I can picture us
sitting on our porch during sunrise
Rays glistening off the morning dew
Staring into eachothers
wrinkled eyes
   Indented by a thousand shared smiles
As tears of joy run down our faces
in the realization that all of our dreams came true

I can see us
gracefully reaching the end of our days
Reminiscing as the sunsets on your beautiful face
Holding tightly onto eachothers hands
   Laughing at all the things we used to do
and the thing that gets me each and everytime
is I have no doubt you see it too

My feet urged me on
as the wind fought against my will
and forced tears from my eyes
A passing face resembling yours
had me back tracking and
I stared back at the ghostly figure
Realizing my mind was playing tricks on me
My pace quickened hastily
The blackened Sea rushing in beside me
I allow the waves of emotion to recede
Back into the deepest part of me
Burying them in the sands of time
Knowing that the tale will forever be engraved in mind
A scar that can be spied in my manner with a well trained eye
A weakness not so easily disguised tho I try
and with my heart on my sleeve I drifted out to sea with no
life jacket to keep me from drowning
At that point I thought it easier than living
For an emotion that's so glorified adorned in beauty
It surely cuts deeper than hating ever could
Leaving you wondering which of the two is the greater evil?

As the night consumed the last rays of dusk
I prepared myself for the hours of loss
The air so thick and unsettling
Another night spent pondering
Each moment less bearble than the last
I must have been a fool to fall into this

I cling to our sheets
grasping your pillow firmly
catching faint traces of your scent
My body bent and curled into its smallest form
and I think of all the circumstances that left your promise torn
The unpredictable has robbed me once more
of all the contentment I  had held in your loving arms
and through the tears I find a way to grin ever so slightly
Holding onto the faith that carried us through our struggles previously
Your face for now remains so far from my reach
I close my eyes in desperation hoping you'll come to me in my sleep

The door is open
you're free to decide
to keep this love floating
or leave and sink it with time
I wonder
Will you think of me?
Dream of me perhaps?
Will you wave a pretty lady
with the thought of my hand?
Or will it be so easy that my face fades all together
and when someone mentions my name you relate it to
some other flower?
I wonder

Understanding means little with no voice to relate
and no action to cater to the thought
To sit beside you in silence is sheer meaningless
A proximinal neglect that is in desperate need of reflection
The universe is tearing us apart as we wonder aimlessly with no intention
This silence is pure sadness because it represents the death of our last ambition
These times have a way of putting out flames but only in the case in which you allow it to happen

It starts with a bubbling feeling
that fills then over flows
your cords start vibrating
your stomach knots and hurts
as you slap your knee
and threat urinating
toppled over in a joyous
social transaction
one that turns awkard to ease
and crippling pain into soulful healing
The greatest act to share with someone who cares
There's lots of magic in the little moments spent lost in uncontrolable laughter