I feel alone in this crowd.
I feel complete silence surrounded by infinite sounds.
I appear to you was happy when I am only filled with doubt.
You are too quick to judge, too quick to hold a grudge.
Do you think you know me?
Know who I really am?
Know what I've been through.. know what I've seen.
You see through societies eyes.
Absence from your own view.
When I think about it?
Do you really know the real you?

Feelings unbalanced.
The heavy weight of what I want and what's good for me.
Parts of you drift in my mind.
The sanctions of time, I just wanted you to be mine.
I deserve better and I know that.
But parts of me still feel your impact.
You came rushing towards me creating feelings I cannot describe.   You were my high, I always wanted you by my side.
Please.
Release your grip.
Loving you is toxic.
I feel my lungs collapsing.
Why do you get me like this.
Knots and twists.
Then again there's another.
Feelings pure and alike.
How am I still stuck on your poison when he is granting me eternal life.
You are slowly killing me and he is keeping me alive.
I'm stuck between what I want and what I need.
Help me.
I'm unstable, parts of my heart shattered and loving you was just a fable.
Merely hearing your name and the memories begin to choke me.
Sort of how you would provoke me. I regret everything left unsaid.
All of this uncertainty coursing through my head.
The heavy weight of what I want and whats good for me?
Why won't your presence just let me be..

Thoughts linger in my mind.
The panting.
Quivering of my ***.
I'm fine.
Alone I begin to shift.
Our previous engagement.
I want it all the time.
Sweaty bodies entwined.
I love you body and soul.
Together the feeling of whole.
Lingering thoughts I lose control.
Tracing the lines on my upper thigh. The printed memories you left behind.
Hands grazing down my ***.
Heartbeat racing.
My fingers are next.
Pulling my hair back grasping for air. Yes, right there.

Souls.
Intertwined.
Longing.
A force keeping souls apart.
For what reason?
Bodies are separate, but souls are whole.
When the spark of the soul is ignited, you can try your hardest, but you can't fight it.
An internal spark of friction.
Always some sort of confliction.
Severe asphyxiation.
Hearts beat.
Logic depleting.
Hearts may want what they want, but souls are bound as one.
Some cases an unfortunate love.
The feeling of one.
You know that they are in love, but they can't be.
Abiding, endlessly.
Destined lovers who cannot be.
Love.
The greatest tragedy.

Your stare burns at my flesh.
Biting my lip I try not to blush.
The fact that you are starring only makes me hot.
Turning the sensations within my ***** into a continuous motion.
The thoughts begin to surpress my mind.
**** I think to myself.
Exactly, ****.
All I want in that brief moment.
Push me against the wall while holding my arms up.
Own me.
Pull my hair and **** my chest.
Just **** me.
Are these thoughts some sort of test.
No longer able to remain still my legs begin to quiver.
Biting my lip, I long for your lips down on my lips.
One quick shiver.