As I peered into the eyes of the man who I knew to be my dad:
I saw nothing;
No honor, no strength,
No humanity, no compassion,
Nothing but a black hole,
created by lies,
broken promises,
and everlasting deception.
But as I took one last look... I realized,
that just because a man is given the title of a dad doesn’t make him one

you never expect these words to come out my mouth.
slurs come out as a whisper but to you they shout.
only you and I can understand what this conflict is truly about.
your mind tries to stand firm as a blade of grass in a tornado of doubt.
naturally your physical expression shows your dismay and your intellectual drought.
but for you my verbal assault will never end, you had your chance, you dug your grave for you theres no way out.
I hope my words pierce your heart like a knife.
i hope these words cause you many years of mental strife.
cause God only knows the kind of role you played in my life.
no matter how vague this message might be, we both already know its too late for me.
But this message truly isn't meant to hurt you.
its to make you aware on the outcome of your actions on one child of two
hears my plea, but im not telling you what to do. reach that title called
'FATHER'
grab it, and take your cue.

Look at me,
it's not my true identity
I have a covert identity,
i wonder if you'd ever see,
my thoughts, my deeds
are all that makes me
but something I may do
may not describe me.

My true identity
has fled me,
fled me to another
to my friends and family
my true identity
is all that makes me.

So lost deep inside
if its not for my soul
i would'd be lost again
my true identity
is hard to see.

Accept who you are
recognize your own beauty
identity isn't a need,
your identity should be your own
a better person you will be known
this is me, this is my identity
my true identity is all full of beauty.

What is this feeling I have?
I seem to love you
But other times I seem to loathe you

I can't be without you
Or maybe just without anyone
I think about you all the time
But why do I have this feeling?

I long for your voice
And I would die to hear your laugh
But is this love
Or merely lust?

Scotty has a girlfriend,
But Scotty likes to wear dresses..
Is he gay?
Of course not! He loves girls!
But..
underneath his bed,
there's a box full of secrets..
secrets so big;
it's impossible to keep em'.
What would she do..
if she found out he's been with another guy?
She'd break his neck,
as she runs to the corner to cry!

sexually confused!
Scotty doesn't know,
he's sexually confused!

She walks into her high school class,
people can't help but stare.
They don't know what it is;
blue eyes?
dark hair?
Nope. It's what's going on,
the thoughts inside her head..
It's this other girl..
"She snuck into my bed!"

sexually confused..
her peers don't know it yet,
but we're all sexually confused!

Nick has a secret,
you see hes got this fetish.
All he does is
sit around and act it.
He sneaks into his sister's room,
and tries on her clothes..
He walks around the house,
in her skirts and underwear.

Sexually confusd,
he's sexually confused!
It started with being dared to wear a pair..
look what happened,
now he's sexually confused!

Claudia's depressed because
her feelings are always surpressed.
She burries her mind with drugs,
never admiting her passion,
she's made fun of for the way she's dressed.
There's this girl, you see,
she's got dark hair and blue eyes..
they can't be together,
because well..
us sexually confused like to hide.

Sexually confused..
You see once they know,
you know, that you're sexually confused-
you'll be taunted, made fun of,
a victim of verbal abuse.
sexually confused!
Am I sexually confused?

To that strong women i've met
To that beautiful gal who knows what she wants
To that brave soul who inspires me to be a better person

I wont ever mock you, mistreat you or leave you
I wont ever abandon you, give up on you or upset you
Leave you heartbroken, leave you disheartened or given up on

I wont ridicule you but i will encourage you
I cant abandon you but i will stand by you
Every step of the way i will be there to take the good and the bad

Encourage you while your down and give you that push when you need it
Give you what you need when you need it.
Hand you what you want when you desire it.

I tell of a tale,
of a paradise lost
before it was found

Cowards they were,
masking what was so plainly
a destiny,
a desire by the heavens

He wouldn't spill,
she wouldn't ask,
but talk of nothing
they did,
till the untold
eloped with the map
to the paradise

till tension,
assisted by time,
paved a forked path;
a lane separately for each

I tell of a tale,
with regret,
of a paradise lost
before it was found

Can't Breath, Nervous, Stuttering.
Tingling, Butterflies Fluttering.

Must be Dreaming, In Denial.
Standing next to you with an uncontrollable smile.

The sun was shining bright
As I look from left to right
Then it was you I saw
Waking me from unbecoming thaw

To me you're a princess
Just missing a crown
Like a star that twinkles
I'm waiting to fall down

A moment not expected
Pulled my mind from being tormented
Seeing your smile once again
Took my heart from being ashen

I felt awesome after seeing you Once Again...
...I wish you knew how I missed you before then...

Your weakness gets to me
makes me want to rip
your heart from your chest
and trample on it
You are a coward
A fool to your own truth
a puppet on a string
being dangled
by your faithful followers
You never listen
Do you see my eyes glisten?
Can you see my angry soul? ,
my hungry mouth?
Do you feel the earthquake
in my heart as it bleeds out on the ground?
Do you even care?
Sometimes I wish you were never there
I hate you but I love you still
And I'm guessing I forever will
It takes a cruel soul to ignore
The meaning of the open door

I am a friend
There and listening

I am a lion
Loyal and strong

I am a writer
Observing everything

I am shy
Silent and gone

I am a reader
Learning and searching

I am a ghost
Disappearing without a word

I am a lover
Loving not fighting

I am a fighter
Standing up for what I believe in

I am an artist
Creating

I am me
Proud and loving