you could be safe
Without me.
They cared for you,
As I knew they would.
I felt good, content with my hopes that
You would find a new home.
Weeks pass...

You weren't on my mind --
Then you were, from nowhere.
A part of you I'd kept with me,
Worn on me... broken.
I knew something had happened.

I left a mindful message for the ones
Caring for you:
Hello, just checking up.
How is he?
How is Mem?
I waited for what I knew would come.

They say your health was waning.
They say you were not alone
When you passed. I trust them.
I feel that if I kept you,
You'd still be here.
It doesn't matter now.

I named you well...
Love is not a plan
you fall into it
with arms legs mind heart
guts
free falling
like alice
down the rabbit hole
Words once spent cannot be refunded,
And harsh words between lovers
Cut twice as deep. I can erase the horrible things I say,
But a wound is still left on you, the person I love the most.
I will clean and dress that wound for you, until it closes
And heals, and I will kiss it each day, until the pain fades away,
And leaves behind nothing but the tiny scar,
which we add to the collection of the scars we both bear,
And the list of trials and tribulations that have made our love stronger.
Knowing my words hurt you so, rips my intestines out trough my mouth,
Flays my skin with a razor made of salt, and dunks my feelings
In a vat of acid,
And it is what I deserve
For hurting someone who does so much for me,
And grants me the freedom to be me.
I can say I'm sorry until the frozen hell melts again,
And it wont make a difference,
I will instead, show you I am sorry,
From this day forward
I won't cut you again,
My goblin of cruel words is dead.
Your love helped me **** it.
The sun isn't shining,
But it will be.
The birds aren't singing,
But they will be.
The weather isn't sweet,
But it will be.
There's no dancing in the street,
But there will be.
The air is not filled with song,
But it will be.
I haven't fixed what I did wrong,
But it will be.

Even if it isn't
Who cares?

It's re-up day,
And when I open that zip lock bag, and inhale the fragrance of maddening bliss,
And pack up, spark the blue butane, and pull the essence inside me,
All the silly ******* will vanish, and I will smile, because Mary Jane always comes back to me.
And when she is with me
The sun shines,
The birds sing,
The weather is sweet,
there's dancing in the street,
The air is filled with song,
I've corrected all my wrongs,
And I smile like a man who is glad to die,
As I take that first hit, from my bubbling ****.
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