I remember it like it was yesterday.          She was my all.                                         She was my everything.                            My Pillar of strength!                               The person I'd talk to when I was down. The person who'd openly remove my frown.                                                    One girl who instantly changed my life!                            
She was there when I was insecure.         When I was timid and felt very poor.      From when I was confident and secure.  To when I was ignorant and un-sure.      
She completed me and made me feel whole.                                                   I was electricity,and she was coal.           I was David,and she was Victoria Beckham.                                               We had that instant. connection!              Like Jackie Chan and Action.                          

The two of us together were inseparable.                                          We had that Ross and Rachel kinda love.                                                      It felt like it was something far from above.....                                                   Until finally...Reality struck.                    
She suddenly started to change.           From her attitude.                                 Down to her swagger.                            She was just totally different

And she had the nerve to tell me that it was just a stage in her development....     But as I looked her,I could see there was no longer any sentiment....               She was doing her best to please the crowd.                                                    And she had the nerve to tell me that she was tryna "Make me proud".              
Then one night everything disintegrated.                                         At her party I found her kissing my best friend....who knew it would take a year for my heart to mend....                    
And then the next morning,I woke up and she was gone!                                There was no one.                                  Just me and my pillow!                          Just me waking up and hearing people say,"You reap what u sow"

we're the ones stuck somewhere between a passionate desire for life and a violent desire for death; trying to stop the hour glass from pouring its sand into the bottom half with a cigarette between our finger tips... we are scared and confused and contradictory...

and yea i guess
this is the human race
our compasses all
point to the same fate
but the beauty is seen
by those who dare to stray
we're all natural skeptics, anyway

though i sometimes forget you

in the dead of night
your reflection beats on me

and each and all thoughts
that fill my heart with dread

are memories carved in me
with you

Our association makes the most of happenstance
When I hover close to look into your eyes,
To see your face dissolving into laugh lines
and witness your loud giggles with surprise.

The joyousness to hear your peal of laughter
Ringing out across the courtyard to the night
And to feel the balm of closeness in the offing
And the warmth of knowing everything's all right.

It's the way you take my arm in yours so easily
It's the way you sooth the worries with your charm,
And your boundless joi de vivre on the white sand by the sea
always guarantees this day will bring no harm.

It's delightful when we stroll along the lakeside
When we hear the sparrows singing in the trees
There's no unnecessary talk as we both enjoy our walk
And quietly celebrate togetherness with ease.

There's the moment when I catch your look of humour
There's the moment when we share the cherry pie,
There's the time we cuddle close to enjoy each other most
I think there's loving in the air for you and I.*

Marshalg
Pukehana with my girl
21 October 2013

The challenge isn’t to love you…
but to love you as you would be loved,
enter with harmless fingers born to untangle bassinet fears
long drawn across dry riverbeds

The challenge isn’t to cherish you,
but to perish to be with you,
if need be,
thoroughly until you bleed me,
as though your heart lies within.

My only sin--

loving you so much.