Since You're Alive..


Why Is It That You Haunt Me?



**Sydney

The Red Leaves Quivered;
Slowly They Began To Die,
In The Changing Breeze

A Crimson Heart Hurt,
In A Wind No Longer Warm;
It No Longer Kind

A Raven Had Called,
Sobbing In A Dying Tree;
The Sun Was Setting

A Full Moon Had Rose,
But The Wolf No Longer Sang,
For She Had No Song

Frost Covered The Earth,
Slowly The Crimpson Faded;
The World All But Ice

*Sydney

It's not my fault
You waited too long
And now look at this; we burned out*
Whatever it was we had, it's gone
No more fiery sparks
A magnetic pull far too weak
I can free myself so easily from you now
How it came to this, I can't say
*Whatever it was, it was never enough.

You heard the thoughts beating holes in my tattered heart over meaningless words spewing carelessly from my mouth.
Knew what I meant before the words had the courage to surface in my mind.
I gave you the insight on my life I couldn't even give my self,
from that you saw a light in my soul I had kept hidden from all those trying to reach it,
for a brief moment you had me convinced there was a way to expand it,
mold it, to what I expected of myself.
The spark you saw could be a flame, a fire.
the light went out when you took back everything you said.
My hope extinguished, gone from my soul.
A blackness inside myself replacing the light you brought and took.
my wasted time changing me in irreversible ways.
I realize now the worthlessness of it all,
of you,
of all the things I let myself believe for once could be true.
I'd left an exit sign over my heart like it's something you can just pass through, saving yourself from another lonely night.
Maybe I speak in metaphors afraid of falling from my lips just to plummet to the ears of those afraid to hear me.
I may no longer have that light inside myself, but unlike you I know where to find my flint.