Derek Wings

Derek Wings Apr 2014

Black Out or Back Out

Music blowing in my ear
but temptation is all i hear

inhibitions subside and all that remains is desire
if you told me what i did last night
i would call you a liar

drink in my hand
women in my sight
i can barley stand
one hell of a night

my memory of my actions
as questionable as my actions themselves

everything is blurry
whats wrong, whats right
what did i do last night?
Im starting to worry

That line is so thin
i stumble from side to side
right and wrong
i stumble back in forth
until i swayed into a decision
that maybe i shouldnt have made

the only thing i do remember
is waking up in a place i don't remember

Derek Wings Apr 2014

A bullet to a Gun

How am I to survive in this world
when you have left me for another
you were my diary my adviser and friend
but some man with a mask brought you to an end
who is he to take what i loved
you were taken from me by a bullet
its crazy cause when i think about it
you were like my gun
i...nothing but a bullet
when anger overwhelms
you were the safety the kept me from poppin off
when i lost all motivation
you were the gunpowder that pushed me forward
when i was lost
you were the barrel
you pointed me in the right direction
a gun made out of love in affection
the opposite of the tool destruction
that emptied you from chamber of this world
Now i have no gun
anger is now my gunpowder
and the safety barrel are gone
so anyone who is around should run
cause i'm popping off at everyone
in any every direction
A weapon of mass destruction
destroying everything I see

including me

Derek Wings Apr 2014

Bottom of the Bottle

Everything i am is inside this bottle
I struggle with everything I have to find the bottom
But it seems endless and eternal
As i press my mouth to the lip
I sip from this bottle until i feel myself rip
Everything that dwells in the cavity of my chest
Escapes and leaves me
All the pain happiness and anger
Im left looking in the mirror at a stranger
Everything i was before gone
All i am is only what is left within this last bottle
This soon to be empty vessel now looks as i a feel
As hollow as the world i live in
Empty and cold
But i drink to the contrary
To place scolding and crowded
When I reach bottom of this world
And all that I see in life looks to be hostel
That's when ill know
I have finally reached the bottom of the bottle

Derek Wings Apr 2014

Bare Skin Angel

Born with full white wings pressed against our backs
That represent all the sins that we lack
For every sin committed
A feather will fall
No sin is omitted or absolved
In the end, unable to fly
We call ourselves Fallen angels
Is that why an angel is the only way to describe you
As I notice your wingless back
There's not a feather in sight
Just your beautiful bare skin
Gleaming in the night
A life lived in sin
Yet an angel in my eyes
You take a glance behind my shoulders
Seeing evidence of my feathers
Although they may be torn beaten and weathered
I still have hope to fly
No
I have dreams to fall
Falling into you
A deep abyss
Full of pain and regret
I feel the fire dormant in my soul
As I wrap myself inside of you
With our backs beginning to touch
We lose sight of the open sky
My feathers begin to fill the ground
Where your innocence has long been waiting
Where we were once all angels
With wings full of feathers too heavy to bare
We lost sight of the faithful
As my back sheds its wings
The weight is much less painful
With the sins
of a Bare Skin Angel

Derek Wings Feb 2014

the struggle for strength

As Men we are constantly judged on our strength
the more a man bares upon his shoulders the stronger he is
so as men we put as much on our shoulders until we can no longer put any more
we struggle to carry this load and the more we struggle the stronger we become
but again as men struggle is looked at as a weakness
so the strength of the struggle then is not apparent until our shoulders are left bare
and then there are many men who put no load upon their shoulders so they do not struggle
they shed that weight a little too early
and yet they think themselves strong amongst those who struggle
because do you not walk faster with no load upon your shoulders
putting those who are stronger further behind
all this is to tell you that you cant judge a man's strength based on the load he carries, how far he has walked, or how fast he got there.
There is know way for you to know how strong I really am.

Derek Wings Feb 2014

Forbidden Fruit

If you were the forbidend fruit
Then you can call me adam
They say seduction is the devil’s playground
So wont you be my play mate
Many say adam made a mistake
But I prefer to think of it as fate
Because sin is my favorite vice
And I don’t listen to any advice
So come indulge in me
And our love will burn forever
In the darkest place
Where only a few will know what we do
Put that devilish grin on my face
As I plunge into your waist
You make my road to Hell
A Heavenly place

Derek Wings Feb 2014

lonely

i know more people than i ever have before
but im more alone than i've ever been in my life
these people dont know how i feel
so i question if its real
do they know who i really am
how could they if everything i feel is hidden inside
how can i expect them to trust me and stand by my side if even my thoughts i hide
it must be like staring at an empty sky
when it seems like nothing is there
but that's not quite fair cause its filled with air
something we need to survive
and i know there's wind at least that i can feel against my hair
just cause you dont see anything
and looks to be bare
that doesnt mean nothing is there
and thats my pain
my loneliness and fear
and no matter calm i appear
this empty feeling is always here
even when surrounded by the masses
i feel no different as every interaction passes
i feel as alone as man who lost his mother and his brother
his father and his daughter
this is the loneliest feeling of my life
and after all that
i feel like a man who even lost his wife