I chose my life
I choose this strife
I focus on wrong
Ignoring right
Wading in darkness
Evading the light
I close the blinds
And dream of off-whites
Pale as pink roses
The sin is inside
I didn't choose to live
Yet I choose to die

I got lost
A long time ago
In the morning frost
Beneath the snow
The sheet of ice so delicate
From winter rain
The shell of it
It shattered right inside my chest
Sent me hurling
Lost my breath
Haven't found myself since then
Still free falling
Inside the winds
Found a place
That's nothing at all
It's ever changing
Like bathroom stalls
They're familiar
Yet all the same
I'm still falling
Still insane

Everything I touch
Turns into worthless dust
Everything I create
Just wants to hide away
So hideously disfigured
So disgustingly afraid
Everything I create
Is a mirror of my face
Cracked down to my soul
I'm six feet in this hole
Underneath all my mistakes
And the ****** things I create

I keep licking this tree
But the sap is gone
It's all dried up
We're moving on
We're getting old
Both you and I
In lots of ways
We both can fly
But also too scared
To flirt with the sky
I felt a little bold
And punched you goodbye
Now all I want
Is to kiss your black eye
I can't tell if what I did
Was wrong or right
I ripped you away
Attached at my side
Burst open the veins
That kept us alive
Tore open wounds
Stretched the lies
Our love was an ocean
But it's overtime gone dry

Slipping back into bad habits
I'm worthless again
This stupid **** always happens
I lost all my "friends"
I'm drinking up the sadness
It stays with me till the end
I'm lost in all this madness
Feeling worthless once again
Never knew how much you meant
You'll be back but it hurts till then
A few days and I'm falling apart
Just a while ago we weren't too far
Now we're separated by a million stars
Just think of me please
Wherever you are
I'm lost in the galaxy
No air to breath
So lonely
I miss when it was you and me
What we had was perfect
So lovely
I pushed everyone away
So I could be
Absorbed in you
And live in peace
Your absence is silent
Yet so loud it screams

I saw a bird
On the ground dead
For a cat to eat
For the flies to nest
I suppose these things
Just happen sometimes
I guess it was odd
They usually fly
Over and over
I see the same man
Pushing the same cart
All around the lands
He's got a brimmed hat
A shirt and pants
Even though I pity him
I know that I can't
Simply assume
That his life is in vain
He's a stranger
I don't know his name
Sometimes I see cars
Rolling along at night
And I can't help but wonder
As I gaze into their lights
Just where they're going
Or how they feel
Or if they're tired
Guiding the wheel
The thoughts disappear
Into the red glow
When people die
Where do they go ?

Please be okay
I hope you’re alright
I can’t handle anything else
I can’t spend another night
Drowning myself in tears
Passing the day in sighs
Please just take care
Please oh please don’t die