You Wore That Dress,
It Took My Breath,
It Hugged You,
So Tight.
That Beautiful Iridescent Shine,
Such A Complement To Your Figure,
To Your Eye's.
Your Lips So Full,
Eye So Blue,
You Lit Up The Room.
I Miss You,
It Was Cruel,
But I'm Glad You Are Happy.
You Deserved Better And He Is The Best.
I Still Remember The Time We Danced In The Rain,
The Way That Little Dress Stuck To Your Leg's,
The Way It Went See Through,
I Could See Your Underwear,
What Little It You Were Wearing,
I Miss Those Time's,
You Can't Say We Didn't Have A Good Time.
The Time We Just Lay In Bed Together,
We Didn't Speak,
We Didn't Have To,
The Connection So Intense.
All I Can Think Of Is You,
But I Can't Speak When You Are Near,
You Still Make My Heart Leap Into My Throat.
I Wish I Could See Those Dresses Once More Though,
To Be Blessed By The Sight Of Such Beauty Is Rare,
That Beautiful Two Tone Dress.
I Miss You But This You Shall Never Know,
It Is Time For Goodbye,
To Say Goodbye To My Friends,
My Job,
And That Little Ball Of Fuzz Maya.
It Feel's So Final,
It's Like The End Of A Chapter,
So Let's Write A New Script.

I Loved The Thought Of Being A Father,
I Wasn't Sure If I Was Ready To Make That Step But My Name Was Called,
I Felt Sure I Was Ready Then,
Cherishing The Thought.
Now I've Been Told,
Been Told That We Had A Abortion.
I Was So Confused,
How Could She Do This To Me Without Consultation.
That's When The Doctor Told Me,
Your Baby Is Dead.
I Swear In That Fraction Of A Second My World Crashed Down,
My Heart Withered And All Signs Of Hope Had Wilted.
I Didn't Realise That It's Not A Miscarriage Any More,
"We Changed The Name".
Could Have Fooled Me.
Now I'm Left,
Left Here On My Own,
She's Gone,
My Child Gone,
Love, Hope, Gone.
What Am I Left With Now.
I Feel Empty And Incomplete,
What Is This Feeling.
I Never Knew My Child,
So Why Do I Feel This Way,
I've Been Told I Would Make A Great Father And I Thought That Now Was My Chance.
How Wrong I Was.
I Want My Chance,
It's Not Fair.
All You Ever Hear Of Is Drugged Up Teen's Getting Pregnant,
And Here I Am Working,
Paying My Taxes,
Doing My Bit For The Community And Trying To Help.
But I Am The One Who Has My Child Taken Away,
In What World Does That Make Sense,
How Is This Fair.
That Child Would Have Been Loved And Cared For,
I Would Have Done Everything Possible To Provide What That Child Wanted And Needed,
Now They Have Taken Him Away.
I Hope That Wherever That Sweet Little Soul has Gone Is Better Than This Place,
No Worry Of Money,
Politic's,
War.
I Pray To The Heaven's To Look After My Child,
If Not There Shall Be No Hell That You Could Imagine Worse Than The One I Will Make You Experience.
So On This Sombre Note,
I Leave You,
Knowing,
Hoping,
That Out There Is My Child,
Most Likely Living A Better Life Than I Could Have Provided.
Now I Know What Pain Mean's.

I Have Loved The Idea Of Being A Father,
I Couldn't Wait For My Chance.
Now It's Here I Am Scared,
I'm Worried I Can't Live Up To It,
Hold The Name And Claim My Place.
The Reality Of This Choice Scares Me,
I Hold A Life In My Hand's,
Is It Really Mine To Play With,
It It Really Mine At All?
I'm Scared Of The Reality,
These Choices Shouldn't Be Mine For Year's Yet,
Certainly Not Now.
I'm To Young,
To Weak Willed,
To Irresponsable.
What If I Make The Wrong Choice,
I Can't Support A Child And Wife,
But What Other Option Do I Have.
I Can't Just Simply Ignore The Problem,
I Can't Stick My Head In The Sand Any More.
That Awful Word The One I'm Loathed To Say,
That "Abortion" Word,
Well That's Just Not An Option.
The Only Logical Option Left Is Adoption,
But I'm Not Sure I Could Do That,
Sending My Own Child Away,
To Live With Total Stranger's.
These Choice's,
So Hard To Make,
Which One's Correct.
I Can't,
I Shouldn't Have To,
But I Do,
I Have To Make My Choice Now,
So What Will It Be.
My Mind Is Lost And My Heart Has Run.
I Must Go,
Go And Make My Choice's,
Playing With A Life...

I Was The Warrior,
You're Protector,
The Justifier.

I Was A Mere Puppet,
A Side Piece To Your Show,
I Was Nothing.

You Showed Me Everything,
But Only The Thing's I Needed To Know,
So Misinformed.

I Was Easy,
You Knew Which Button's To Press,
I Feel So Cheated.

I Asked You Why,
Why Did You Do This To Me,
Why Would You Do This To Me?

Your Response,
So Cool,
So Easy,
Because I Could.....

I've Been Promising To Protect You,
I Said I'd Give Everything To Save You.
Then It Hit's Me I'm The One Causing This Pain,
What Do You Do When You Realise You're The One Causing The Pain,
Causing The Pain You Promised To Protect Against.
I Love You Cheeks But I Can't Do This,
I Promised To Protect You From Everything,
I Didn't Realise That One Day That Would Mean Me,
So Now I'll Do It,
I'll Give My Heart For You.
I Hoped That You Would Be My Heart,
That I Could Be Our Armour,
But I'm Suffocating You,
This Armour Wasn't Made For You.
I Loved You More Than Word's Can Tell,
I Still Do And I Have A Feeling That These Feelings Wont Dwindle Any Time Soon,
But That's The Reason I Have To Go,
I'm Going To Protect You,
Going To Protect You From Myself,
Here's My Heart,
Here's My Final Speech,
Please Don't Forget Me,
What We Shared Had Been Dreamt Of Through The Age's,
But Every Fairytale Has To End Somewhere And I Guess It's Our Time.
So Goodbye Cheek's,
The Last Few Months Have Been The Best Of My Life,
I Hope You Enjoy The Rest Of Your's.

I am so angry
This hate is so pure
I feel like you are doing something wrong
But I don't know for sure

It's screaming at me to hurt them too
Maybe they are in the right
But I don't know
To stop the tears all I can do is fight

My lungs burn
Because you have this hurt and anger inside
They just don't see it
They are blind

I wish they could feel my pain
But I wish for them never to ask
Because they don't know me
I just keep concealing my feelings under a happy mask

Some days I think I don't care
I'm sick of hiding this fear
How would they understand anyway
I can't even see myself clear

Why bother then
Why even try
I hurt so badly
At night all I can do is cry

It makes me so angry
So mad
I am able to hide my hurting
But they tell the world when they're sad

Can't they do what everyone else does
Pretend their feelings aren't there
For the world to see
For the world to bear
Like me!
Urg! This just isn't fair

My heart more scarred than my wrist,
I'm ready to give up now,
I got my answer and it's not the one that I wanted.
How am I going to do it this time,
Drink myself to death or take a swim,
Maybe I could just go to sleep and never wake up.
I already bleed,
Painting my wall's with crimson,
What will it take this time,
I feel cold,
I feel weak,
Maybe this is it.
This could be my last goodbye.
I don't know what to say,
I love you I always will and will be with you every step you take.
I have to go now I'm going cover up and go down the pub,
sit in that weaved sofa we both loved,
The one we both loved in.
Seem's fitting to lay to rest with a bottle of *** in our favourite spot,
Maybe you will realise then,
realise that everything I ever did was for you.