It's no fun
To meet up anymore
I'm a broken record
A revolving door
I say anything
You want me to say
If you put me somewhere
I swear I'll stay
I'm an empty cup
Waiting to be filled
I take and take
Then tip over and spill
I'm that last leaf
On a tree in the fall
Everyone's moved on
But I'm scared of it all
It's no fun
To meet up anymore
The girl you know is gone
I'm a vacant lifeless corpse

I swore I heard my name
Called quietly behind
But turning to see empty space
I began to realize
Maybe it was
The quiet itself
Knowing how lonely
It is in this hell
Maybe just maybe
It called out my name
To let me know
That it feels the same

Sitting on your bedroom floor
We opened our minds and closed the door
Opening up a crumpled foil
In porcelain boats we abandoned the shore
Sailing whirlpool seas, setting out to explore
These dizzy brains stuck in our heads
That whisper things
We wish we were dead
Time dripping like candle wax
Twitching oxygen in laughing gas
Snow angels in clothes on the floor
The world warps into a meadow of answers
A collection of open doors

How beautiful it is
The ability to live
Diving into pools
Of papers and clips
Hissing serpents slithering up the wall
Shape shifting into watchful owls
Soft beckoning calls
Water spilling in through cracks
Freezes in ice, cool and black
Thawing into toxic waste
Trembling numbers and calendar dates
Escaping my body through bursted stitches
I can still remember your name

Thunder booming
All around
The perfect cover
For our sound
Gentle rain
Falling on our lips
In between
Every fervent kiss
Wrapped up in
The warm gentle winds
Hungry fingers
Graze lonely skin

I was afraid of your fingers
Crawling in my hair
Like silent spiders
Lurking there
I was afraid of your voice
So deep and low
It was the only thing
That let me know
You were still alive
Lying at my side
I swore you were dead
Most of the time
I was so deathly afraid
Of everything you did
But most of all
I was afraid that you'd dip
And leave me here
All alone
Abandoned by fear
An empty home
I was so afraid
To displease you
That I did everything
You asked me to do
And gradually
I fell in love
With the very fear
Provoked by your touch
But just as I went
To reach out my hand
And grab hold of you
You suddenly vanished
And left me alone
With these dreary thoughts
Without that fear
I've become so lost

Blood dripping
From my nose
Vibrant red
Like a blooming rose
Bruises spreading
Under my skin
Like water color paints
Or an oil spill
Trembling electricity
Fills my limbs
Waiting for the invisible
To strike again
But the worst torture
Among them all
Is when mirrors
Form from walls
And I see
The mess you've made
Of a girl who said
She'd never be this way