8 — this sleep i've been losing
also taking my sanity
i keep thinking about you
do you see my name and your heart beats faster?
do you see my face and wonder how different i am now, after you?
do you remember that we once almost being love together?
cause i do
and that's insane
well, i should just probably go to sleep

maybe i was wrong to thought you would ever be serious,
                                                        ­       meant what you said.
                                                           ­    loved me.

                          maybe it was fool of me to believe you,
                                                            ­              trust you,
                                                            ­              love you.

maybe it was all wrong from the beginning.

                  but,
                  what if
                  maybe
                  i wasn't?

i love you!
okay?
i love you!
i know?
i love you!
i heard you the first time?
i love you!
why are you shouting?

you have me.

                  until every last star
                  in the galaxy dies,

                                              you
        ­                                         have
                                                      me.

i don’t trust easily
i have trust issue,
they said

people lies
it’s their nature,
isn’t it sad?

but when i heard
“it won’t work”
i instantly believe

believing what the cards said

i read once
the easiest way to forget something
is to turn it into smoke
but here i am
six cigarettes after you left
with nothing forgotten

what is it with words and lies
what is it with lies and trust
what is it with trust and people
why do we often give our words to people
why do we often trust people who lies

i used to think nothing is bitter about coffee
until
you leave and take that thought

love the helpless
or
help
the loveless
...?

i wanted you to see me
maybe not with the longing stare like i did,
but i wanted you to
i wanted you to look at me
maybe not in an adoring way i once had,
but i wanted you to
i wanted you to fall for me
i wanted you to love me
and maybe not as hard as i did,
but i really wanted you to
so listen,
i know wishing was all i can do
and you were never a wish-granter
so that leave me at nothing
nothing, at all

if love is pain
lets hurt tonight