Good Grief
What a waste of time
Always something slowing me down
Here online
Ready for the bomb
heed my warning
don't waste your time

I'm not proud of my country//
They call it free//
But it's not
  
Crime families rule the police
and government//
The honest man gets *****
and robbed by them//
The Criminal receives praise
and stardom//
The Victim(s) are forced
against their will//
And often die or ****//
Then labeled
  
Too frightened to talk
  
I'm not proud of my country//
They call it free//
But it's not

You say "I'm sorry"
But you don't mean it
You laugh when you steal
Then think you'll get away with it
  
You said that I hurt you
But, you're the one that started it
Never once, did you you ever think
That I got hurt and over it
  
So, you live like Satan
Without forgiveness
And teach your children
How to harm with vengeance
  
They don't know forgiveness
They don't know Jesus
Have you heard the way to live
These four lines, reread this
  
You can play the victim
But are you really fooling
Anyone but yourself
Who are you really fooling
  
Forgive us for our trespass
Forgive us as we sin
Forgive all that have trespassed
Or be the devil's friend
  
I hope you've learnt a lesson
And where you've sent your kids
You welcome me into your home
To rob me, then you spit
  
It was you who hurt me
When I was only ten
Pretend it never happened
That's okay, I can forgive
  
We can go on hurting
And never meet again
Or blame it all on someone
And be the devil's friend
  
I don't want to upset you
I know your only friend
he can never have me
Because I can forgive
  
The southern sun, it burns you
Because that's where you live
You think you took my money
But all you have is sin
  
You took all of my money
I made it back again
Because I can forgive you
Even though your dim
  
You call Bill Brown your father
His labels brand his kids
You call your pills your helpers
Those ****, they have, they did
  
If you can try forgiveness
You won't need ***** to live
It's all about forgiveness
Can you just forgive
  
Love is just forgiveness
Peace is all forgiveness
Life comes from forgiveness
Angels know forgiveness
  
God is just forgiveness
Life is for forgiveness
Love is all forgiveness
Forgiveness is forgiveness

I am wealth

I am abundance

I am joy

She was smoking
At the Capitol
I saw her picture
In the telephone [booth]
Smoke was flying
In the air
You should have seen her
She was there
It was a rock show
And it was bold
Just like a rock show
At the Capitol
Smoking weasels
Rocking on
She had me teasing
She put it on
  
Rock show at the Capitol
That was where to go-go-go
Get your girl and spend your dough
There's a rock show at the Capitol
  
She was smoking
In the men's room
At the Capitol
She was btchn'
She blew my mind
Then she blew me away
  
And you wouldn't believe
They tore that building down
I can't even find that town, now!
But, believe it
There was magic in the air
I can't believe it
Seems like yesterday
You wouldn't believe it
The way they wailed away
Bouncing and shaking their bones
And they were dancing
Singing and clapping and dancing
And dancing away
  
She was steaming
I licked her ear
It was awesome
Screaming in the air
Everywhere
The gang was there
Kicking, Puffing
And banging there
She left smoking
At the Capitol

The whole turning world
'sgot a fix on it
You think it's just
Your town or providence
or country
But it's not
It's the whole planet
  
They tell us who to watch
And what to wear
And who to pay to see
Then tell us who to bet on
for an extra bag
of groceries
  
You can't fight it
When you try
There's hurt or die
So stay silent
Make friends
Move fast
Stay alive

Walking through space
the stars form vehicles
for our imaginations

We used to sing a kind song
The melody rang true
Not like what you hear today
So many fell like you
  
This used to be a kind town
Where people shake your hand
You didn't have to worry
Of fire from a can
  
It's kind of like a sad song
Where people die from love
Or you can take a bite of this
Oh! No, you can't
Oh! No, you can't
  
We're trapped like rats in cities
Don't go outside to breathe
The politicians make it harder
And we just stand at ease
Or wind up Kennedys
  
We used to sing a kind song
We used to be a kind town
We used to sing a love song
What happens now?

and
The pickles
on the shelves
in the condiment aisle

are readying
themselves
for the winter

The half-sours
stand at attention

The garlics stand
at parade rest

Dill chips are
stacked so
their eyes cannot see
out the jar

Mrs. Smith's bread & butter
pickles will not be on sale
again until late Spring
(so tasty are these)

What a long cold winter
awaits those

underachieving cucumbers

That young cashier brought back a memory today
and when she saw it in my eyes, she shuddered, slightly,
then looked away
It was a quarter century ago today, that love, so dear, drove far away
I know I'm not alone
where people bring you down
but, is this the devil's work now
or just another clown
I wanted dream forever
still hurts sometimes today
and I still dream forever
for someone who will stay
I had a offer last November
for another paper weight
I should have had accepted
when I'm here so desperate
she's everything I had
when I was young and in my teens
she's everything I gave away
to be better than I seem
she promised me she'd be good to me
and never let me catch her cheating
she said she'd always know my needs
even when she's on her knees
she said that she would marry me
but, I don't like the way she makes tea money
she promised me she'd be good for me
but, I don't want her making tea money

it's not real, love
when I feel love
more of a reel love
or a feeling of
some need, love
on their knees, love
when it's real love
like no other, love
can it be?, love
when you need love
be with me , love
in your need

One last poem for love
who flew away forever
the dove from the hawk

emasculated
charred thundershower lush romps
mountaintops chomp first

I'm a handheld all-
purpose device please hold my
hand and treat me nice

Is Gigi Hadid a gee, hottie?

humiliating leech
shakes eagerly, rudely, lass
submerges quickly

Label me!
before I change my life again
come with me
we'll do most of everything
while we work and play
our lives together
we're still growing
against the grain
though we often do agree
that it's only
just you and me
and we cast are demons elsewhere
someplace they can hide
would have been better
to let them burn and die
Then
she touched me with her hand
and I became a man again
and we walked on desert sands
and on other people's land
there was music from a band
till the darkness came and took our light away
so we kissed until sunrise
or if you insist
till the earth turned the star on our spot
while we work and play
our lives together
we're still growing against the grain
though we often do agree
that it's only
just you and me
just you and me
our everything

How can I ?
Should I go against my principals?
Throw everything to the wind?
Kiss me again
Does it make it all go away?
or did it make it stay?
I run to you
Crash hard, then fall
Should I blame you for my bruises?
Do you treat people the way that they treat you
or the way that you would like to be treated?
I thought that they were friends
Kiss me again
Did it make it all go away?
or does it make it stay?

A boy loves his mother
He's three years old
His father, he left her
to sire more gold
She hates him and screams
You bstrd, I'm ruined
Blames children for God's
or the devil's own doing
Then makes life hell for these children of evil
They can't even hear her
She screams " Are we even? "
She befriends a gangster
He's ****, and she knows it
Then, ****** her own babies for money and shelter
Then some other scumbag
With bagels and donuts
He fancies her red hair
And steals from his cousin
The children are brought up to fear for their safety
With threats of a belt
or a knife from a crazy
Their welts, they are bleeding
So bad they can't learn
Their teaches are worried
Then forced to just turn
In the free world we live in
How can this exist?
Can politicians see it's a crime?
Isn't it?
So they grab all the handbags from special interest
So that children are beaten
Then forced into church
And their parents pretend
that it's for their own good
That bstrd is lying
We did what we could

There's a boy near a highway
He claims to be queer
He's selling his soul for the food he needs dear
There's a frame with no windows
Filled with his peers
They light up their glass pipes to feed their own fears
There's a mother with babies
Whose diapers are smeared
They catch hell for crying
She slaps off their tears
There's an old man who's downtown
He brown-bags his beer
There's a rich girl
She's wasted
Never dreamed she'd be here
There's a fat *****
She's worthless
Just selling disease
Tear down these old crack-towns
Don't need more of these

So distraught
That little girl lost
She twists and twirls
With her ravenous curls
Tricked into trade
She fades and fades
A ***** you might say
Or you might say the plague
Though it's not her fault
in anyway
Stay Away! Stay Away!
Stay Away! Stay Away!

They don't think twice
About shattering lives
One has a badge
The other has stardom
Another thinks trash and
Then backs into bar bums
The heartache they've caused
The terrible ruin
How can they live with
Themselves and the suing
The other side bleeds
With torment forever
And makes the most out
Of pointless endeavors
The victims are gone
Or forever in pain
How can those three know
The hurt that they've made

I come to every little town
gonna ****  gonna ****  gonna ****

I'm gonna gun 'em all down
gonna ****  gonna ****  gonna ****

Big News!  Front Page
That is what they'll say of me
and all those other words

Those words   Those words  Those words
They'll say of me

Old school kickin'-misresenting
Don't go to a big screen box
Rent it - safer - don't go there
Madmen gunmen everywhere

Welcome to hell in the 21st Century
It started that way at the turn of the century
Turn around and be shot dead
by a bozo reject doctor with some crazy hair
or when you are buying gerber groceries at the fair

What a world  What a world  What a world
Some parts are just so sad
Hey ya gotta live- ya gotta hide
Stay inside, stay alive

They're bombing everywhere

If I could text this poem to you I would
Understand they don't have handhelds where you've moved
I still feel it's something that I should do
To text to you the letters ILOVEYO_U

She sits there
Silently
Death does

Just like death would
Silently
Standing tall
the vulture
eyes its prey

While the bull-moose forage for scraps from the n.c.o. club
And aesbestos is passed out to the unsuspecting at the cbpo

grieving ship prowls, crag
exclaims slowly, faintly, small
old pond gibbering

madly believing
romping nymphs squirming bluebirds
perch squelching, cackling

I climbed a tree today to wish you happy new year
You were nowhere I looked around and you were not here
I hear the sound of old guitars
Remember passings
I think of you. you're not around and I am still here
Why I remember in your bed we had it all dear, all the laughter
I hope the listener can figure out you are not here
And how all the laughter disappeared
'cause you are not here

Sometimes I want to throw myself off taller buildings
I could just let them out
Burst into tears or something
How could I let you out of
what was best for me
Las Vegas nights are brighter
Its night sky now too cloudy
I can not see the shooting stars or hear pal call out "howdy"
Remember 60's acts, the crowd would roar in laughter
How all that laughter disappeared
When you were not here

I spin around, I lose my mind then I fall down
Because my mem'ry is so unkind to me
Keep thinking of you constantly

I know I died when I was three but, that was diff'rent
Before I met you, saw you smile and heard you giggle
I know it's crazy in my mind you're in that blue dress
The one that had that white bow tied
The one that made you gift-wrapped
Now all I do is suffer from gyromancy
I spin around, so dizzy
But, I can't spell anything

And all the people, might be just there laughing at me
But, diddint you hear
That all the laughter disappeared
When you were not here

What's the hurry in you
What's the hurry in you
This cold December morn
Why you hurry
Why you
What's that inside you
Waiting to be born
Walk some time with me now
Walk some time with me now
Sheltered from the storm
Come on and walk with me
Now, come on and walk with me
Now, before we get to drawn
Why don't you spend some time
Why don't you spend some time with me
In the dawn
Why don't you spend some time with me
Why don't you spend some time with me
In the dawn
Why don't you spend this time with me
Why don't you spend this time with me
In the dawn
Why don't you spend that time with me
Why don't you spend that time with me
In the dawn
Why don't you spend this time with me
Spend some time with me
In the dawn
Spend some time with me
Spend some time with me
In the dawn
Spend some time with me
Just spend some time with me
In the dawn
Spend some time with me
Spend some time with me
In the dawn
Spend some time with me
Spend some time
That easy time in the dawn
Spend some time with me
Spend some time
That crazy time in the dawn
Spend some time with me
Spend some time with me
In the dawn

I'm not a hippie she non sequitured
as I asked her questions
I'm not a hippie
I'm not a hippie she vociferated
  
It's okay I'm not a hippie either
I overly averred
  
Then we talked and agreed
and got warm
and got wet
  
Two years later we met again
It's like that sometimes for the jet-setters
  
"Hi" she smiled
"Hi" I returned
  
Did you hear the new (hip hop/rap star) album
she inquired
I'm not a hip hopper I stated
"What?" she questioned
I'm not a hip hopper I re-replied

I remembered today
in and around 1968
My stepfather
found me work
at the age of ten
For the mob's
Big Henchmen
  
Digging Ditches
Digging Graves
  
So hot in the desert
So much dirt on my sweat
Las Vegas is an oasis
but this is no picnic
Three  today
Too much debt on my back
  
For fifty dollars
A grave
So long
the wait
For Berman's men

I would paste my heart
with crazy glue if that would
help it stick to you

My babysitter ***** me
Tore up all my dreams
Tore up all my blue jeans
Beginning just to see
Was she really mean
To leave me licky clean
  
Looking for a golden heart in the wind
Looking for a golden heart in the wind
It doesn't matter where you've been
Looking for a golden heart in the wind
  
Want to make you smile
If you've been through the miles
Like I've been in my mind
When I see you, life's been kind
  
Looking for a golden heart in the wind
Looking for a golden heart in the wind
Doesn't even matter if you sin
Looking for a golden heart in the wind

rhinoceri blare
bulls snoozing chipmunks oink, clear
carnivore deafens

dad said son i threw out your cards
i wept and cried with tears
then my head
got smashed
in tree
along with all my dreams
lost in time
  
well it caught up
paid for all my demons
could die wasted
plastered faces
seen with broken miles
  
drove my cab
three million miles
three million miles
demensions
dementations
jim, harold, patrick
gone forever
well, maybe not
  
spock, can you hear me
I gave up on destiny
and shooting stars
and all that misery
  
I learn to dry my tears
upon the open wind
and wash my mind
with breath of broken sea
  
and now i've got to go
charge the three point per
and the extras keep coming
yeah the extras keep coming
to keep me
they make me sleepy
but i don't sleep

I've come around
Through all these years
I've turned around
After all the tears
  
You said you loved me
Then you left me standing there
You said you loved me
Then you left me over here
  
I've come around
I've got the gears
To turn around
And wipe it clear
  
You ran around and tricked me
But, I didn't sneer
Now you're spreading lies about me
The truth is out now dear
  
I've turned around
I've made it clear
Those other clowns
They're not me dear
  
I've got it all together now
It is perfectly clear
There's no more choices for you now
There is only me, dear
  
I've turned around
For you my dear
I've turned around
For you my dear

When I was just a boy
I had this dream of aliens and green things
My mother wasn't home
She had to work so my sisters and I could eat
She hired a babysitter
In her teens
She was mean and
  
My, My, My Ba- Babysitter ***** me
My, My, My Ba- Babysitter ***** me
She bit me on the ear
She licked me oh so dear
But, she ***** me
  
And then my mother beat me
And then I grew too big. see?
I lived inside a bubble of my dreams
And then I learned of airplanes
bllsht!, With their war games
That's when I took the only way to see
  
and that was
My, My, My, Ba-Babysitter ***** me
My, My, My, Ba-Babysitter ***** me
She took me to the sea
Left me with broken dreams
'Cause she ***** me
         and that's not funny
  
My babysitter ***** me
And now I've learned to live with broken bones
My babysitter ***** me
I've been the king, I was the pawn, I'm clean
When my big sister teased me
It could have been a daydream
But what I know, life's been mean to me
  
and I'm tellin' ya
My, My, My Ba-Babysitter ***** me
My, My, My Ba-Babysitter ***** me  
She bit me in the ear
She licked me oh so dear
And she ***** me
  
I told my mommy Dee
About her new employee
That babysitter worked this week for free
She took off to Missouri
Forgot to say goodbye to me
She can live there
I can live with me
  
but I don't know why
My, My, My Ba-Babysitter ***** me
My, My, My Ba-Babysitter ***** me
Why oh why oh me
Spank me spank me please
'Cause my babysitter ***** me
ooooooooh she ***** me

Could have done better
But the dealer had it stacked
Little bit better
But it's done
And it's been packed
I've been searching for someone
True, like me she's blue  
I'm telling all my friends
This song, it's for you
  
Bad draw
I've seen it in my dreams
Bad draw
Wasn't luck that brought me greed
Bad draw
It was cousin's kissing dream
Bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad draw
  
I was licking something special
Before I was a teen
It seem like it would last forever
But that was just a dream
My baby wore a different card
She'd always been a tease
And why am I here
In the middle
Stuck inside this scene
  
Bad draw
You've seen it on T.V.
Bad draw
It's been in every magazine
Bad draw
Yea, she was a tease
Bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad draw
  
Her night gown teased me
Like a soap star on T.V.
She could go from vamp to *****
In a minute minus three
When I fell upon her
I fell down on my knees
I guess I should have known then
Of her power over me
I was never once a man
When she was fifty-three
Yet, the guilt still hangs upon my soul
And she's still my prettiest girl
Still my prettiest girl
  
Could have done better
Bet the dealer had it stacked  
Little bit better
Now it's done
And it's been packed
I always wondered what it'd be
To live a life that's free
So, now I'm telling all my friends
So they can finally see
  
It was a bad draw
I was losing it for me
Bad draw
Yea, It could have been a dream
Bad draw
Blood lust beyond your dreams
Bad, bad, bad, bad
Bad draw

I'm proud of my father
Who fought in World War II
He helped save the world
And the red, white, and blue
He brought me up with sternness
Kindness and understanding
And now I see the rules he had
Were there for my good standing
He is an American, true and blue
Looking back when I was a teen
In the nineteen seventies
I rebelled against war
And fought for the causes
Which I believed would change the world
For the better, not the better off  
So, when my father put me down
I had to turn and look at him
And say the only reason that
I do these things is because
I am an American

it's like going against your own wishes
you know she's no good for you
she's hurt you in the past
she'll do it again
how can she even say i love you
maybe i should of went with her when she asked me
but i had just gotten out of the hospital
and my thoughts were not sane
i've got to run away
i've got to do it quickly
and i chose her
but it's been over two months
and i'm not sure that she's even there
if she is
she most likely has a guy living there
with her
i don't need a confrontation
i don't need any more pain
not this century
i gave her four chances last century
so i really don't need it
i love this witch that torments me
it's like a marriage without being married
in today's world
most couples cheat on their spouses
how can i expect her not to do the same
i'm sure she will
why the wait
my leg is cracked
my arm is lame
my appendix has a hole in it
spewing blood and ****
behind my left nut
and my heart valve is dead
ha! my heart is dead
what irony
life's little left handed money wrench
my heart is dead  
it's like going against your own wishes
you know she's no good for you
she's hurt you in the past
she'll do it again
how can she even say i love you
maybe i should of went with her when she asked me
but i had just gotten out of the hospital
and my thoughts were not sane
i've got to run away
i've got to do it quickly
and i chose her
but it's been over two months
and i'm not sure that she's even there
if she is
she most likely has a guy living there
with her
i don't need a confrontation
i don't need any more pain
not this century
i cave her four chances last century
so i really don't need it
i love this witch that torments me
it' like a marriage without being married
in today's world
most couples cheat on their spouses
how can i expect her not to do the same
i'm sure she will
why the wait
my legs cracked
my arm is lame
my appendix has a hole in it
spewing blood and ****
behind my left nut
and my heart valve is dead
ha! my heart is dead
what irony
life's little left handed money wrench
my heart is dead  
it's like going against your own wishes
you know she's no good for you
she's hurt you in the past
she'll do it again
how can she even say i love you
maybe i should of went with her when she asked me
but i had just gotten out of the hospital
and my thoughts were not sane
i've got to run away
i've got to do it quickly
and i chose her
but it's been over two months
and i'm not sure that she's even there
if she is
she most likely has a guy living there
with her
i don't need a confrontation
i don't need any more pain
not this century
i cave her four chances last century
so i really don't need it
i love this witch that torments me
it' like a marriage without being married
in today's world
most couples cheat on their spouses
how can i expect her not to do the same
i'm sure she will
why the wait
my legs cracked
my arm is lame
my appendix has a hole in it
spewing blood and ****
behind my left nut
and my heart valve is dead
ha! my heart is dead
what irony
life's little left handed money wrench
my heart is dead

I've been sitting here
Letting life go
Just sitting here
Laying back in my easy chair
  
I lost all my possessions
Lost my career
I don't like where I'm living
Please!  Get me out of here
  
Somebody help me
Get on my feet again
Somebody help me
Get on my feet again
  
I need to laugh
I need to live
I need to love
I need your laugh
I need you, rib
I need your love

I think I'll be a music man
Travel across the land
Sing to all the losers
Give them a helping hand
  
I'll be a *** with money
But a rich man with my song
Thumbing across the country
Living all life long
  
I'll play the cities like L. A.
For a day or week
Then when I am tired
I'll move to Boulder Creek
  
My legs may be quite tired
My eyes can barely see
But, no one can tell me I'm chained
My mind will always be free

squealing landlord rants
eruption frolics, donkey
drizzles bleakly, great

Please
Defibrillate me
I'm Dying In my pain
Please
Defibril1ate me
I'm dying In my heart
I've had my heart hurt
For so many years
Denying myself
The growth I deserve
No longer helpless,  
Defenseless. I'm free
To live my life now
So somebody please
Please
Defibrillate me
I'm dying
In my soul
Please
Defibrillate me
I'm dying
It's my heart
I've turned so cold
Away, withdrawn
Always frustrated
I'm here alone
I need a partner
Can't do it alone
I need a jump-start
Not some doggie's bone so
Please
Defibrillate me
I'm dying
In my dream
Please
Defibrillate me
Come, flying to my heart
I told the doctor
Just leave me alone
Don't need no x-ray
Pills? Oh, no, no
I need a real love
To heal me again
A ton of love, love
Not one etched in sand
So, please
Defibrillate me
I'm dying
In my pain
Please
Defibrillate me
I'm dying
In my heart
It's my heart, dying
Dying

rusty roses
once were blue
red or yellow
pink ones too
  
not delivered
to the one
young true lover
having fun
  
always meant to
spark a fire
for your eyes would
then alight
  
never got to
show my love
never had
my turtle dove
  
sorry that I
never sent
the rusty roses
meant for you

Dear Gov. Chris Christie,

  Years ago, when the citizens of the state of New Jersey voted to
approved medicinal cannabis.  You stated that you weren't quite sure
you should allow this because of children.  And the treatment of curing children's cancers were then delayed, for about two years.  Just this Monday, you passed on signing a bill that would increase the age of tobacco use to the age of 21.  Were you not thinking of the safety and health concerns of the children then?  So, what you're saying is:  Hey kids!  If you want to catch cancer and die young then that is okay
because it is LEGAL.  But, if you want a natural remedy to cure your cancer.. well, you fill in the blank.  So, do you you really care about the health concerns of children?  Do you Governor Christie?  Do you?

Awaiting your prompt reply,


The Poet

I'm packing up boxes
I'm moving away
I went to see mother
She's in her grave
  
She forced me to do it
at only two
Choke on her boyfriend
Spit, swallow, and chew
  
She labeled me branded
Her lies, never true
I'm still fighting rumors
And living the blues
  
I was so beaten
Had welts that were bleeding
The teachers were screaming
Get out of our school
  
Then, one day I fought back
Whenever attacked
Did twenty-two push-ups
And more jumping jacks
  
I took her to court
And the judge said "you're lying"
And all mother did
was just sit there, just crying
  
They said I could go
to the county's safe home
But, it wouldn't be easy
With their share of sleazies
  
My father remarried
Had no time for me
He had a new family
Much different from me
  
Finally, I couldn't
stand it no more
And murdered my mother
That red headed *****
  
I'm packing up boxes
I'm moving away
She's lying there rotting-
in hell.  In her grave

Hazel
I never knew a thing before
And now I
Hear the ocean's roar
I hear the
Clatter of your
Footsteps
But keep going
And I see
A road that
Never ends
And it floats
It could learn
But
It just lies there
In the sun
Like a lizard
Gathering warmth
And our minds, Hazel
They
Gaze into each other's peepers
And
Become one
And
The answers
Become wordless

moistly smile sidles
keenly, coldly glumly fist
quailing, jabbering

I've never seen a free world
It must be someone's dream
There's always so much fighting
And people really mean
  
They say we're in a free world
Then please explain to me
How races were so slaughtered
in the twentieth century
  
Twenty Thousand Soldiers
Marching off to war
Thirty Thousand Dead Already
Why, would they need more?
  
To claim they're in a free world
Is a fallacy
There's nothing here for nothing
Not even your T.V.
  
So, if you see a free world
Point it out to me
I'll try my best to get there
if the weather's nice.  We'll see