in walking through the corridors of earth & space & time
i felt myself a mendicant of everybody's mind
a step away from decency my feet began to ache
was humanly impossible for me find escape
to pave a path then take it back is not the way it works
i hollowed out a trail of holes - mortality, it lurks
so if you see a skeleton or something of the like
the shell i am will one day be a different kind of sight

boxed in with no place to go
stuck with the chaos that was spun out of nothing
my life has become a shadow of what once was
my being split into two
the light
trying to see the good in the world
feeling the love that was once abundant in me
showing mercy to others and
keeping hope alive
the shadow
a force of negativity
embracing the anger that was shelved away from everyone
punishing people for no reason
other than a sadistic joy
neither feels complete
both requiring an equal balance
just so they can feel fulfilled
both wanting the same thing
humanity
light wants to see what lies withing the darkness
but only illuminates
dispersing all shadows from its sight
shadow only wants to feel the warm embrace of the light
never wanting more than to warm its frozen heart
both want what can't be obtained
both want equilibrium
but cannot grasp it without the feeling of humanity
light
shadow
my subconscious mind cannot grasp their pain for long
attempting to block out their cries
trying to remain whole
but always feeling fractured
broken because of the life that has been lived
my mind tries to hold light and shadow together
waiting for someone who can fix what has been disconnected for a long time