Dear Darling,
Please excuse my writing
It’s just that my hands are shaking
And the tears in my eyes
Are making it hard to see

Dear Darling,
How long has it been since we last talked?
A week
A month
A year?

Dear Darling,
How are you doing?
I hope you’re ok
I know I probably shouldn’t be checking up on you
But you know how worried I get

Dear Darling,
I probably won’t even send this
Because I am a coward
And I don’t think I’ll ever be able to tell you
I love you

I am everything
Therefore, I am nothing
But if I am nothing
How can I be everything?
Exactly
You cannot define me
I am everything
I am nothing
All at once
You cannot define me

I’ll trace your veins
I’ll look for your heartbeat
I’ll reach for hands
To try to make you appear

But you’re not here
You’re with someone else
I should have already given up
But I’m still calling your name

Hey, brother
Does the fire still run through your veins?

Hey, sister
Do you still have a fighters soul?

Hey, lover
Is love still filling up your heart?

Because the days now seem to be getting longer
And grey is filling up the sky

It seems as though a battle is coming
And we have no choice but to fight

So, now gather up your arms
And prepare your armor, too

Because if it’s a war they want
Then a war is what they’ll get

Hey, big brother
Do you remember me?
I’m the little sister you’ll lose
In a few months or so
I look up to you
So **** much
You’re my hero
My best friend
The only one I can trust
But you mistreat me
So ******* much
It’s like you hate me
I don’t want to put myself through this anymore
So once you leave for college
I won’t see you anymore
Not willingly
You’ll lose a little sister
And I’ll lose the person
Who hurts me the most

“Worthless *******”
You yell at me
Time after time
Your words are bullets
And you act as if
I have a bulletproof vest on
But I don’t

“No wonder you’re a loser”
You taunt
Every **** day
Whenever I make
A simple mistake
And I seem to make those a lot

“You’re an ungrateful *****”
You shout at me
Just because I don’t do
Exactly as you say
You manipulative *******

“Go **** yourself”
You sneer
Fine
You win
I’m done
I’ll be gone before you know it

When I die
Cremate me
And mix my ashes with glitter
Explode them with fireworks
As rock music blares in the distance
Make a bonfire
And drink
As you reminisce about my life