In the flash I fear for fire. Up all night.

Bang, Crack, Flash
Strangers want me to cover.
Can I HIDE? I cannot

Lost amongst the dirt and stone.
I will transcend through the prism.
I shall find resonance.

-DBE

once again I'm afraid you ask too much.
What's a favor? But a death sentence.
Nothing more to say.
I shall not clean another's mess.
I shall not. I will not.
The only truth.
I will wait but not carry weight.
Once again you ask too much. For I am a peasant and a slave.

-DBE

Ok fine, I'll become the saint.
The apostle. The clergy. But not one like you.
For I cannot lose myself. Who I am
Who I was
Who I was supposed to be- to your book.
The scholar forgets to live.
But the one who lives is a drunken fool.
How to be the master of two worlds? Can it be done?
Think on this, I must.
                                         -DBE

Is it pathetic that after all this time I still over her?
very well then, I am pathetic
pathetic is me.
why is it that none can compare to her?
None ever have and none ever will.
This desert queen...
I'll love you always and should I ever get a second chance I would fall to my knees and ask you for your hand.
Not in marriage...
Well yes, also in marriage.
But in life. In love.
I'm sorry for who I was.
For the lies I said. I'm sorry for who I am. For the pain and confusion I cause.
I'm sorry for who I'll be. For life without you is no life at all. I can't see you in his arms. So I'll lock myself away.
Let my heart decompose.
Soulmates who met at the wrong time in life.
What a sorrow.
                               -DBE

is being ill the only way to be healthy?
i must be alone but loneliness shall take its toll
lions, tigers, bears,
oh my!
rescue me from myself
isolation, predetermination, suicide?
                                                                     -DBE

Made it home at last
Going to make some waffles
Want to get married?

                                            -DBE

Everyone else moves on
I sit and wait
and fall behind
for we met
we met at the wrong time
too young
too fragile
lighting in a bottle only happens but once in a century.
so I'll fall behind with the memory of you
and I'll go
start a new world all on my own
And if that makes me a coward well then so be it,
I am the biggest coward on the face of this heartless rock!
And in my new world I'll plant trees and flowers
and there will be streams and rivers
and dances
and this world -My world.
will be called "Malka"
For it will be mine
and in quiet moments I can pretend that my head still has a place upon your lap as I lie in the grass.
and I'll try my hardest to remember when I was your world too.
                                                            ­                                   -DBE