We bloom like jasmine
Emanating exotic essence
The smell is enough to intoxicate
Enraptured I captured the heat from your flame
Glistening as each word peaks and captivates
Leaving me breathless
Vivid imagery penetrates and consumes my senses
The longing becomes astounding
Arousing  
Leading me into binding
I implore your mercy
For I am so thirsty
My mouth salivates at the thought of your lusting
No longer trusting my inhibitions
Because I can't hold back when it comes to your rhetoric
Your tongue is too precise and bombastic
Undeniably ******
Waves of ecstasy wash over me
The undertow bringing me far out to sea
You're almost otherworldly
I beg thee show me mercy

Lines like luscious lips
That twist and tangle around my mind
Kissing my senses and igniting my inspirations
I play with your words
Day and night and fight my loneliness
My greatest strife
Fantasies tantalize the lids of my eyes
The stories
The raw emotions
Oh how I love the  poets

I clenched your hand
Feeling your rhythm straight from your palm
Your heart was pumping a sad man's song
That brought me to tears
I could trace your fears
"You're never alone"

Your words fell like rain
Leaking your pain
as you strained to hold back the release
With your stiff upper lip I could see
It had been far too long
"It's ok, you're never alone"

I fell in love with you then
In that one intimate moment
Feeling the need to bring you into me
To shelter you from the storm
To this day I'll continue to say
"Don't worry,you're never alone"

The night gave off an uneasiness
There was a static storm looming
I closed my eyelids in eagerness
Hoping for sleep to consume the feeling

I saw him walking beside me
A memory endlessly creeping in
Once again his step falls behind me
Filling me with pain and panic

I turn almost instinctually
Grasping a blade tightly in hand
Striking him with unnerving velocity
A reoccurring dream of killing him

Confidence held in a grin of crimson lips
Eclipsed by the duped intentions of shady corporate slips
Maybe she was born with it
Or maybe she reads too much Covergirl
It is not easy to be a young woman in this world

I see you
and the moments pass so quickly
I take hold as you slip away
Time is tricky
Forever in a day
A day can last forever
All that's left is to remember
I begin to play with the clock's levers
Out of control
Too bold
Too desperate
I just want you now
Now that it's passed
Why can't I grasp impermanence?
Denying the ticks of illusions
Explosive tears can't drain this longing
This sense of belonging
Take some more of my breath
Plus the hours I've spent pondering transitory periods
It's my curse and the curse of most women
Holding onto fairytales
From childhood dreams
Of princesses and thieves
My hearts been stolen from my sleeve
and hung out to bleed
Watch as the blood hits my paper
and savor your conquer
As I wonder aimlessly  
Aging painfully

Nothing but a shred of hope
That is surely something

I was spinning round and round
I didn't notice I had been found
Abashed at first when you caught my arm
Whirling me into your world
Into your arms
At first I feared I had been spun into a web
But instead you made me a cocoon
That I consumed and flew out of
Who knew that it would mean so much
When you danced with me
Declining the role of a crutch

As the fire dies
Revealing the last shred of it's light
I focused on the last burning ember
Struggling to survive in the midst of December
In awe of it's last heated fight
To keep warmth and bring life to the night
I watched as it came close to diminishment
Then quickly fed and nourished it
With the arms of trees that will only see life in spring
As for me
Life waits on nothing

In the moon light
Our faces glow and show another side
Bringing out a different kind of primal desire
For what's done in the shadows of the night
Is not always exploited when the sun shines bright
If we avoid the all seeing eyes of our street's design

I am dancing naked under the moon
Out of touch but in tune
Howling to consume
Every last shred of modesty
In all honesty
I've been yearning to unleash the beast
Death rolling inside of me

Hair raised while eyes dilate
You cant sedate this lusting
Confounded by the sight of her majesty
I melt and cave
To the awkward drum beat
Calling me

If love truly conquers it all
Then I will Fall for everything
Stop playing with mysteries
Gaining faith in the unseen
If we could be saved by a feeling
Then why would I choose otherwise

I rest my head on your chest
Feeling blessed
Mellow and at peace
Your arms reminding me
There was never a need to worry
Your heart beat lulling
A sound of pure beauty
If I could have stayed for the rest of my days
I surely would have
Enraptured in that moment so far from the world
and the burdens of should have

The laughter and silence without explanation
Cherished moments wrapped tightly in exultation
I imagine the glimmer in your eyes
That spoke a thousand words
The light I could never leave behind

Even our struggles invoked harmony and understanding
The pain we've suffered and shared sang out epiphanies
Bringing out legacies
Moments that reminded me incessantly
To live as though there were no tomorrow
To seize each day and make it my own
To stand for what truly matters and sit no more
To never be told and learn to be bold
If anyone wonders how I am living now
I'm living as though everything I love is buried in the ground
Digging my way out of this unspeakable distress
Turning the pages to write something epic

With one mention
I would burst into tears
But with time and learned lessons
I realize now that I've healed
Now forgiven and accepted
The memories never forgotten
Pain has been replaced
Releasing me

I fear not those who fear me
In bitter disgust
I do as I please and aim to please you not
You could hate me in chatters of matters in squads
I'll sit back comfortably and applaud your abilities to judge
Good
Bad
Right
Wrong
It's such a grey area
Thanks for letting me know

I saw them flying high above -
with love - twisting and bending air;
there was a pair.
I compared my clumsy arms to their wings -
bringing me to believe -
I'll only be with them truly in my dreams.

How could it be,
that these tiny fluttering things,
would etch themselves so vividly
into my memories - for a lifetime it seems.

I learned from the whispers of butterflies
and all the pain died in the wake of their fleeting dance.
Enchanting me forever with the idea of metamorphosis.

He believes in nothing
And dives into the essence to breath freely
Freezing time and relinquishing his pretensions
Gravity was far too heavy without the enhancement
The lows more extensive than the false paradise
I prey he finds his way through small sacrifice
It's the little things in life that keep us honest
He sits itching for release as he forsakes his actions
Unfortunately at times it seems impossible to break our habits
but our wills are stronger than the artificial entrapments

I no longer try to impress
I digress
Hoping that what is left unspoken highlights significance

You could be completely faithless
I'd like to think there's some reason for my presence
You're far more simple than me
I foolishly try to win your appease
Even though I know you wish I'd praise on my knees

Your ego leaves you thinking you are godly
To me you reek of voluminous folly
I am left begging for acquiescence

Communications fail and lessen to flattery and Superficiality
I want you to love me

Though I cant be sure on my own behalf I'd implore the same
It doesn't feel like a game though I expect I am being played

I wont falter to your narcissistic ways
We fight until the passion leaves us in a haze
It makes me feel alive when I oppose you and gain such a stance
It beats watching the latest televised programs

If it came down to you or I
I'd surely die to save your life
That has to mean something

Sleepless and full of wonder
I ponder impossibilities
The reality is simply wasted time and unfulfilled superiority
As I lay staring upon my ceiling
I write to give it meaning
Though I know I am lacking depth and understanding
The beginning lies within the dawn
I can only hope to spawn the other side of me
Tonight I'm far too gone dreaming of what could be

I collect all the pieces of continuous reminiscence
From a space that will never be replaced nor decay in time
It remains entombed, tranquil, and sublime
Locked away in my mind
Revitalized Infinitely

I am envious of the way you laugh at your own decay
The way you don't keep time nor race
You grace each day without hesitation
Living within the moments straying away from the anxieties of anticipation
Keeping steady pace
Never overthinking the little things that cause such grief and dismay
There's such beauty in your way
You dream of the future without condemning yourself today
I long to learn from that mind frame
For it resembles perfection and transfers influential sway

Significance decreased as your speech began to reek
with pretentious hypocrisy revealing conspicuous shortcomings
Importunately making conclusions based upon illusions
Spouting lines to save but delirium is all you gave
As if I were seeking your confirmation, salvation, or blessings
I would've asked your opinion if I valued your progression and prosperities
or wondered into a church if I sought duplicitous appease
This unrequited love you deal is meretricious and full of disease
You sell a lie until it's spent then devour what is left of one's esteem
You depend on the humiliation and degradation of another
to accommodate the hostilities you experience from others
Passing off insurmountable grief to save yourself from your own realities
I hope one day you find peace and revelation
Before someone else is enraptured by your false persona falling victim to your belittlement and fluctuations

With clarity and understanding there's no need to fight nor work out of spite
Peace is held in the moment we realize we have so little time
Matters of dispute perish in this collective state
That we will all leave this place in the exact same way
The great
The weak
The bleak
We all one day will become obsolete
It's time we connect and practice empathy
Love is the ultimate and only true prosperity

No matter what is expected or preconceived
Remain determined
Break through the chains of other's mentalities of what is to be
You are more than yesterday's realities
If you persevere there's no stopping your choices manipulating destiny
A persons fate is not set in stone
We grow beyond the mold of past perceptions
Never allow another to lessen your ambitions
Speak through velocity to prove undeniable ability to overcome and achieve
The cost whatever it may be is worth the sacrifice to obtain your dreams

Eyes flickered like dancing flame
Our desires untamed
Unyielding
Enrapturing and bringing about weightlessness  
I long to escape to this timeless place only we create
So surreal and shapeless
This passion kills the faithlessness
Exhaling the dark matters
Willing a change in the seer and patterns
My soul cried out a plea
Never take this heaven away from me

There's so much to gain through pain
The struggles bring about an irrevocable strength
Although at times we lose our fight
Each dawn beckons begging us to rise
Courage is the ability to see that so much more could be
Regardless of the troubles that elude you to believe in impossibilities
Before you start cursing your cares away
Remember to look ahead to see what is truly at stake
Tomorrow is a new day

Driving me to madness
All is set to burn
I find myself playing with matches
Waiting my turn
Although at times it gets relentless
The passion is irresistible
I could claim that I hate it
but cant help but love the thrill

Never will he perish
For he'll remain with me
Tarnishing my soul in the wake of his memory
Tangled up in my memories
Constantly blaming me
Incisively

Trenchant is his face within my mind
So hard to disguise or hide my plight
Wishing it was but never will be past-tense
His presence lingers
Pulling at my resistance
So persistent

The knots wrap tightly to my wrist
Bound to the same grounds
The thoughts place this as they manifest
Repetitious history
Evoking inevitability

I wish the tears could cleanse and mend
The taste of blood is too metallic for my pallet
As I descend bitterness fades leaving disgrace
I am not to blame but I bare the shame
However I cant regret knowing his name

Through the bars I could make out your face
and I began pacing where I'd once lay
Chasing you endlessly in my dreams
No longer able to fall asleep
Out in the yard
I'd trail behind
As we walked the dirt paths carved out in time
and although I was trapped
I didn't mind
As long as I had you in my sight
I imagined us digging our way to freedom
The rain kissing our flesh like it does in film
I could envision us rejoicing and retreating together
Where we could forget the trails we've faced and weathered
It was a summer day in the midst of winter
It was hope found in hopelessness
We could entangle and enrapture eachother
Our tale a constellation told amongst other star gazers
We'd inspire them all to revolt
they'd sing our song while mapping everything out
You've made me believe our time here could be worth something
and a believer I was not

It was quite the fiasco based on figment
Finite and forged
Our affair kept me famished
Fabricated and farce
Merely a fantasy where I featured a feasible feather
So far from my flock
Forlorn on a foreign turf
Why me?I began to fathom
Flustered as I fought the formidable

He was a vandal
Vigorous and vindictive
I'd often venture to misapprehend his vacant vitality leaving me indifferent
I became lost in this vagabond
Now left voided and breaking under scrutiny
This vermin could be the death of me

The words caught on the tip of my tongue
Where they'd hang desperately
Never to see the light of day
but easily traced in fluttering eyes and sweaty palms
All those things I should have said crease my forehead
Time only carving them deeper

In an instant it dissipated
Dissolving into regulated patterns and cycles
of heart wrenching battles that always brings about the rain

My distain falls short for I am also at blame
In his name
His name...
I see something untamed
It is a beast of burden that ignites me into flames

Motivating and tempestuous
A storm to be famed
It knocked me for a loop
Guiding me on my path and waking me from my stoop

Hawk eyes with a diamond mind
He is a predator disguised
The lines become faded
I must be jaded
Is it love or hatred?

I feel galvanized and shook
Lost in his book
Each chapter leaves me breathless
Hanging on a word
That's blurred by my tears and fears

The kind of events and plots
that will remain with me for years

Eyes veiled and full of misconceptions
I've been tested in the wake of expectation
Mass produced humiliation
Induced to become reclusive and stricken
A great appreciator of silence
Resilient and resistant
as I ponder my own completion and reliance
I shy my eyes from the broadcast and bypass the heart
that only beats and tracks superficial consummation
With such a great fear of sedation and the props preserved for consumption
Contemplating my voice in constant wonder if I will be beaten for seething over
the strange structure that kills spirit
I digress and rest at ease convinced I am blessed for I can see

Drawn with a rapid heart and quickened breaths
I reached with sweaty palms
Eyes tearing
Mind out of wit
Giving into and coming out of the truth I once inhabited
To find anew like all caged rebels do when the casing no longer fits
Shell shocked my ears popped as sonic waves dropped
and I rode them down past hell hounds to find new grounds to stomp
Playing new fields and tilling old earth
Planting to birth something taller and less green
Yearning for clarity and found in small charities
Giving everything that I've got
To transcend and breath easy once again lest I rot
Off in search of who I really am
and remembering who I'm not

Tears welled and wet my cheek
As my legs gave out and I hit the concrete
I couldn't stand the over whelming defeat
I examined the stone that caught me
and it taught me

Through the crack I saw a stem
It wasn't the most graceful of flowers but it was magnificent
Somehow it found it's way through
Growing passed odds that I'd never imagined it to

I feel the sharp realities pierce straight through my wanna be day dreams
I look at you with uncertainty and strain to keep the questions from surfacing
If I could only stay in this fanciful game of believing and achieving  
But too soon my scars start seeping the deception and leave you uneasy
I want to be the girl you imagine but I am made up of lesson
I hate to be the one to show you things aren't always as they seem

A moment in your eyes could stay sketched in mind timelessly
The power your piercing gaze holds makes my mind crumble translating to stutters
of expressionless wonders
Intensity keeps a smile from forming
Feelings spike to shock and speechlessness
As layer by layer I begin unfolding until naked and completely unraveled
A surrender that kept me motionless
I want to run
I want to hide
But I'm left clinging to your sleeve heaving
As I morn the loss of the self I once fit into comfortably
I almost unwillingly dispelled the anchor that held me down
and drifted until my tired body felt the sand of safe grounds
It was your island
It was your stability
It was all recognized when you took my hand with great agility
I sat in tears letting the gold fall through my hands
Watching it glisten as my foot prints trailed along
I took time to kiss the new land I stand upon
Then looked up ambitiously with anew strength ready to explore

I am experiencing writers block.Does anyone have any ideas or a topic they'd like to share?Comments and suggestions will be highly appreciated!

It's a chase for what you'll never encase
More like hide it away in a box of guilty pleasure
Opened only to shutter at the twisted moralities of others
Yet still you get off to the warping sensation
Fears taken and bent into little pleasure pretzels
Her sickness feeds your addiction for ***** gore
No matter how far you stray you can't help but crave her flavor
It's your panic switch that she cradles
As the lines between whats wrong and right fades equal
With all her red flags soaring you have no other option but surrender
Caught up in her web you'd gladly be devoured

I knew it wouldn't be easy but they never told me it'd be this hard
I trace layers upon layers of scars
Remembering each lesson carved into beautiful trademarks
I seek not revenge but rather to transcend
and at my wits end I find time to make peace with the screams
While watching the stream ever-changing shaping the banks of
caving earth
Dispersing tiny dismantled pieces into a deep ravine
A place unseen but the depths taunting
Muffled whispers and glimmers stir and discern all visibility
The waters reflected the chaos that plagued my reckoning
As I sat tossing stones watching the ripples fade and form
My small attempts to redirect the current seemed insurmountable
The rush and persistence of endless resistance surpassed my will
Swallowing my feet in mud and dismay
Beside the stream I'd forever stay

You can find me behind a tinted window
This stained glass protects my weakness
Unrecognizable
I could be anyone
You'll never know me now
and I enjoy the strange in strangers
As my heart drifts so far from my form
I unleash my mind and dabble in art forms
There was a time when I'd hope to share it with you
but we can't hold on to things that aren't true

When your woos left you with woes
Your repercussions echoed extreme
Armed by the past
You placed your bet on the guilty
But I am no prisoner of my yesterdays
and I'll bid up because I wont be blamed
It brings me no joy
This irrelevant fight
This endless gamble
This darkened knight
Even if I won you still wont be mine
Which is why we're both screaming in the first place

My eyes glazed as we sat beneath the warm glow
of a street light
In the very spot we used to kiss each other goodnight
I listened to the water flowing beneath the bridge
and thought of the days when we were just kids
In that moment my heart caved in

I remembered my arms in the sleeves of your leather coat
When we were in it together is when I loved it the most
I could never be too close and wished on you from afar
Through my eyes you were the Northern Star

Those days had some kind of magic
An irresistible charm that still sways me on
As I waltz back into days that are now gone
but the tears have yet to stop
I fear what it could mean if my mask falls off

The nights seem to last longer...
I watch the minutes crawl upon the ceiling
As I replay every word exchanged
From your tired lips unto my walls
Splatters of colorful paint decorate every brick placed
and you can almost trace the misunderstandings
If you examine the situation close enough
The fear comes from wanting
The pain is cradled in longing
and I wonder how I ended up falling
Pointless thoughts that keep my mind soaring
So far from reason's reach
and it's been too long this night
That day has breached

The wind chimes played an awful tune
Off beat and so quick to assume
Consuming what's left of a peaceful night
Disturbing it with pitches too low or too high
Laughable to believe and fed to the dead
Whose lives seem better when misled
So may the birds tweet and let the dogs bark
I cant control the wind nor wish to win hearts

Eyes catch fire with desire for days passed
Vibrant memories cling to the lids of your closed eyes
Chasing could've
Fancy Would've
But it's all lost in time my friend
Open up to today
Behold what you're denying yourself of
Learn to love

Panic kept my heart and adrenaline pumping
I told myself to never look back but the temptation was overcoming
When the realization hit that I had come so far
and could no longer see the start
beads of sweat shaped my brow
A physical confession of complete and utter fear
A psycological obstacle that rang loudly in my ears

I gazed at the steps willing my eyes to see the end
Itching for hope or someway to transcend
But reguardless of the vigorous time spent climbing
Into the heavens the staircase kept winding

My mind begged to cave
Desperate for an escape
From limb to limb my muscles twitching,tired,and shaken
I couldnt help the tears from flowing incessantly
While I searched longingly for some kind of reason or deep meaning to drive me

I dropped religion along the way
I pushed through the treachery of tongues leading
I threw my backpack over the rail so my possessions
couldnt weigh on me
I fought the false antedotes
I stopped blaming others
I grew to great heights yet still I wound up seated and flustered

Uncertainty haunted me
Leaving my head in my hands
In a world of illusion the next step is always difficult to determine
I looked back up to my challenge
Questioning the means
and learned that with enough curiousity
anything can be achieved

Pupils like pins altered in transmission
A lump in the mind jumpstarts to life
It's only a matter of time before the malfunctions occur
For some tests and trials the result is cancer
Ask Moscow after fifteen years
Grasp your cellphone without an ounce of fear
Deny the facts right in front your face
or be a minority of one
Completely insane

The surface of the water was placid
Reflections of Fall spotted this canvas in commencement
So excitingly colorful and vibrating with life  yet so still,cool,and welcoming
Inviting a storm
This tiny pond was willing to fight reguardless of the score
Well aware of the baited hooks and the illusions sold to implore
Tiny fins wave in unison
Fragile yet admirable all the same