I wish you could see
Exactly how I feel
it may seem confusing
Like I'm not real
But your the last thing I want to be losing
These are the only feelings I've had
In a very long time
But I take things so slow
It's not fair to ask you to wait
And it kills me to know
That it's now too late

True pain....
true pain is a secret
the kind you bear alone
no ones even knows
and as time goes on
it only gets worse
tell some one it hurts
get some help
it only gets worse
so you go on by yourself
an invisible load you carry
where every step is pain
and every step is harder
but you carry on just the same
this is true pain
the kind that is unrevealed
locked inside you
this pain is sealed

I use to think you were blind
Why couldnt you see
You belong with me
But i was the one who was blind
I was the one that couldnt see
We were never meant to be
It tore my mind apart
Wish i found out
Before it did the same to my heart

ok here i am
just a little drunk
and its no secret ive been in a funk
but that doesnt seem to matter
cause you dont care
you're more caught up in your own problems
that you never want to share

and im okay with that
cause i undurstand
the only thing that bothers me
is that you dont see

i have been here the whole time
i see you for who you are
and you only wanted me
until i told you i wanted you
so i guess its true
that we only want what we cant have
so should i chase other women
Or hook up with your bestfriend
just so i can maybe have a chance with you in the end?

I know it's crazy
seriously considering it
and thats how much i want you
see im really a nice guy
but when i showed you that
you stoppped saying hi

I dont understand
you say you want a man but is that not what i am
im here
im honest
but that doesnt seem to matter
i tell you you're pretty
and you're not even flattered

ok thats fine
just tell me you dont want me
and i will mind my own
cause there's plenty a girl that wants me
its just you that im fond of
dont compare it to love
cause maybe thats the problem
you think you have me
but the truth is

i dont want you

unless you want me too

My heart beats out my chest
At a slow and steady pace
Every beat pushes out my feelings
Beats so strong, like i just finished a race
And with a every pulse
An heart aching pain
My whole body is sore
As its travels through every vein
It continues throb
It hurts to be alive
Sometimes i wish it would stop
This feeling is unbearable
My heart is broken
Unrepearable

I thought you would be the one
that was willing to wait
but it seems even for you
I take too long

wake up
work

wake up
work

wake up
work

wake up
work

wake up
work

work up
wake

work up
wake

up work
wake

up wake

work

Your asking me to leave you alone
But that is an impossible request
Because you are the life and soul
I lost long ago
And became this monstrosity of a man

You must not know
Asking me not to want you
Is like telling me not to breath
As I'm strangled underwater
Not to gasp for air
as soon as i get free
There is nothing that could resist
And urge such as this
And that's what's it's like when you say
"leave me be"

This isn't a want
This a need
Just like in order live
I need to feed
And I need blood
And I'm sorry for this
But I thirst for your love
with a vampire's lust

There was a wall of glass
Standing between me and you
You could see me on other side
So you let go of your pride
And sliced your heart
On every shattered sliver of glass
As you broke your barrier apart
But the deepest cut
Came when you had to pick it up

The world is a cold and cruel place
The clouds are dark
life pushes burning wind against your face
and freezing rain falls day after day
there may be no end in sight
but you can find warmth and cover
in the soul of another

You deserve everything
But my heart has been split apart
Many times again
Each part roaming the world
Refusing to return
Half of a half
I'm not all here
So it pains me to say
I can't give you all of me
Only what's left of me

I guess what hurts the most
While I still can't believe
While I still greave
And certainly can't achieve
You were able to move on
And I have this painful happiness
When I see you having fun

There are things in life
that you lose
And while some come back
others never do.
My only question is
Which one are you?

While brushing my teeth
i looked up to the mirror
suprised by what i saw
i smiled for second
and got closer to see it a little clearer
not ashamed when i say i cried
cause what i saw was beautiful
even after all the times i lied
after all the things i have done
with no coming back from
i saw what i thought had died
for the first time
in long time
i looked my self in the eye
and i saw pride

This is the type of night
Where i can think with ease
Soothing and cool
As I lay on my back
a soft gentle breeze
asking questions of the stars
i even look to mars
as i stare in the sky
i sit and wonder
why?

My window has closed
I'm sitting here staring
at what could have been mine
through this crystal clear glass
and all i see
is window pain

The next time you feel all alone
Think of the wolf
And the moon
A love story
Lost in history
Lost from every memory
The meaning of a wolf
Still crying for the moon
A howl on a lonely night
A message with a doomed flight
To never reach its destination
Tragedy in manifestation
Mistaken as warning to those around
But Its a scary sound
An eternal vision
Of your eternal desire
That burns your heart to see
A place you can never be
So When you feel alone
Think of the lone wolf
Crying for centuries
Over countless seas
For the moon
Eternally lost in the night's sky
Still holding on
Every night he will cry
Never ready to say goodbye

This smile hurts to keep
Fighting the urge to weep
The cracks in my face
So obvious the smile is fake
When my eyes look like mace
But what else am I suppose to say
When someone asks
Are you okay?

you make my heart melt
and then evaporate
let me elaborate
when i see you i get butterflys
so much; i throw up
this means i love you too much
not an obsession
more like an addiction
something only seen in fiction
you can tell me anything
but i wont listen
i use to say life's not fair
but now your here
and its too good to be true
i finally found you
like you were the olive branch
and i was the dove
call it true love