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Dev A Mar 2014
Continuation of Life is just a Metaphor*

The wolves sing
Such a lovely song;
Howling, howling,
Calling the pack home.

The lone wolf
Hears the angelic sound,
Despairing, for he is all alone.
He follows the sound,
Remembering his own pack;
So similar, yet so different.
The sounds of playful competition,
The smell of his own kind.

Right in front of him,
Yet so distant,
The pack sees, smells, hears him.
He knows he’s unwelcome;
He feels it.
But the lone wolf
Has been alone for too long.

The wolf pushes forward,
Daring another to challenge him.
The pack doesn’t attack
But the lone wolf’s presence
-Startling and sudden-
Is not acknowledged,
Making it known
The lone wolf is just that;
A solitary, deranged, unwanted wolf.

He stays.
The lone wolf joins the pack,
Unwelcome as he is.
He’s not permitted to join
The hunt, the feast, the camaraderie.
But he knows how to survive on his own.

His lone howl
Calls to the moon,
Calls to his lost family,
Calls to those he’ll never see again.
He’s joined a new pack
But they don’t see him as a pack mate;
“Not yet” he thinks,
“Not yet, but they will.”

The lone wolf goes to sleep
Each and every night,
Waiting, just waiting
For the next day
When the pack will accept him,
Count him as one of their own.
Dev A Mar 2014
Sleep, sleep, sleep
Too much, not enough;
Not reaching a balance,
What is wrong?
Where has the time gone?
Lack of focus,
Lack of I don't know what.
Nothing is definite,
Nothing is permanent,
Nothing makes sense.

Help, help, help
I don't know what's wrong,
My eyes are closing.
All I want is to crawl into bed
And curl up into a ball,
Leaving this world behind
To find that place in my mind,
That place where all is locked inside
For none to find.

****, ****, ****
Nothing's been done.
These demons are attacking,
Fighting for control.
Who are you?
Who am I?
I've changed too much
To recognize who I am.
There's work to do
Papers piling up.

Pain, pain, pain
My mind is cracking,
Emotions are flowing
At unexpected moments
I don't know what's happening.
Thoughts are leaving before fully forming,
Leaving much confusion.
Not knowing is making me sick,
Unmotivated to do anything
Except lie here staring at a wall.
Dev A Mar 2014
"What am I doing here?"
That question runs through my brain;
Jumping, dancing, swirling.
Minute after minute,
Hour after hour,
Day after day,
All I hear
Is this one simple question,
"What am I doing here?"

Am I here for the education?
Am I here for the academics?
Am I here for my license?
Or am I here just because?

I think I'd be happier
In some far off land.
But here I am instead.

I think I'd be happier
In some other school.
But here I am instead.

I think I'd be happier
In much warmer climate.
But here I am instead.

Every waking moment,
My first thought is always,
"What am I doing here?"
This usually leads to,
"Why am I in America?"

Minute after minute,
Hour after hour,
Day after day;
It's always the same question,
"What am I doing here?"
Dev A Feb 2014
Wake up
Wake up
Its time to go
You’ve said good-bye
Now let’s go.

Eight years of my life
Flashed before my eyes
(But really it was only four)
It was time to leave.

Two weeks spent travelling
A seemingly endless time
Upon return
There’s nowhere to go
No place to call home.

Let’s go
Let’s go
It’s time to leave,
You’ve packed your bags
Now let’s go.

A few weeks for exploration
Then it’s time to meet new people
School starts
And the months go by
I want to be home.

A year is up
So much has happened
I’ve made new friends
And it sort of feels like home
Without the memories.

Goodbye
Goodbye
You’ve made new friends
Now it’s time they leave
Now they go.

A new year has started
More friends to make
New countries to explore
Time flies by
Where is home?

The year is ended
Flights are booked
Home is in sight…
But at journeys end
It feels like a different world.

Hurry up
Hurry up
It’s time to make your second goodbyes
The tickets are ready
Now it’s time to go.

Without a thought
A new year starts
Old friend’s new friends
All together
Not tearing apart.

Another year passes
Where has the time gone?
It’s halfway through the year
Another goodbye
The end of the year; add three more.

Wait!
Wait!
It’s time for me to go
I’m not ready to say goodbye
Now it’s time to go.

The months drag on
As I make new friends
(There are no old)
The year is almost up
I’m longing for a home.

Summer is gone and school has started
New cities to adventure to
Sports in different countries.
Friends have changed
And some stayed the same.

Farewell for now
Farewell for now
It’s time to leave
But I’ll see you all
At summers end.

Friends and drama
Fights are breaking out
All I want
Is to disappear
And go home.

School ends without a change
(Fights and drama surround us all)
A new year starts
Things finally work out
But it’s not the same.

Come on
Come on
It’s time to leave
It’s our last trip
Now let’s go.

Our final year
Things are weird
The truth is pushed aside
Where no one can see it
The year goes on.

Graduation
Nobody wants to be the first
To say the unwanted words
That will bring an end
To the past four years.

Goodbye
Goodbye
It’s time to go our separate ways.
I’ll go here you’ll go there
Now it’s time to go.

9 years have flown by
Now I’ve left and I don’t know who I am
I’m meeting new people
And trying to find my way
Away from everything I knew.

All I know is
I’m American; but not really
I’m Malaysian; but not really
I’m a part of a different culture
Mixed between the two.

Here I am
Here I am
It’s time to embrace the new
I’m here now
Now it’s time to explore the new.
Dev A Feb 2014
Speak up
And speak out.
Say what you mean
And mean what you say.
Don't be afraid
To let your voice ring out.
Be clear
For all to hear.
And never doubt
That what you have to say is
ALWAYS
Worth expressing
Dev A Feb 2014
Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye…

How many more times
Must I say those two
Simple,
Sad,
Dreadful,
Words?

How many more times
Must I say those two
Heartbreaking,
Cheerless,
Mournful,
Words,
To the people
Who mean the most
To me?

I’ve said those two
Depressing,
Stressful,
Gloomy,
Words,
More times
Than I can count.

I don’t know
How many more times
I can say those two
Dismal,
Horrible,
Upsetting,
Words,
Before I fall apart
Into a million
Little,
Tiny,
Microscopic,
Pieces,
Left unfixable.
Impossible
To be put back together.

How many more times
Must I say those two
Tearful,
Heart-rending,
Wretched,
Words?

Good-bye
Good-bye
G­ood-bye…
I wrote this one after brother moved over seas a few days ago
Dev A Jan 2014
I want to curl up
Into a tiny ball
Covered in blankets,
Surrounded by darkness.

The loneliness is creeping forth,
Slowly encompassing my life.
Each good-bye
Draws the emptiness forth;
Encouraging it to entwine with the loneliness.

The internal darkness
Climbs through me,
Effecting every part of my life;
Clawing its way to the surface.

The length between each hello
Grows and grows,
Eating at my insides,
Slowly and meticulously.

Each good-bye
Leaves cracks in my heart.
I don’t know
How much more I can endure.

My heart’s fissures
Are widening,
Becoming near impossible to close.
Darkness reaches up
Augmenting each rift.

Attaching to my soul,
The darkness,
The loneliness,
Encompasses me whole.
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