I will pay a thousand debts,
To remove this inate weakness in my hearts depths.
There lies a scar from a wound I have never endured,
To make me even less human is the only foreseable cure.

So take all that makes me me,
And leave me hollow and empty,
Unable to wield the emotion inside that burns me day after day,
Like a ring I cannot wear,
Like a kiss I cannot share.

Robbed by nature deprived of half of me,
I am incomplete defective without parity.
I dream of loves I can't attain,
of unachievable destinies distant and without stain.

The Darkness always whisper so sweetly,
Wiping away those tears caused by another lost love.
"How many times have I taken your refuge?"
"Every time love bites back and bruises"

Testing devotion Darkness swirls,
Till in its eyes I see his eyes.
Pulling my mind to full attention,
I caress his face and stare completely lost.

"Why did you hurt me?"
Darkness' eyes pool with tears,
"All I know is what you have shown me"
"Do I deserve to be alone?"

Darkness rolls and thunders loud
"Do I deserve to be alone?
I lack the love you want and need,
for all you do is in my cover feed,
I cannot create from what I do not hold,
And you mortal have left yourself unloved and old,
you cannot ask for what you cannot give,
you cannot love if you cannot live."

Sat with legs crossed pouring my dreams onto air,
Watching bone blood and soul form as I stare.
Within reach but still miles apart,
Unable to delay the tremor tripping the start.

Catch each cherished word that I empassion
And entwine them in your heart to sing perfection.
So in our unity accross haunting distance,
dual beating divine in loving resonance.

Till the day the nightmares come alive,
Every beat is lost the knots untied.
Once locked to mine your eyes grow cold,
As if the love we shared was centries old.

Before you turn and cannot see me,
let my eyes scream how I loved you completely,
In this life and ever after,
In lifetimes bright or twisted and darker.

Clawing something out of nothing,
To try and fill the cracks.
To hide hide what is missing,
And what I fear will never be intact.

Gambling away shards of Heart,
To try and and claim back parts of humanity.
Every loss pulls me further and further apart,
And deepens the pool of insanity.

Catching up but never in step,
locked out but never alone.
Every ounce of biterness kept,
The keeper of Loniless and Agonies throne.

Then like a thread to retie the pieces,
Her kiss dissapates all distemper.
Ridding my heart of all scarred and tore up creases,
and brings life to life with golden Ember.

Her eyes have opened to golden light,
Freed from her battles and sleepless nights.
Held in the arms of every whisper,
That is uttered from lips of Son, Lover and Sister.

With each cherished moment that we remember,
We slowly begin to re-ignite lost embers.
To give her back her smiles and laughter,
So we can remember her happy for ever after.

Lost to sight but not to mind,
Today we encapsulate all that made her shine.
Use these memories to rebuild all we love,
And hope our wishes reach her high above.

So I finish my poem with a simple plea,
That all that love her do not dwell in misery.
For she is not sad where she now stands,
She is walking in heavenly lands,
Guided by Father, Mother and Whisper.

Gazing into the dark for that unseen face,
Centre stage and nothing but the mask for cover.
A face so rehearsed it seems unbreakable and infallible,
Till I meet your eyes and am stunned to silence.
Realising too late that the mask has cracked,
The audience witnesses every scar I tried to hide.

Let them feel every break and every quake.
No longer an act but a declaration to the world,
Freed from restraint I scream every agony, every second, every memory.
Aiming every burdened word and every heavy note,
To rain upon you like Talons of fury.
But I leave you alive to witness the change.

Choked by your own creation,
You realise I have become all you tried to hide.
No longer human no light inside,
Extinguished I am darkness claimed,
To avenge every heart you have maimed.

Wonders winter and torments turn.
Edging deeper inside causing all to burn.
Whispers worry brings feral fright.
Stark in torrents of lashing light.

What is this nightmare that fills my mind,
desperate unhinged in fate entwined.

Wrists restless and chained clatter.
Bound to a you in crimson splatter.
Dead days and loveless laughter.
My life in ruins and lonely ever after.