I feel like I repeat myself
over and over when I write
each poem becomes about
staying up at night
wondering about my lack
of friends and my
heading toward a dead end
but I really can't understand
why I've lived here for three months
and have met no one
besides my two roommates
No one relates or sees that
I'm good company
and it's not like I don't try
I do, I sit next to people and
try and get to know them
I smile, I joke
I be me
but I'm so, so
lonely
it's suffocating
it's heart breaking
it's devastating
when I can't pick up my phone
and call someone to just
kick it
I used to think that
I had to learn to like being alone
I did
now alone time is all I get
what the ****
what the ****
what the ****
what the ****
what
the
****

My room tells about
all the people that haven't been in it
no one has watched a movie
or laid on the carpet
too drunk to stand, but
**** it was a good party
no

The clothes on the floor
whisper loneliness
as if it's the only word they know
how could they have learned
more than that?
they've only seen one soul
just me
pulling at the sheets
afraid at night
dreading that the dark air
might get too

close

I'll ask you three times if you want something and if you still say no the third time I won't ask again. If you resent me for that, then say what you want before it's too late

2. Staying to help clean after a party means about as much as being at the party, sometimes more

3. Treat animals well, if someone is cruel to animals it's a good bet they will be cruel to people

4. You can do things by yourself. Go out to eat, go to the park, take a drive. It's okay to decline company, if they are good company they will understand (but be careful to not shut them out)

5. Don't ever put anyone down for singing along to a song, even if their voice is terrible it is beautiful to hear them being free

6. If you are with people and want something, offer it to them as well

7. Make your room smell the way you want. Candle, incense, some sort of spray. People remember more from a scent than from a picture

8. Take care of your body, when it's happy your brain is happier. Exercise of any form helps improve your mood

9. Only humans keep track of time, spend a day without ever checking a clock, let your natural rhythm tell you when to eat or sleep or run or lay

10. Find one thing to enjoy each day. If the rest of the day goes poorly at least you can say you liked part of it

Biting into this brownie is like stepping into a dream of pancakes. Don't let the savory taste fool you though, one of these bad boys will have you hiking into uncharted territory. Split with a friend for a smooth trip of heady goodness. Who knows where you'll end up, the Shire? The top of the World? Where ever it is, you'll be having a good time.

Today I realized that I
am one of those people
you see characterized on shows
that just wants to sit outside
and smoke
I have been on my porch
watching my plants
and the sun trot across the sky
hell I'll probably sit out here
well into the
night

I got to PolySci
a little too high
dark glasses over eyes
even though eye drops
were applied
I tried to reach out
find a friend, maybe two
but nothing came
who knew that the
"You'll make friends quickly" Dan
would fail so miserably
now it's "back of the bus music up"
Dan
who plays guitar four hours a day
and doesn't even care where his phone
is because no one here
will text me
anyway

I didn't mean to
take a piece of you
much less such an important
component of your circulatory system
how does your blood pump
from head to toe?
why did you let it go?
My hands are soaked in its
blood
staining my pillows so
I'll mail it to you
by plane,
I can say
I gave you one last flight
before
leaving