Small child,
Small world,
Small candle light.
Her face half lit but oh how bright.
All it came from a candle light.
Her birth a joy for all to see.
But, one day she'll forget me.
Big world,
Big dreams,
Big opportunities.
So far yet close, just over the seas.
While she fades too fast for the eye to see,
I just stare at old memories.
But across the ocean is where she'll be.
Average home,
Average life,
Average news to hear,
So black and white,
And so I fear,
The day she will leave is coming near.
It is sadly far too clear.
Present me,
Present her,
Present strawberry cake.
I had to learn to bake the cake.
It wasn't really too hard to make.
But if only for my sake,
I wish she'd wish away my ache.

Shrug it off so you don't cry.
Inside, you hope soon you might die.
The window calls and you come near,
but though death seems probable, it's "the hell" you fear.
So you give a cold shoulder to tears and pain.
You numb your feelings and your shirt's blood stain.
You pretend to not notice and say,"whatever."
But inside you're hoping death is closer.
You try to stay calm and make life simple,
yet every one thinks you must be gimple.
You stay out of trouble just to make through the day,
so to maintain your image you can never be allowed to play.
Sometimes you laugh the pain away,
but no one can see your smile decay.

Dance like no one is watching,
Love like you'll never be hurt,
Sing like no one is listening,
and live like it's heaven on earth.


                                        ~William Purkey

People say, "If you don't want the world to know don't tell it."
But when my tears are flowing like a rushing fall.
When my heart is really about to stop beating
When I just can't move because all my thoughts have been taken
I can't just hold it all in.
I can't pretend I never lost in the war of man and woman
I can't pretend I'm not frail and useless now to him.
I can't pretend I ever was his.
Yet I try to.
I try to tell the world of these feelings
that all they will do is sympathize with words such as, "Poor thing. I feel sorry for you."
They will never get it.
They will never understand the pain I go through
I went through to write a single poem.
To feel so broken and be told not to tell the world
The world must be a really ***** place, to spread about a girl who just was scared
The world must be a heartless black pit that ***** you in.
That makes you so sad you could hardly say a word.
While you clench your hair and hold in the scream
that you realize you wouldn't be able to let out anyhow.
And when you press enter you know it
You know the whole world is passing around your true thoughts
like they are some kind of virus
Would the whispers of your life stop.
No.
They would just become louder
More and more whispers
you would clench your teeth and just...cry...
A new phobia has been awakened
and your heart has become colder than it once was.
It might have been worse if you just held it in.
It might have crushed you inside
This may have been better
Maybe...
Maybe it was better but, maybe...it just became worst

Sorrow filled the air.
She layed beyond our touch.
She grieved for the one
who she could never see again.
The wishing word "forever"
was blown into the wind.
She tried to catch it with all her might.
But it flew away.
As she jumped for it she saw a floor.
Down, she fell.
Down, the stairs of red and white.
Down, she fell.
During the endless night.
A hope that life would bear her blessed.
Hope, not a lie that'd leave her life less.
She rose with a gasp her heart beat so crest.
She rose in a motion,
so fast; so scared.
Life torn away.
Dreams blown away.
The kiss that sealed her hope
would never come and she grew old.
Withered away at 23
Down, she fell
from her loved ones tree.
The apples he loved joined her in pain.
The lost and the loved will all be the same.
Found in years, lost in more, found again.
                                              "Forever" he swore.

I hopped in daddy's car today
We drove to an old looking house
Daddy said make sure and be careful
I said okay, because it may have ghost.

He brought his special brush for bones
I walked with creaks and squeaks
This was an adventure for Susie-ann!
I'd been waiting for this for weeks.

I was a knight sent to **** a dragon.
I was a pirate in search for treasure chest
"I am a girl with big imagination,"
Says my daddy with his searching vest.

I walk up the entry way
The tree scratched the door
This would be my great adventure
My feet were far from sore.

I didn't give up just that easy
A adventurer never quits
My job was not over yet
I couldn't have any submits

I flicked my flashlight at the wall
The ghost could not be seen
I was getting bored now
Embarrassed by the scene.

I was a child looking for ghost
Ghost, this house did not hold
I don't know why I was looking for ghost
When I should really be looking for gold.

Why won't he write.
It's almost been I year.
I lay in my own teary bed.
I question why I'm here.
He rejected my frail heart.
It was my fault for asking.
but, why does he have to go and cut off all connections.
I left so many messages.
6 until the end of the year.
days and days go by.
Until I question if he even cares.
Does he care that I am living or dead?
Would he mind if I wasn't here.
I feel a shiver down my back from the fear that grew so near.
Why do I still remember his face?
Why can't I forget?
If I told myself he was the past,
why does my soul regret.
I start to panic.
What might have happened?
Did he lose all breath?
Did he decide we weren't still friends?
How could he sink to such low depth?
Was he playing a trick on me?
Playing hot potato with my heart?
Was he just amusing himself, while I start to break apart?
Could it be...?
Could it be...I was the joke right from the start?