Of all the mistakes I've ever made
Many of which changed my life

Like the time I went to jail
Caught an embezzlement charge
Criminal at large
For stealing cd's at the age of 17
Only to grow up to be an accountant
Have every employer doubting

Or the time I decided not go see my God mom
Said I had plans but that was a lie
Only a week later did she die
And it's at her grave I'm trying to say goodbye

OR when I started gambling
And nearly ruined my whole life
Lost all I had and more
Even my father's ring

Of all those things
If there was one i could change
I would go back to that moment
I messed up thing up between you and me
And instead go with plan B
Just for the chance
Just for the possibility
That you could have ended up with me

Im scared to move on
see i can live with this pain
im rather use to this rain
i have always been a hopeless romantic
doing things that don't make sense
like holding on to something that's already gone
but i am so wrong
to be scared to move on
Cause really it's just I don't like giving up
If I think there even a small chance
Like a special circumstance
see im not scared of letting go, getting hurt,
or being alone
im scared of the fact that you could come back
to find me in place that i no longer call home
and im worried i'll miss out on an opportunity
for you to fall back in love with me

You are the apple of my eye
My moon and my stars
And our love will never die
cause i love you to the moon and back
like you're the only girl in the world
you're the only one i see
and that's when i get weak in the knee
cause my heart skips a beat
life really isnt fair but
all is fair in love in war
and even though love is blind
it was love at first sight
You had me at hello
with you everything seems right
With you all my problems go away
i think of you all day
I don't know what else I could say
You really are...
every cliche

I'm really tired of being the bigger man
I hope you respect everything that I am
Cause I'm giving up on you
So you can be happy too
And I mean that to both you two
Cause at first you said it was casual
but now if we are being factual
It's quite the opposite
And that's why I letting go of it
So I hope you can think this is a little sappy
But really I just hope you both are happy





But down below all of this
I still feel a little ******

Get the **** out off my mind
Seriously I'm so done with wanting you
I don't want this yearning
I'm tired of my stomach churning
I run away when I see you
Is that not enough of a clue
But you're always ******* there
No mater where I go
Theres no escape
No matter where I go
I can't you get you out my head
No place is safe
Not even my own ******* bed
Because even there when I'm trying to sleep
You torment me in my dreams
I wake up in screams
Can't you just leave me alone
Or atleast not be there the next time I come home
Go, get out,
LEAVE

Hey how are you?
Look, please pardon my behavior as of latley
But I came to ask a favor
I know it's been a while
So Sorry if this seems a little weird
But from the beginning this is what I feared
You see the thing is
I'm still stuck on you
So if you would do this favor
That would make you my doom
and my savior
Just tell me it's over between me an you
that you don't have feelings for me too
Cause my brain knows it's true
But my heart can't tell it apart
From a passing moment
Or a future that was heaven sent
Please just say it out loud
So my heart can face the music
So it can let go of these feelings that are now useless
Cause really these thoughts are ruthless
So please lay my hopes to ease
Just do me this one small kindness
it's the least you could do
atleast tell me its over
So I can atleast have some closure

I'm enraged by the mistakes I made
Like trying to kiss you while you were still engaged
That cost me everything that I could of had
Cause after that you were so mad
now theres no going back
I see you with someone new
And there's nothing I can do
except watch you from a distance
Always reminded of that instance
That changed our fate
Oh the irony that your name is destiny
Cause i feel like life is testin me
I want to fight for you
But It just wasnt meant to be
I'm detained in my brain
By all the things that could be gained
So by this simple fact I am pained
Simply put
You're not preordained