we were young, and wild, and free
all the cliches of what we were supposed to be
laughing at the world, clutching our beer
standing too close to the train, screaming, nobody hears

I wonder where you are today
what part of you remembers
our times together, our youth, our lives
so vulnerable, so tender

you bring some comfort, you don't even know
singing on stage at some random show
hearing the crowds' adoration, applause
not knowing then there was never a cause

Never a reason to be so alone
singing into that microphone
lights shining bright, darkness beyond
now it's gone silent, infinity yawns

We fade into obscurity

into my life you boldly came - all full of confidence
full of swagger, full of life, full of all those things
with you, life's anew, with you I can dance - (and I do)
so my words bubble up from a hidden well-spring
not realizing
that all I needed was you

I know you
because
like you, I was taught how to hide
how to keep all my hurt inside
how not to show fear when anger is near
I know you
and you know me too

ohhh the things I want to do with you
the thoughts that cross my mind
perhaps it would shock, ideas so blue
temptations await for us to find
I flirt with ideas, weighed against
reality of my bodies desire
nerves all exposed, left in suspence
just waiting for you to take me higher

I find I need this place,
this in-between world of words
to leave of myself a trace
to feel that I've been heard
a safety net of whispers
of yearnings so dear to my soul
too fragile these delicate feelings
so in this world they fall
dancing on winds of heartbreak
imaginary and real
I find I need this place
A place where I can feel

eyes draw me in, green with grey
then to the mouth, lips where I stay
hungry, soft, then firm, then yield
safe inside those arms, a shield
for the heart, his heart, beats with mine
his soul, his passion, his strength does shine

so much more to this man, flesh and bone
within his embrace, truly I'm home

I wait for your words
when I'm not sure what it is I want to hear
then when silence falls like twilight
I fill in the void with my imagination
so desperate to have things make sense
so I wait for your words
instead of saying my own

thoughts of you make me breathless,
like walking into a steam sauna too hot
seeing you causes my knees to go weak,
blood rushing to that secret spot
that only you know how to touch and finger
driving me wild as you stop and linger
crescendos of pleasurable torment
until you see I'm finally spent
Oh God! I'll never have enough of you
baby take my breath, it's all for you

passions that bind us weaving unspoken thoughts
borne from differences of lives and loves and desires
I with my messy emotions haphazardly caught
you with your simmering slow-burning fire
together we 'fit' in mysterious ways
Merlin himself knows nothing of this chemistry
not obvious to even ourselves on some days
what we are, what we have is beyond fantasy

she shattered his fantasy, perhaps his illusions
not knowing how to leave well enough alone
she's had enough of emotional contusions
he wanted fantasy in flesh and bone

how to love, how to share, how to heal
they needed that from each other
instinctively understanding the real from
love they had shared with another

now they circle, slightly wary, but down inside
they are the same, craving, two souls needing
wanting, desiring, love doesn't die
two lovers, blood pumping, hearts beating

life gets messy, tangled, but still it moves on
another day, a new night, love stands, it is strong

Alone with her thoughts, those dangerous things
jagged and jumbled with uncertain edges
finding out how deeply words can cut
unintentionally

bruised emotions, tender feelings ******* in heartstrings
for a man with no need of packages
only wanting to trust with him all those thoughts

he doesn't want more thoughts, he only needs to be held,
cradled, safely rocked away from messy
entanglements

cutting her with shards of dismissal

his words, so beautiful, she thought just for her
too late to stop her heart from responding
then that glimpse, like seeing a phantom in a plate-glass mirror
of another, alongside him, where she should be standing
heart stops, blood runs cold, she knows she should trust
yes trust can be good, if it's not based on lust
all confusion, signs are there, written on the wall
slowly into the dark abyss she will fall
crying out in that darkness, she prays he will hear
yet he doesn't, for he's whispering in someone elses ear
she has no claim, no right that is real
He is the only true love she will ever feel

I know you won't miss me, when I'm gone
You'll laugh, and smile, and carry on
You'll say the same things to someone new
pretending to have found a love that's true
I don't know what's worse than in the knowing
that when winter comes, and it's snowing
you'll cuddle up close - up to another
you'll have found someone new, a different lover
and I'll still be here, pining for you
because I truly thought you were my love, true
I gave it all away, without a glance
only to find, (if only by chance)
I was the fool, I had been duped
master of your craft, cold, alone, aloof

there is only a sense
of right, or wrong
no shades of gray

I'm obsessed~ I admit it, I don't think it's healthy
you're not pretty, you're not famous, hell you're not even wealthy
yet day after day my mind wanders to you
above all else, it's all I can do
Why?? oh why? can't I focus elsewhere?
bills, or taxes, or the color of my hair?
still there it is,  every day, my thoughts just of you
Heaven help me, it's love.  Nothing else I can do.

the kind that land ever so softly
on your lips, your cheeks, your eyelids
wisps of breath, not quite touching
then, darting off to alight in another spot
teasing, enchanting, fluttery feeling
butterfly kisses turn into so much more.....

Watching you intently, the elegance of a sigh fleeting past your face
as thoughts are forming and reforming, cumulus clouds of your soul
before you ever utter a word

I wish to be the fertile ground that receives you

The joy I feel when I'm with you permeates into my very marrow
I resonate with happiness, forgetting all my sorrow
Catch me, for I've fallen once again into your beautiful eyes
not really wanting to be rescued ..........

How can this love exist? yet it does, it lives, and thrives
true wonderment, true mystery, affecting both our lives
forever more we are one being, one soul, one heartbeat true
I finally felt that I am 'home', the day that I met you

weaving connections so carefully
spider threads, tenuous but strong
choosing each link deliberately, secretly
praying not to be wrong
trusting in hope, hoping in faith
commit to eternal devotion
oh delicate threads of heart's desire
betray not my deepest emotions

we isolate by choice yet feel
the world has abandoned us
breaking down our self-imposed wall
with fingertips of flesh
overwhelms
until
a single voice, full of love
shatters the illusion

We want to understand our world and humans that are in it
situations and events that shake it up and spin it
make our choices, choose our path, convinced that it is 'right'
until we see another path that's just beyond our sight
a different path but yet, the same, with others plain to see
all moving on or standing still, all people, you and me
as paths converge what happens next is basic and is right
no pushing shoving or standing ground, no need to stay and fight
a simple course correction, moving round each other with ease
to continue on our paths, no two the same you see
For all the paths eventually arrive at the same conclusion
that help us clear our hearts and minds removing our confusion
it's not the destination that was paramount, but those along the way
people, lessons, obstacles, that come with each new day
the journey that we travelled bringing thought and clarity
Be glad you chose the path you did ~ Be glad that you now see

In this life love crept inside
unsuspecting souls thought love had died
It hadn't, slumbering, waiting still to
find us match us joyous will
full of spirit, body, mind never to leave
nor stay behind for in this life
we now know love - eternal gift
from Heaven above

Bottomless yearning, deep as the fathoms of the sea
to feel your heat once more, gaze into those eyes of green
days as empty as a well in desert sand
until the time when I feel the trace of your hand
along my face, so gentle and loving your touch
craving all of you, a passion that needs you so much
curse the hours, minutes, seconds we're apart
together, all I know, is YOU complete my heart

Why do my feelings run so deep?
Where is the strength that others have
if only my desires I could keep
protected with a magical salve
impermeable to futile hope
a barrier from deepest wishes
maybe then perhaps, I could cope
with emotions completely useless

He said, 'I love you and want to marry you'
I heard, 'He loves me and wants to marry me'
He meant, 'You're fun to be around and daydream with'
I meant, 'I love you and want to marry you'

Somewhere in emotional disconnect
causing my heart to palpitate
my soul's deep desires they do affect
forever knowing, I'm second rate

What a wondrous feeling, heat seeking missiles
colliding with no air between
our own emotional catalysis
legs entwined, breathing shallow, no return
Higher and higher we rise
Passion our fuel, desire in each others' eyes
Melded, we become as one
only known in that moment
as rays of dying embers burn on

I strain to hear your heart
across the broken miles
for even when apart my mind
conjures up your smiles
I strain to let you know
Your voice is what I hear
in silence and in shadows
I always have you near

I strain to send my love into
the ether and the mist
So when you turn around and see
a sunbeam that has kissed
the puffy clouds up in the sky
it's really me you see
I strain to give you all my love
For All Eternity

Ohhh my God, the Highs, the Lows
this love is not what everyone knows
existing only in books, on film
A fantasy, but wait, it's real
A comedy?  A tragedy?  What is this thing
the tug and pull of you and me?
We die a thousand deaths apart
Together, we become one heart
we met, we love, emotions true
we greet each day, blind faith renewed
no turning back, and time, it slows
This thing called love, the Highs, the Lows

She realized with a start
The shift in his heart
wondering sadly, why?
Why did the poetry die?
He wooed with flair
emotions he did share
Now the silence gapes
and her heart, it aches
Was it the thrill of the chase?
no longer a trophy to case?
All she knows is, there's silence
and emotions, they seem 'less'
Now she prays to the sky
Why did the poetry die?

I'm the governor of my daydream state
judiciously allowing thoughts of life with you to flow freely
no interference from laws of attraction
It's a blissful place to live

It's nice paper, as far as paper goes
flat on the wall, showing signs of
Age, reflected wisdom, life passing
Silent witness to hopes, struggles, dreams, despair
Paper on the wall isn't real
Life, merely a shadow of potential
difference being how you've really lived
contradicting expectations
and the paper on the wall, framed

Rain coming down sideways
sheeting on the window pane
fogged up glass humidity high
casual conversations earnestly spoken
all the while studiously ignoring
the couple in the middle of the room
Stealing kisses completely
in their own world
oblivious to children's homework and
business people's envy
steaming cups of coffee
can't compete with
heat from their coffeehouse kisses

Normal conventions
bring to mind
a group of vanilla people milling about
in a plain boring room
Normal conventions
are so outside
the life between me and you
and feeling alive

Normal conventions
were something we chose
to walk away from
When we met each other
determined to taste and listen and dance
in a party of our own design
shattering conventional thought
emotions, raw, colorful, Alive

When is a secret not a secret?
gnawing away, silent like termites that
disintegrate the structure that holds it within
taking on a life of its own until
foundations turn to sawdust
crumbling, all is exposed
secret no more

elusive sleep oh how you mock me
letting me drift, that sense of peace
only to ****** dreams back from gently
soothing and calming me down
I wearily  pray for release

bone-weary, fuzzy headed
If only my bed could
provide the respite so close, yet so far
once more, let me go to sleep

unbeknownst to passers-by
above on concrete, stone and steel
two lovers linger just below
hearts on fire, bodies still
while river's waters deep and fast
lay witness to the passion there
this place becomes forever cast
immortalized with souls laid bare
no traffic sounds, no waterfowl
no whispering wind through tender trees
disturb these two, in love's embrace
finding forever in their gaze

waking with joyful exuberance
choosing what attitude to wear with the day
grey skies call for a sunny disposition
determined to keep negatives away
light streams gently from fingertips
delicately touching others with warmth
surprising them with smiles
unfurling calm in your wake

pushing and pulling, eddies swirl 'round
so difficult to trust in this love we've found
fairy tale endings too good to be true
darker shades of life confusing my view
never having known love's ache
clouds in judgment, feelings forsake
go on defensive 'cause that's all I've known
overwhelmed by the gentleness you've shown
to want you so badly, I lose control
feeling the madness deep in my soul
Still, knowing the gift that lies within grasp
if only I can trust, in your heart, at last.

The 'us' we see and
the 'us' others see create
unique duality
high wire balancing
praying not to fall

hard outer shell but
soft side within, not
unlike crustaceans
we scurry to and fro
intent with purpose

only when we're truly alone
be it crowded street or
safely home,
can both halves
combine as one

Finally at peace

Parenthesis, one, Parenthesis
Oh how my heart does soar
The simple notice telling me
I'm in your thoughts once more
Words, black and white, on screen
Transfer into my soul
Interpreting your meaning
Not wanting to let go

Parenthesis, two, Parenthesis
What riches! more from you
I'm greedy in my desire
to learn your wishes true
To keep this brief connection
no matter how tenuous
We bleed onto these crystal screens
Sharing all inside of us

Alas, no more Parenthesis
Blinking cursor is all I see
Hoping, praying tomorrow will bring
Continuation of You and Me

paint my world with vibrant hues
emerald greens, sapphire blues
lyricist with color, canvas
emotions swirl 'round your brush
multitudes of whites and greys
illuminate the darkest days
when masterfully controlled by you
paint my world with vibrant hues

sensation of sepulchral chasm inside my chest
threatening to devour me from inside out
knowledge is power, they say
but this I don't want to know
too late! the genie is out of the bottle
never to return
knowing can't be unknown
I turn to dust inside
I'm done

existence is perception
colored by opinion
  tainted by influence
modified by judgment

  you are my soul
living outside of me
  feeling my sensations
mirroring my love

It's good to be alive
  no matter worries, struggles, surviving
    breathe in, blood pumping
You are loved by someone

It's good to be aware
  inter-connected, a ripple in the pond
    stream of consciousness
You have value in this world

It's good to be alive

Swallowed up by feelings, needs, wants, wishes
stifled thoughts beating against ivory cage
muffled heart beats, ka-thump, ka-thump
pure emotions puddle, then drip through your fingers

moments apart are an eternity
    hours together are a blur
        wrap space and time fabric
            around us forevermore

a single tear rolls down my cheek
I see your life in focus
a world I thought that I'd fit in
now knowing that it's hopeless

surrounded by a quiet grace
there's love, and peace, and laughter
I have no business in this place
no happy ever after

I stand outside your happy hearth
ashamed for my mortal sin
forever doomed to be the one
on the outside, looking in

In love with two hearts
such a cliche
should I go?  should I stay?
it wasn't supposed to be this way

love that's steadfast, know it's mine
love that's stood the test of time
love that's passionate, burning true
love that's fresh and wild and new

no easy answers, no right or wrong
melancholy timeless song
life thrown into disarray
it wasn't supposed to be this way

Images swirling changing hues
memories fresh, me and you
kisses, looks, touches breathless
deeper meaning, crossing thresholds
mental snapshots changing focus
always brings me back to us
life stands still all around
while we tumble in a kaleidoscope

wispy tendrils of your memory

circulate around my soul

capricious emotions dominate


Who have I become?

rapacious need to see your face

insatiable need to hear your voice


attempts at being  

who I was before

fail miserably


I cannot escape you