if I should sleep with a lady called death
get another man with firmer lips
to take your new mouth in his teeth
(hips pumping pleasure into hips).

Seeing how the limp huddling string
of your smile over his body squirms
kissingly, I will bring you  every spring
handfuls of little normal worms.

Dress deftly your flesh in stupid stuffs,
phrase the immense weapon of your hair.
Understanding why his eye laughs,
I will bring you every year

something which is worth the whole,
an inch of nothing for your soul.

I have this horrible feeling
Deep inside my
Stomach
That without me
You might do something
Drastic
And without you
I'm feeling
Like I may do the
Same

Because you're my
Bestest friend
In the entire
World
And I'm so sorry
That I moved
To another stupid state
Just 3 hours
Away from you

Because it's so hard
For me
To see you like this
And I feel like
It's all my fault
Because I left
When I feel like
Without you
I may attempt
To be gone
Forever.

-e.w.

some nights there's this overwhelming feeling
of wanting to climb to the roof of a house looking over a city
and getting drunk and screaming The Smiths songs so loudly
that the windows threaten to shatter
and last night was one of those nights,
all i wanted was you there by my side
yelling at the top of your lungs the lyrics to all those songs
we memorized by heart when we were 15
while going through that phase
because i know you are hurting and i'm hurting too
and such a thing, well, such a thing would be a privilege,
and i'm so very sure that we'd be the happiest people
on the planet after it! we'd pass out in our room,
those moments however long or short they may be,
would last, would feel like eternity,
and an eternity of joy is all we strive for.

today i am a hole
i am a relapse of yesterday
and last year
I am not the light i've come to see
i am darkness
engulfing my heart
and turning it blue
so it can slowly freeze over
to bring me back
to times i thought
would never be seen again

If it's a sin
to keep things interesting,
let's misbehave.