Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

I could tell from the start
When you guarded your heart
I should have walked away
But I got caught in your trap
A web of love and lies
I couldn't escape
I wanted the pain

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

I fell too hard
Too fast for you to catch
Love like fireworks
That burned out too quick
Like a cigarette

I should have walked away
I should have already known
There’s nothing but misery
Left in love for me

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

Oh my sweet misery
The pain comes for free
It’s a bitter sweet

And now I’m standing alone
Even more than before
Sweet misery

Maybe if I drink another coffee, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I read another book, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I listen to music, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I keep writing, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get on the internet, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I look at pictures, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I watch videos and movies, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I make new friends, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get a boyfriend, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I sleep for 14 hours straight, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I get out-of-my-mind drunk, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I smoke, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I pop some pills, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I quit eating, I’ll feel better
Maybe if I cut myself, I’ll feel better
It seems like my whole life
Has turned into “what if?”
Hoping I’ll feel better
So maybe if I **** myself, I’ll feel better

I bet the reason
You hate yourself
Is because you gave all your love
To someone else
And when they gave none
In return
You were left with nothing more
Than an empty, hollowed heart
And no love, not even for yourself

But darling, don’t you fret
Because someday, someone will come
And they will fill your heart with love
And joy
Asking for nothing in return
And when you see that someone loves you
You will learn to love again
Not just them
But also yourself

I don’t understand
Why you romanticize love so much
Love is not always kind
It’s not alway careful
It’s not alway happy
Love is a monster
Love makes you yearn
For one who will never love you back
And force you to see them
Every **** day
And face them
Knowing you can never have them
Love is a painful feeling
That leaves you powerless
It strips you of your pride
As you watch him
Happy with someone else
Love is blinding
And you don’t see his flaws
His mistakes
His shortcomings
You overlook how many times he’s hurt you
And how he doesn’t deserve you
Love is selfish
Because you give
Or you take
More and more love
Until one or both hearts
Are empty
Love is a ******* monster
I know
I’ve been a victim
I have all the scars
So don’t tell me
About how beautiful love is
While I lay here
Bleeding and alone
From the beating love gave me

Once
I heard that if you can’t sleep at night
You’re either in love
And you can’t stop thinking
Of your beloved
Long enough for sleep to come
Or you’re lonely
And the pain of being desolate
Is just too much
For you to fall asleep
Honestly
I've gone through both
And I couldn't tell you
Which one is worse

There’s this pain
Inside of my heart
It’s this deep ache
The kind that you try to ignore
But it never goes away
It’s loneliness
A desolate anger
That starts inside my heart
And runs through my veins
It makes me want to scream and yell
It makes me want to punch the wall
It makes me want to run
And never, ever stop
But end the end of the day
All I can do
Is curl up in a ball
And cry
This pain, this anger
This loneliness
It’s tearing me apart
I don’t know how much longer
I can deal with this
Feeling
But I know
If I wait just a bit longer
I’m going to explode

Your lips are like razor blades
So darling,
Kiss my lips
And my cheek
Kiss my wrist
Just as deep
Maybe then
I can sleep
In a never ending dream