we held our thumbs up to the moon
looked at stars during daylight

the planets that you fotographed
the passion that we shared

you used to write and i used to listen
i used to write, to hear you say how i was briliant

we were both teenagers
thinking rainbows could have mercy

thinking you and i
might work



we did work
as long as we kept believing it did

as long as we made up our own rainbow
and painted intire skies

starend naar een grijze muur
behalve leegte, alleen maar leegte

starend naar de regen
niets natter dan mijn ogen

starend naar de lege fles
niemand ooit zo nuchter

starend naar de muur
zoveel leegte
zoveel hoop

if i were a poet
what would i write about

you?

if i were a poet
what would i possibly say?

would i talk about your

eyes?
your hair?
the way you use your words?

i wouldn't
all i would say was
the way you made me feel

but i ain't a poet
can't put this into words
but i feel great.

if i'd ever paint a lake
i'd paint it cold
i'd paint it frozen
without flowers, without sun

if i'd ever paint a lake
i'd think about
how cold you made me
how i'll never again feel hope

if i'll ever paint a lake
i'll paint you
and everything you've done

i wish we had a song we shared together
so i could listen it over and over again
and then delete it

but all of my musics sounds like you
we shared our lifes together

from now on every time i'll hear a song
it will be ours
and i'll miss you
like hell

i've been listening sad lovesongs all to long
and i'd gave them all to make things right
and i'd gave more
if i knew it still could change things

saying i love you won't be enough
saying i love you won't make it right
it won't be right again

i've been the biggest fool ever
having you in my arms and didn't even care
but the hard part is
i deserve this

and suddenly it all became this mess
i wish i could stop your leaving
i wish you left something behind

i'll never take you for granted again
i promise
i'll never not try my very best again
i promise

but promising isn't enough this time
and if you don't believe me, i can't blame you
i can't blame
it's all my fault

i wish i could take back
all

was it the lighntening in your eyes that hit me?
was it the lonelyness in me?
i started dreaming us together
and i've been dreaming ever since

was it the moon that brought us together?
was it written in the stars?
i started thinking us together
and i thought of it ever since

was it the lonelyness inside me?
was the moon just in my head?
i wanted us to be together
and i'll want us ever since

everday you'll say it gets better
though it only gets worse
tomorrow is always a promise of live getting better
but when today arives, you still feel sad and num, and find yourself thinking it's no use.

feeling sad
and every day a little bit sadder but you don't know why
this was going to be the most perfect year yet
your body is aching and you feel betrayed
your soul's aching and i feel...
horriefied

but then everything turns num again
and i just stare in the distance and wish it was night, and nothing else but sleep was intresting
but today is day, and i know there are things that need attention
ignorance builds a bigger hell.

my favorite poems don't cheer me up any more
sad songs are made of just words
and not your ten degree room, but your soul feels cold
and i wish i had a place to be homesick to.

and there she is again
overdwelming,
roaring in my soul

i welcome her
as an old friend
someone once dearly loved

she knows our departions will never be forever
she moves in her place naturally,
as if we've never split

she takes my hand and leads me
to the darkest corners of my soul
she presents herself as light, although we both know

how deceiving
how perfect is your love, my love

it was not you that took me
it was me that gave myself away

i love you, my love
and yet i know you do not know that word

i know the word love is, for you as empty as my soul
is now to me

again you've taken everything
and you despite me for loving you for it

but it's so hard to keep my eyes dry
as you hurry away

and my now empty soul is screaming
for you to come back, and take some more

rots
water
zee

langzaam
word ik afgebrokkeld
de zee vecht

ik kan alleen maar

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