I'm falling in love
While my world is
Falling apart

Pretty hard to deal with
All this pain right now

Dearest sister
On this special day
You reached a milestone
Hit 21 years of age

Live it up
Enjoy these days
You'll remember them forever
As the "good old days"

Never forget those
Who made you who you are
Remember us
As you follow your dreams
Become who you really are

Everything about her
Was perfection
Her laugh her smile her nose

Love was all I
Felt around her
I never felt anything bad
Always safe and secure

She hated herself
Could never see
Beauty in her flaws

She never believed
When I told her I loved her
One day she
Stopped loving me
But she'll always
Mean the world to me

Time will never heal
All the pain you've caused
All the times a river
Flooded down my cheeks
Right through my innocence

Our black and blue past
Will never fade to grey
All the times the belt
Slammed into my back
Your fists grabbed my hair
Killed my pleasure

The future won't change
What you've done to me
How much you hurt me

This is goodbye
Not just for now
Bot forever

You think I'm so
Scared of you
Your insults
Haunting my
Every waking moment

You think I'm afraid
To hear the same thing
Every single day
Be reminded
I'm dumb I'm ugly
I'll never be good enough
Not for you not for me
Not for anybody

Just remember
I know what you think
I know I can't do anything right
The insults just keep coming
Until I can't handle it

One day I disappeared
Went away
Because your words may
Have scared me
But your words
NEVER did more damage
Than the knife

Fractured for now
Wait a year or two
Someday I’ll be better
That change in me still won’t be
Good enough for any of you

I’ll be changed
I’ll be better
You can believe  
I’ll be a better person
From all the pain and suffering
I endured because all of you

Those dark shadows inside will
All be gone
Totally out of the picture
You won’t need to pick up the pieces
Or put the puzzle of me together
I’ll be stronger than you remember

Once I’m better
I’ll be over you
Everything you meant to me
All you meant to me will
Only be a memory of
The clingy child I used to be

Finally let go of you
I don’t need you anymore
After all it was all your fault
You were the one who walked away
You were the one that couldn’t commit

All these years
I never knew
Who I was and I
Was only the person
I thought you wanted me to be

All these years
I tried to be
Good and smart
Always do the right thing

All this time
I could never see
You were turning me
Into someone I
Never wanted to be

Who are you to tell me
Who I should be
Let me grow up
Into the person I'm meant to be

Wake up
Get ready
Go to school
Hang with friends
Come home
Head straight up to my room

You think I'm so
Secretive so
Very sneaky for
Taking time to be alone
Fight the demons
I try so hard to not let out

But you don't know that
All you see
All you've ever seen is me
Isolating myself
If you think I'm
Protecting myself
You couldn't be more wrong
I'm protecting YOU from the
Hell that constantly torments me

I can hear your thoughts
They echo across the room
Calling for help for
Someone to love you

I can feel your pain
It breaks my heart
With Every step you take

I can see your dreams
Of the future
Happy that they include
Forever and "I do"

We're living the dream
No more slaves
Violence or poverty

Well educated
White picket fences
Dogs as pets
Instead of meals

So twisted
Our country
Is just a lie
Convincing people
We're better than
The rest of the world

Living in a large house
With a white picket fence
With my husband
And our two children
With a puppy
Running around our land
At least that's the dream

First we painted
Our fence yellow
We had two happy
Healthy kids

Then things
Turned blue
Between me and you
Then the fence turned too

When things got bad
When it was almost over
Things turned red

That fence that
Was originally white
Has faded to black
Everything that
Could be is now dead

This is cheesy but
Words can't express how I feel
What you've done to me

Butterflies in my stomach
Cant breathe without you
Baby you make me so happy


You really understand me
Get me like no one else
You make me feel safe
that's all I ever wanted

All I ask is
please
Dont break my heart

Sitting here all alone
Waiting for somneone
To be there for me
Tell me they care about me

I'm so scared
That I'll be forever alone
Useless, worthless
Thast's all I'll ever be
Maybe you'll care for the
Ghost of me

On the verge
Edge of my
Thin line of sanity
Silently crumbling
Fading to grey

Silly me
Thinking this could work
Someone could care
I could be happy
Silly me actually believing
Someone could want me

I never feel my anxiety
Creeping in on me
It crashes down in
Waves of panic and horror

When it finally reaches shore
It's pulling back
Waiting to attack again

There's no real
Calm inside this storm
Swirling in my mind

When the waves hit
Gotta brace for impact
Lest it pull you under

If I could fall
Asleep and
Never wake up
To this pain again
I'd take that chance

If I could wake up
Outside of this hell
I would be oh so
Grateful
For the opportunity
Of a better life

As time flies by
We finally realize
All the mistakes we've made
Wrongs we've done
People we hurt

As time goes on
Memories fade
People slip away

As time goes on
We lose the people
we love the most

As time passes us by
We realize the
Mistakes we've made
And there's no way
To go back and fix
Everything we did wrong

Far away from inside myself
Watching this prosperous land
Sitting in front of me
With people sipping lattes
Plugged into a virtual reality
All seems so surreal

Children rush through
Shelves filled with
Memories of far out places
Losing themselves within
Someone else's stream of consciousness

Every day I wish that
I could fit in this
Bubble with the rest of you

At the end of the day
As the lights fade
Lonely pages are stuck
Waiting for someone
To give them a purpose

Who's fault is it
When you fall in love

Is it your fault
For developing
Those horrid feelings

Is it his fault for being so
Sweet perfect and charming

Or is it the devil
Playing tricks with your mind
Making you believe
Happiness is in sight

Into girls
Ino guys
I like this
I like that
I go both ways
And that's that

INSECURE, retarted SUICIDAL FREAK!
Yeah I'm aware
That's what them fools are calling me
They think what I tried
Is so God-**** funny

What was she thinking?
She should have died
No one likes her
She has no reason to live!
Why's she still here

Don't they realize
I know what they think
Don't they know I don't want my life
For heaven's sake they can have

Why can't you understand this
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE
I GIVE UP

Best friends
Fall for each other
Try to go out
Dating doesn't work out

They break up
Yes, in this story
They remain friends

Pieces you left of me
Shattered over the floor
Walking on glass
It's no surprises I have
Scars covering my body

You knew I was broken
When you left
But you took advantage
Acted like you cared

I was nothing before
What would that make me now?
Silent, broken, alone
I'll never be
Anywhere near whole

Take the pieces
Of this broken heart
Take some glue and
Try to put it back together

Still broken
Just patched up
The pieces of me
Scattered everywhere

No one knows
Quite how it feels
To be so broken

They can try
To understand
They'll never know
How to make this heart
Fall in love again

How do you explain caring
Worrying about someone?
When your heart stops
When they're gone
Your heart goes out to them
All you want is to save them?

Everytime they're gone
You worry, wonder
What are they up to?
Hope that in time they
Will come back safely
Into your arms

Being told you
Having the right
To express your feelings
Is nice
Until you realize
That's not entirely true

Having thoughts and
Expressing feelings is great
But people still shut you down
Tell you it's wrong
To feel that way

Freedom of speech is a lie
When you're told
You can say what you want
Then you get in trouble for it

I mean you have the right
To be offended by my opinion
But there's a fine line between
Telling someone they're inappropriate and
Censoring everything they say

Waiting for class to start
Is way too boring
Sitting in a silent room
Full of anxious teenagers
Yeah sounds like fun
Too bad for me
I don't have the option
To get up and run

Once upon a time
In a land far far away
We heard that
Roses are red and
Violets are blue

I don't know about you
But I'm sick of hearing
That same old  story

We're born
We grow up
Get old
And die
The cycle repeats

How about if this story
Wasn't on permanent repeat

Roses are red
Violets are blue
This is my poem
It's all for you

You are my achilles heel
A man after my own heart
Your love is my drug
It caught me off guard
Now my heart is yours
Forever and always

This is the calm before the storm
The day before the night
We have each other
So let's enjoy this moment

Winner take all
So take my heart it's yours to keep
As long as you don't let me fall

Clearly he doesn't know
Doesn't care enough
To possibly come close to
Understanding how I feel

Oh how I wish
He knew how I felt
How I wish what we had
Could've been real

Dreams couldn't make
Someone as perfect as him
So I have to settle

Yet I know somewhere
Deep down inside
That I can so better
I really do deserve better
Than what he gave me

As the darkness rolls in
Each second, minute, hour
Drags painfully on

As the darkness
Clouds my eyes
Reality fades
Happiness slowly
Crumbles inside of me

As my heart darkens
I lose faith
Unsure of light
Stuck in my own mind
With no escape

As darkness envelopes me
I can finally see
This is who I am
This is me

To date a poet
You gotta know a few things
We're sensitive and
Good with our words
Like to cuddle and
Watch movies and read

If you understand
All these things
You'll be set
Before you know it
You're dating a poet

Dear best friend
So I have a lot of feelings, and I've been holding this in for a long time.
I know you don't read my RA's, but if you end up seeing this please don't be mad.

As you know I'vb been on here for quite a while.  
You were one of my first friends on here. Been together since the start.
now it seems like we're drifting apart
you never talk to me anymore
It feels like you don't care

We used to be so close
Talk every day
Have a real relationship
Love each other

It feels like you're neglecting me
Forgetting about our friendship
i thought I meant something to you
You used to be my everything
We were meant for more than this


These feelings hurt
Like you're not here
I want you to understand
That it hurts
How I want to kick you in the nuts
Until you realize
I'm right here

Should I even try anymore
when you don't care
I need you now
why aren't you here

You don't talk to me anymore
At least not like you used to
Please come back to me
I really miss you
More than anything
Would you
Understand me please

Dear crush,
Maybe I should tell you the truth. Maybe you should know that I like you. As more than just a friend. These feelings are fairly new. They came on so suddenly. But these feelings are so innocent. I mean I want them to go away. That's only because I'm scared you won't feel the same way I do.

The truth is we used to be friends. I mean we still are. Right? You were gone, and then you came back. Now that you're here feelings are starting to develop.

What if you hate me? What if you just act like I never said anything? I don't want your response to my feelings to hurt me.

You're so sweet and special and nice and adorable. You make me feel happy and special and real.

I like to think we could work out. Maybe we could be happy together. But I want us to be happy. Just you and me against the world. Together we'll be okay.

Dear unborn child
Sorry to say this, but
You might not exist
Sometimes your mummy
Has had enough
Doesn't want to have to
Deal with this ****

Dear unborn baby
I'm sorry in advance
For the state of your mommy
I hope you don't have
Half the problems she does

Dear unborn baby
You deserve better than
What this world will give you
Sorry that you have to live with this

Dear unborn baby
Life will hit you hard
Smack you in the face
Build you up just to
Knock you right back down

Dear unborn baby
Life will be hard
If I'm there with you
No one will love you
As much as I will

This will be hard
This will be rough
Together we will make it through
With you here with me
This life won't be
Half as scary

Death is
Everything
And makes people
That are depressed feel
Happy on the inside

Demons lurk in the depths
Between your heart and mind
Taking over control
What’s on the inside

Scars
Cover the insanity
Coursing through your veins
Death, blood, war
Flood your brain

The demons inside hurt you
Break your soul down
You’re stronger than them
Strong enough to
Free yourself of this nightmare

Drown them all out
With the sounds of
Birds chirping
Alarms going off
Before scattered buzzes
Drive you past
INSANITY

Life peels the energy
From your decaying body
Slowly taking you away
It's taking you away
Guess that means
You're too good for this
Pathetically cruel wasteland

Darkness builds up in my soul
Erupting like a volcano
Pain is all I have left
Ready to take over
Ecerything inside me
Someone help me
Somebody save me
I have no one left
Only myself to rely on
No one else

Two diseases
Locked inside
Of this body

Who am I?
Just a vessel
Taken over through
Demons that haunt the likes of you


Depression courses through the body
Sapping your energy
Making you sleep all day
Making you wish
The world would slip away

Anxiety is a beast
It freaks you out
Causes you to be
Unable to breathe

You have ot so great
I wish you could be taken over
Maybe then you'll see
WHat it's like to see me

The devil invited me
Into his world last night
Invited me to see the
Other side of life

The ghosts came out
Haunting young
Frightened souls

He took me to the graveyard
Where the dead party
While the rest of the world
Mourns their loss

Oh you
What were you thinking that time
Didn’t you know you’d always be mine
Why?
Why did you think I’d leave you
Didn’t you know I loved you too
Didn’t you know
I couldn’t live without you
If
You ever leave me again
Just know that there won’t always
Be another second chance
This time
I decided you were mine
That this time you’d  
Really changed and you’d
Be able to stay by my side
I will
Believe in you
Hold onto you
Do everything I can to show you
How much I trust you

Forever
Can’t be too far away
Hopefully you’ll be able to stay

Do you see that girl?
The one
Wearing those dark,
Depressing clothes?
With those sad, bloodshot, blue eyes
That always seem to be so far away?
Sitting all alone in the
Back corner of the classroom?
The one most of you people are
Afraid to go talk to?

Do you know her-
That nameless somebody?
Anything at all about
Who she is?
Pain she puts herself through
Almost every day?
Have you seen
Any of the scars she creates
All over her body
To forget the pain of her dark past?
Guess none of you cowards would know
You’re all too afraid too ask!

Do you know where she comes from?
That she was bounced around houses
Never able to settle down
Never able to be part of a family
Do you even care;
Do you sit there
Laughing and smirking;
Just ignoring her?
Well she’s still there!

You should know
That girl is sitting there
Planning her escape from her
Painful, lonely, friendless life;
No one ever took the time
To try to know her

Funny how you had the time to talk about her
No one could ever talk to her

All she wants is for
Someone to show her they care
Someone to tell her
It wouldn’t be okay
If she disappeared

You should be ashamed of yourselves
Someone could’ve helped her
Made the effort to notice her
Showed her that
In time things will get better

One day she’s going to be gone
The rest of you will be left to wonder
What would’ve happened if
One of you treated her better
Instead of ignoring her
You’ll all be left to wonder:
What’s it going to be like
When it’s one of us
Who decides they want to disappear?

drowning
in my
sorrows
and trying to
pretend that being
pretty doesn't matter
everyone knows
all about how
real the struggle is

19 years of
Thinking it's okay
My parents are happy
They'll always be together

Now they're not
THings have changed
They're divorcing
I have to pretend it's okay

Please don't tell me
Not to hurt myself
It isn't that easy

Don't make it sound like
I'm not trying to stop
You're my friend
Obviously you see
How much I'm struggling

Maybe if I made
These terrible scars
On your arms
Instead of mine
You'd get addicted
See it isn't so easy to stop

Better I hurt you than me
***** please
We all know you were asking for this

Once you hurt yourself
Don't come crying to me
I tried to warn you
You didn't listen
Like I said
Don't come crying to me

Do you see me-
I mean the real me
Not this image I
Half-heartedly portray myself to be

Do you know me
Anything about what’s inside
Or the pain I go through
Each and every day

Who do you think you are
To say you know me
When everything you see is a lie
The truth isn’t something you want to hear

Drowning in this
Hell of my
Own personal misery

Losing control of
Myself and sanity
Searching for a friend
Some light that can help me

Not quite sure what to do
Have little faith left
Holding onto shreds of hope

Sanity slipping away
Grasping onto a
Sliver of hope that
I can be saved

Feelings going all around
One hour its up
The next three it's down
Emotions flying around town

This is me
This is real
Please don't tell me
How I should feel

Drafted into reality
Slated for death
Destined to survive-
Conquer death
Left to face a new reality

After all those terrible memories of
Millions of droplets of dark. red spilled blood cells
Pouring out of my comrades bodies
Feeling the cold limp lifeless
Bodies of friends who used to be there
Before they were gone
Before they went
Six
    Feet
          Under

All those memories
From years of battle
Will haunt me forever
Always be giving me nightmares

Swore to myself I’d never
Revisit the Field of Haunted Dreams and
Lost Memories

I’ll make it to the memorial
Pay my respects
To all those comrades
Who gave up everything
To protect the freedoms
Of our country
All those dear friends who
Deserve to be here more than me

Years have gone by
Time has matured me
Finally made my way
To the memorial

Names of my friends
Flashed through my periphery
As I was scanning that black, granite stone
To see how to personally
Commemorate all the people
Who helped save me


Through the corner of my eye I saw
Written there
Right in front of me
On that black stone wall
Was Me

I had to look back
Make sure it was true
Seeing my name made me
Think about who I was then and
Who I turned out to be
Made me wonder
How things would have been different if
They had called someone else to duty
Instead of me

Would my life have been different
If I finished my education?
Got a real job?
Found a wife,
Made a family
All on my own terms?

Did war make me better or
Would I have been this great on my own?
I was ****** into battle
Forced to grow up
Experienced **** no man should ever have to see
I can’t stop wondering about how
Things could’ve, would’ve, or should’ve been

Will I spend the rest of my life
Asking myself the question of
What if?

Will I ever move on
From my past-
That day my life ended
When I was called to duty
During that draft
Thinking why me?
This shoulda been somebody else

She spends all day
Up in her room
Dreaming of a better place
A castle guarded by a dragon
Where her Prince Charming
Whisks her away
To a new land

She types her feelings away
Writes them down
For the world to see
Nobody knowing who she is

She doesn't know
Who she is or
Who to be
Kept getting
Caged in by society

She is ordinary
A lonely girl
With dreams of
Finding somewhere new

But what she doesn't know
Someone out there is waiting for her
To let her know how
Extraordinary she is