My heart is ablaze like a burning fire
Eating me from inside out
It’s all because of my love
That was burned by your very words.
Each night I have a nightmare
That always wakes me up sweaty and with fright
It always seems to be about you
Leaving this very earth.
My heart is no longer burning ablaze
As it has turned to cold icy stone
This wasn’t caused by you
But by the lethal injection I gave myself.

This is a time of reckoning
A time to change my life
Because when this night has ended
I will not be the same.

Tomorrow I will be with you
Forever by your side
But tonight is not the same
Without you in my arms.

I told you not to go
Not to worry about tradition
But all you said was
Baby don’t cry I will return tomorrow.

I sat up all night crying
Hoping that it would pass
Because tomorrow was our day
To forge our lives together.

But that night was so long
And so very tragic
That some crazy person
Took you away from me.

I was told to stay strong
And protect my memories
But all I did was fight and cry
Until they killed me.

I stand alone in this darkened bathroom
With hatred of myself and every part of my life
Spinning a sharp razor blade through my fingers
As I run my eyes up and down my arms.

Tears roll down my face as I slap my hand against the mirror
As I toss the razor blade on the bench and grab my head
My world is just spinning with all these thoughts in my head
While I slide down the wall with the razor blade in between my hands.

No tears run down my face while the stinging pain starts
As I dig and slide the razor blade up and down my arm
My blood is flowing freely as I cut more and more lines
Into every part of my arms that I am able to reach.

As I stand and look in the mirror I see the damage I have caused
With blood flowing through and over the razor blades cuts
Now as I look in the mirror at myself I finally know who I am
I’m someone with a problem who needs help before this blade cuts my neck.

Blood dripping from these fresh cuts.
Laying next to me the knife responsible for this heinous act.
Only suicidal thoughts run through my mind.
Oozing blood trickles steadily towards the floor.
Desperation to end my life seen in my eyes.

Devastating pain I feel as I pull the knife down my arm again.
Reminiscing the past as I lay in a pool of blood.
Evil pumping through my veins.
Neglecting the choice to live my life.
Choosing suicide over living a life of pain.
Humouring myself as I laugh at my cuts.
Enduring the sacrifices I am making.
Difficult times of my life ending this very night.

Knives and blades sticking out from my skin.
No remorse I will for taking my life.
Infectious thought running wild with my emotions.
Fighting these demons in life ends now.
Ending my life with suicide as I slit my throat.

From heart to heart I here this angel sing
With a Golden voice that makes the bell ring today
From lips to lips I’ll give you this kiss
That leaves you wanting more.

From eyes to eyes I look at you seeing more than how you look
But how you see me is what is more important
From hands to hands I’ll hold you close
As long as you promise to hold me closer and promise to never let me go.

From heart to heart I stand hear today crying for what I lost
I loved you so much but I lost to a place where only angels rest
And as long as I hear this angel sing to me at night
I’ll know that your looking and watching over me.

Sitting in this jail cell contemplating my choices
I wish I never ever hit the joined the raid and hit the police
I’m glad I dropped the knife from the shop assistants throat
Glad that I saw reason from wanting to steal from the bank.
I sit in this prison though for all my minor actions
I stole a car drunk one night and got caught in a police chase
Was caught stealing from the supermarket because I had no money
And attempting to ****** the shop assistants that I robbed.
But I have never felt so scared within this wire fenced jail
I pray each night that I will live to see the next day as I close into my parole
As inmates get murdered on severely injured with the guards looking away
And being alone in here makes me realise while everyone tries to escape.
Standing outside these prison walls looking in where all my problems were left
I sit and pray for forgiveness and the chance to prove I have changed
Walking around in a business suit going to and from the court house I was in
Is where my job is now as I go to court with all the minors to help them if I can.