The fact that there are so many
people in this world
hurts

They fill each corner of the street
They move about so
messily

How can there be so many when
I am only one
How

They live their lives so differently from
how I live my
own

They seem reckless and so fortunate with
closed eyes and different
souls

I don't understand how there can be
so many people unlike
me

I tire of the games played
by lonely hearts and broken minds
I wish to enter a peaceful place
where our love is nothing more
then a closed one sealed away
from the world so that no power
could interrupt us as we make our life
We will be a solid love

I'm here because i'm hurting
I'm here because i'm sick
I'm here because i'm dying
From things they can't predict

I'm here because they need me
I'm here because of their plight
I'm here because I am the demon
who keeps them up at night

I'm here because the world is broken
it's bent  beyond repair
I'm here because all hope has gone
To those who've had it fair

I'm here because, if they fix me
I will be here no more
I'm here because each day we wake
Our muscle aching sore

I'm here because time wears on
I'm here because my heart beats
In unison with that clock
That beats till we both cease

I'm here because we're hurting
I'm here because we're sick
I'm here because we're dying
Just listening to the tick

We are the worlds children
with glitter on our face
who scream to be noticed
then are shoved down to "our place"

Hated for the love we give
by those who live in fear
We try not to cry in front of those
who we can manage to keep near

Life mocks us as we break the fall
of those who feel as we do
We yell for all the world to hear
The world who we have lied to

Rights are denied to us
as is so often said
The right that I wish to enjoy most
Is the right to clear my head

Fear so often permeats the place
where I should be at ease
My dreams have been stolen from me
By those who think the tease

But never for a moment would
I wish to change who I am
All I wish is to one day be wed
be it to a woman or a man

The pain is gentle enough to love
a sweet surrender to the existence
of heaven and  hell as they collide
inside of this broken lust

I urge the empty away with thoughts
that capture you in full
Thoughts of your eyes and
of the glint they hold

Secretly ****** and confident
of what they represent
I fell for those eyes so long ago
and finally I allow them to work

I let the need rush through my soul
I feel your name dance on my tongue
I love the pain of wanting you
I need for the existence of this sin

I wish for a time
when fire and ice can feel
this collision and
live through it

I wish for their survival
so they may know
the ecstasy felt in a match so wrong
It ends all that they are.

Ill matched by all is the disappointment
Coursing through your heart you close
Your eyes to the world
Begging a silent forgiveness

You wish for a change
Your love sick heart can feel no more
Lest you wish to throw it all
To the waiting abyss

And what is the state of this aforementioned nothing?
It is yearning
It is lonely
It is nothing

In your emptiness you feel as that black hole does
Wishing to bring all in
But when at last you grasp something
It dies

If I have to break, let it be quietly
Let me turn from it all, without a mention
Until I am gone, don't speak of me
A selfless break will bring the long awaited peace

If I have to break, let me vanish
For years to come I am a phantom
A shadow of the abyss
An empty memory to those who broke the doll

If I have to break, let me be on stage
A stage of my creation
That empty stage with a spotlight
An empty theatre to compleat the scene

If I have to break, let it be painless
Yes, there is fear
A fear of the something, of feeling
A case not visible where I have been

If I have to break, let the world remember me fondly
Let them smile on my memory
As the years pass
Let them cry

If I have to break, let it be soon.