a unique energy that could quantify as a telepathic discharge upon death

the moon shining,
three hours into the best part of the day and
i want to tell you that you're so pretty and
the words come out wrong and the rage gets in the way..
dead quiet you looked at me like you were looking into space.
yeah, in space noone could hear you say good bye.
but down here i shouldn't have to read it on your face.
that's not normal.
that's not right.
that's not very nice.
no, it isn't.

the moon shining down on your body.
you look so nice.
and i want to tell you, but you don't want to hear it,
and i know. you don't have to tell me twice.
but, once would be civil. the moon shining.
i got it in my brain, and i had so much to say but there was dead quiet.
you were silent. three hours into the best part of the day.
and that's not normal.
that's not right.
that's not very nice.
no, it isn't.

and that's not normal.
that's not right.
that's not very nice.
no, it isn't.

The last of my kind
There’ll be no more after me
I’m a flightless bird
With useless wings
Dumb and wild and free
Take a good hard look
At what you’ve done to me

On display
In my solitary incarceration
I pace in circles
So the camera will see
Look at my stripes fade
Take a good hard look
At what you’ve done to me

I had no fear of anyone
‘til you got ahold of me
The moon shone through the trees
A spotlight in my final serenade
No brothers left
And there’ll be no more after me

This poem has been a product of the combined efforts of myself and the lovely prrtybrd

You are **** and you know it
Your life is garbage and you show it
You will die soon in the ball pit
I'll leave you unsupervised for a minute
You make drugs look like candy
And you are not even worth it
When you were born I tried to prevent it
With ****** and **** and even weapons
And when you came out I said *******
You make drugs look like candy

I went down to town's center looking for you.
but a mouth full of anger blocked my view.
he took your hand there in the skating rink.
god will give him blood to drink.

saw the two of you leaving.
I didn't want to follow behind.
but I could see the rest of your evening,
burning in my mind.

the sky's black. the moon's pink.
god will give him blood to drink.

I looked over the railing. ice was white
on the northeast side where I saw you and your boyfriend
on a friday night.
I went mining for gold. I struck pure, fresh zinc.
god, god will give him blood to drink.

This is just to say hello
And to let you know
I think of you from time to time

I know I never really knew you
But somehow I miss you
And wish that you'd stayed in my life

Making contact gets harder  
As the silence grows longer
And isn't it only me

Who'd like us to see each other
How I would hate to be a bother
The way we left it was you'd ring

I'm under no illusion  
As to what I meant to you
But you made an impression
And sometimes I still feel the bruise
Sometimes I still feel the bruise

Now and then I stumble
on What I've misplaced but never lost
An ache I first felt long ago

Though you've appeared and disappeared
Throughout these past few years
I'd be surprised if you now showed

Making contact gets harder
As the silence grows longer
And why would you think of me
When you were not the one in love
When you were not the dreamer
When you were just the dream

I'm under no illusion
As to what I meant to you
But you made an impression
And sometimes I still feel the bruise
Sometimes I still feel the bruise

autumn came around like a drifter to an onramp
there were wet leaves floating in gutters full of rain.
took to walking barefoot around town
melodies from grade school, kicking in my brain.
saw you on the crosstown bus today.
you were reading a magazine.
I turned my face away and I shut my eyes tight.
and dreamed about the flowers that hide from the light on dark hillsides
in the hidden places.

the brakes howled and the bus pulled up near my house
and I got off at the corner.
pulled my sleeves down over my hands, over my hands.
and I wished I was someone else.
and I wished it was warmer.
and when I got home, I thought about you.
like a desperate policeman, searching for clues
and I almost passed out, just then
and I shut my eyes again
headed for the dark hillsides
in the hidden places.

he came spitting fire
on a day like no other
tried to hold you near to me
i heard him passing over
he made a banquet for the stray dogs of the air
he put our love in clear perspective

blue, red and green plumage
trailing behind him now
swaddling the sky in its aftermath
the last day coming down
he made a banquet for the stray dogs of the air
he put our love in clear perspective
rising, rising, rising, rising

crushing strawberries one by one
watching the juice drip down
two and a half months ahead of schedule
the leaves on the trees are turning brown
we got ready for winter, as the sun rose up in the sky
there was something almost soothing in the hard to define
note of terror in your eye

watching the strawberries lose their shape
as the wind blew threw the elm tree
the wind was far too cold for the middle of april
and you reached out your hand to me
it was good to feel your hand in mine
it was good to know you felt the pull too
i scooped up a palmfull of strawberry pulp
and smeared it all over you

the wild strawberries drove me on, as i lapped them up off of your skin
and i could feel your basal body temperature rise as the cold came in

the lights are on in your room so tell me, who's your friend?
and the lights are burning in the little house on east end
and I remembered who I was and what I came here for
the moon was caught high in the branches of the sycamore

and on my neck I felt the cold wind
and it licked around my ears and it asked me to ask you, yeah, who's your friend?
and the lights came down over phoenix, blazed again before your front door
the moon was caught high in the branches of the sycamore

i'm tracing pentagrams with chalk on to my floor
i'm lighting candles cookin' curses casting spells to bring a storm
that will cloud up over Phoenix, and make black
the southwest sky i'm pushing pins into the map to mark the points for lightning strikes
may the ashes of the university make their way out to the sea
and may the bones of the invaders mix with the bricks of burned buildings
we will make them in to mortar and we will build this town again
i'm calling on dark forces to take me back to phoenix
we'll dig some holes and plant some seeds and grow trees
back in the park so the bums will have some shade to drink and a place to sleep when it gets dark
nick will get his job back when we re-open the Vonlee
we'll watch movies and eat popcorn but this time we won't have to sneak
we'll make music in our basements we'll play 4-square in the streets
we'll carve hexes in our our highways to ward off the wicked beasts
and this time we'll keep our city safe we'll keep our city sweet
we'll keep our city free one by one and block by block we watched it slip away
the towers of our enemies grew taller everyday until at last i cast away
and tried to find some better place but it's wings are wide and cast it's shadow down on everything
so i'm praying to the lord and every other god i know to give me a flaming sword
and some extra lightning bolts and the power to destroy the ones who took our town away
and the strength we need to build it back into something great
and this time we'll keep our city safe... and sam will come back from california
and she will know just what we need to do and all the cool kids that i've met
in all the places that i've went will hear the booming of the battle
and come too and we'll make this place into the greatest place there's ever been
all we want is a place to live the kind of lives to want to live
so i'm rubbing every lantern that i find and i'm chasing every rainbow that i see
i'm searching the clovers trying to find one with four leaves
anything that could grantone wish tome and portland will not save you
and olympia will fall too and gainesville will surrender someday  
and i know phoenix will never be the same
bloomington will never be the same

We communicate with smoke signals
A code neither of us understand
For you i pine but you dont have the time,
so you go your way and ill go mine
i hope we meet up later on down the line.

so years later we meet and now im a full grown child
and you a spoiled woman
i cant give you the life you deserve or the world you crave
so you go forward and ill go back
i hope we catch up with each other on the track

ten years later you pass me by without even a glance
with some dumb guy on your arm
he doesnt yet know all you do is harm
so you go upward and ill go down
ill see you in hell we when we die

What makes you think you can be so pretty?
And what makes you think you can be so great?
And what makes you think you can be so intelligent?
And what makes you think you can be so far away?

It's no stretch to say that I am pulling out my hair
And darling I'm patiently waiting to fly my *** out there
And I love you

What makes you think you can be so wonderful?
And what makes you think you can be so keen?
And what makes me think I can be so hurtful?
And what makes me think I can be so mean?

Girl you know I'm sorry I haven't been the best support
But darling you know that I love you,
And i would build a fort to protect you
From the wind

What makes you think you can be so terrific?
And what makes you think you can be be so neat?
And what makes you think you can be so beau-ti-fic?
And what makes you think you can be so sweet?

It's no stretch to say that I am pulling out my hair
And darling I'm patiently waiting to fly my *** out there
And I love you

down here where the heat's so fine

i'll drink to your health
and you drink to mine

as we try to make the money we scored out in vegas
hold out for a while

we drink ***** from russia

we get our chocolates from belgium

we have our strawberries flown in from england

but none of the money we spend
seems to do us much good in the end

i got a cracked engine block
both of us do

yeah the house and the jewels, the italian race car
they don't make us feel better
about who we are

i got termites in the framework
but so do you

down here where the watermelon grows so sweet
where i worship the ground underneath of your feet

we are experts in the art of frivolous spending

well it's gone on like this for three years i guess

we're drunk all the time and our lives are a mess

and the deathless love we swore to protect with our bodies
is stumbling across its bleak ending

but none of the rage in our eyes
seems to finish it off where it lies

i got sugar in the fuel lines
both of us do

yeah, the fights and the lies that we both love to tell
fail to send our love to its reward down in hell

i got pudding for a backbone
but so do you

HOW YOU SHOULD KNOW US

DEATH, DEFEAT, AND FEAR

We do not die.
We do not fear death.
Destroy the Body, and the Animus is cast into The Darkness.
But the Animus returns.
But we are not all brave.
We feel pain, and fear it.
We feel shame, and fear it.
We feel loss, and fear it.
We hate the Darkness, and fear it.

The Scamps have small thoughts, and cannot fear greatly.
The Vermai have no thoughts, and cannot fear.
The Dremora have deep thoughts, and must master fear to overcome it.

THE CLAN BOND

We are not born;
we have not fathers nor mothers, yet we have kin and clans.
The clan-form is strong. It shapes body and thought.
In the clan-form is strength an purpose

THE OATH BOND

We serve by choice.
We serve the strong, so that their strength might shield us.
Clans serve by long-practice, but practice may change.
Dremora have long served the dreamer but not always so.
Practice is secure when oath-bonds are secure, and trust is shared.
When oath-bonds are weak, there is pain, and shame, and loss, and Darkness, and great fear.

HOW WE THINK ABOUT MAN

Perhaps you find Scamps comic, and Vermai brutish.
How then do you imagine we view you humans?
You are the Prey, and we are the Huntsmen.
The Scamps are the Hounds, and the Vermai the Beaters.
Your flesh is sweet, and the chase is diverting.
As you may sometimes praise the fox or hare, admiring its cunning and speed, and lamenting as the hounds tear its flesh, so do we sometimes admire our prey, and secretly applaud when it cheats our snares or eludes pursuit.
But, like all worldly things, you will in time wear, and be used up.
You age, grow ugly, weak, and foolish.
You are always lost, late or soon.
Sometimes the prey turns upon us and bites.
It is a small thing.
When wounded or weary, we fly away to restore.
Sometimes a precious thing is lost, but that risk makes the chase all the sweeter.

MAN'S MYSTERY

Man is mortal, and doomed to death and failure and loss.
This lies beyond our comprehension - why do you not despair?

crude little wooden idols and aviator shades
the trinkets and the treasures we brought back from the crusades
some guy in an impala shakes his head when he rides by
but i remember when we shared a vision you and i

worked hard to build this altar, we made it earn its keep
the cracks across its surface spiderweb while we're asleep
the sacrificial stains all spreading out and soaking through
but i remembered when we kept it pretty me and you

and high above the water, the eagle spots the fish
and every martyr in this jungle is gonna get his wish

stock shots, stupid stock shots from the pomona mall
set up like unloved icons gathering dust up on the wall
from films no one remembers, they call down silently
but i remember when their names were dear to you and me

pennies on the dollar, everything's gotta go
the things that we can't even give away, i don't wanna know
try to see if secrets burn when you hold them up into the light
i remember when we loved each other day and night

and high above the water, the eagle spots the fish
every martyr in this jungle is gonna get his wish

the sun came out this morning i was wide awake
and i stumbled on down to the kitchen and i cut myself
a piece of my birthday cake
raspberry filling in the middle
and i thought about you a little

and there was a time when you wanted me so bad
it was eating you up inside
this time has gone away

i pour myself a tall glass of milk
it was deep and cold
and i checked my driver's license i was 23 years old

and there was a time when you wanted me so bad
it was eating you up inside
this time has gone away

you will not call my memory into question.
you will not question my memory.
see there was you and me up on a hilltop by ourselves
and then the red clouds dispersing above me
i should have killed myself
when i found out how beautiful you are.
but everyone makes mistakes sometimes.

as the afternoon sky opened up its mouth
and the air cooled down one or two degrees
i felt the world within me screaming to come out
and then i looked up at you and your hair spilled down over me.

i felt you breathing on me and i heard your voice.
your eyes were twin bonfires and your lips were moist.
i should have killed myself
when i found out how beautiful you are.
but everyone makes mistakes sometimes.

you're a strong one, you're a lion
you're brave, death defyin'
you're in your car, crossing town.
and i can feel you, coming down.

you're so pretty, i could burst
and i wonder, who's gonna talk first
my muscles all shaking, and blood's turned to foam
it's tuesday, and you're coming home.

we live high, our love gorges on the alcohol we feed it
and it grows all fat and friendly, we have surplus if we need it
we hold on as hard as we can, our knuckles are white

we write letters to each other invent secrets to confess to
i learn foreign and exotic terms of endearment by which to address you
we feed fresh fruit to one another we stay up all night
and i am healthy, i am whole, but i have poor impulse control
and i want to go home, but i am home

we are strong, we are faithful, we are guardians of a rare thing
we pay close, careful attention to the news the morning air brings
we show great loyalty to the hard times we've been through
we are filled with riches and wonders, our love keeps the things it finds
and we dance like drunken sailors, lost at sea out of our minds

you find shelter somewhere in me, and i find great comfort in you
and i keep you safe from harm, you hold me in your arms
and i want to go home, but i am home

I went down the the gas station
for no particular reason,
heard the screams from the high school
it's football season.
empty lot the station faces,
will probably be there forever.
I climbed over the four foot fence,
I was trying to sever the tether.
moon in the sky, cold as a stone
spend each night in your arms,
Always wake up alone.

I lay down in the weeds, it was a real cold night.
I was happy until the overnight attendant switched on the floodlight.
walking home I was talking to you under my breath,
saying things I would never say directly.
I heard a siren on the road highway ahead.
kinda wish they'd come and get me
frost on the sidewalk, white as a bone
tried to get close to you again,
always wake up alone.

and as i was crossing our doorstep,
i hesitated just a moment there.
remembered the day we moved into our small house
'til the vision got too vivid to bear.

you were almost asleep, halfway undressed
i lay right down next to you
held your head against my chest.
and a guy with any kind of courage
would maybe stop to think the matter through
maybe hold you still and raise the question,
instead of blindly holding on to you.
but we crank up the heat
and you giggle and moan,
spend all night in the company of ghosts,
always wake up alone

you came down from heaven to the branch outside my window.
your skin was the color of snow.
The dice were loaded against us ever seeing each other.
one of us had nowhere else to go.
in your eyes were all the colors that the rainbow forgot.
your hair was a foot long or better.
with your voice practicing notes from times own beginning.
you took apart the alphabet letter by letter.
and here where it all stops for good.
where the cool waters run.
I thought i saw someone holding your heart but it was only a skeleton.

in the front seat at around four in the morning,
something came down without much warning.
it was bright and shiny and real nice
and it prepared us both for the sacrifice.
i know what it is and i know what it means,
and it's got wings.
i know what it is and i know what it means,
and it's got wings.

in the front seat, you know what i mean.
love came down
bright and hot and pure and clean and ready,
ready for the ****.
and i'll get ready.
but hold my hand.
would you please hold me steady?
i know what it is and i know what it means,
and it's got wings.
i know what it is and i know what it means,
and it's got wings.

i'm never gonna turn off the television.
i'm just gonna let it run all night.
i'm gonna plant root vegetables out in the backyard
and come summer i am going to treat you right.

so put on your chairman mao coat
and let me clear my throat.
let's turn this whole town upside-down
and shake it 'til the coins come falling out of its pockets,
yeah put on your che guevara pin
call the troops on in
we're gonna sail through the night sky like a pair of bottle rockets.

i got a great big secret written down somewhere.
i got a rosary to protect us both from harm.
i got a storage locker full of cow figurines
and a laundry list of grievances longer than my arm.
and i am never going back to cincinatti.
all those bridges have burned down to the ground.
i got the jet pack strapped to my back
and i am waiting for you to come around.

yeah, put on your chairman mao coat
and let me clear my throat.
let's turn this whole place upside-down
and shake it 'til the coins come dropping out of its pockets.
yeah put on your che guevara pin
call the troops on in.
we're gonna sink through the night sky like a pair of bottle rockets.

i thought that i was in control.
when i saw her coming, i reached out my hand.
you would think so too
but there is something here that you do not understand.
she's got skin like you would not believe.
i saw her skin and i went out of my mind.
she's got skin more perfect that the sky,
and i reached out my hand and left the world behind.

no one knew what i was talking about,
i used to say that what i saw through my window
was brilliant sap and strong white camelias.
now i see her coming, and i just don't think so.
she's got skin like you would not believe.
i saw her skin and i went out of my mind.
i reached out my hand and i walked out into the rain.
i was right behind the clouds.
i could just see her coming.

There's power in the name
But the name's been lost for centuries
There's poison in the water
But the water tastes like honey
And we're so thirsty we don't care where we wake up tomorrow
We don't care, the question can hardly hold our attention
And this is a song for your young men to sing when they run out of options
Yeah, when they run out of options

There's the faith you can give or withhold
And then there's the one true faith
There's the revolution you came for
And the one you're eventually going to get.
And there's a road that starts right here and leads clear up to Saskatchewan
And I brought a full tank and a '67 Mustang
And this is a song for your young women to whistle
While they're driving at high speeds down the highway

The wind up in the trees
The song on the wind
There's a message in the song
But the message is hopelessly complicated
And the words are written on water
And disappear before you can write them down
But I, I brought the Polaroid

And this the song
And everybody's gotta sing along
But it hasn't got a chorus
******* it all

Test a rope against the ceiling beams
I just want to live on in your dreams
Crush a vial into a *** of tea
I just want you to remember me

But I pour out the *** and
I work out the knot
Cause I know that it won’t make you stay
And I’ll be ****** if I can’t come up with some other way
Some other way, Some other way
Some other way to make you love me

Seal the doors and turn the pilot on
I just know you’ll miss me when I’m gone
Drive a fist into a window pane
There are things a letter won’t explain

But I pick out the glass and I shut off the gas
And I look to the oncoming day
And I’ll be ****** if I can’t come up with some other way
Some other way Some other way to make you love me

To make you love me...

Cornerstone one has a finger
Buried under, pointing through
Dirt, slow low in the ground
North cannot be guessed,
And yet it is spirit-free

Cornerstone two has a tongue,
And even dust can be talkative,
Listen and you will see the love
The ancient libraries need

Cornerstone three has a bit of string,
Shaped like your favorite color,
A girl remembers who left it there
But she is afraid to dig it out,
And see what it is attached to

Cornerstone four has nine bones,
Removed carefully from a black cat,
Arranged in the fashion of this word,
Protecting us from our enemies

Your house is safe now
So why is it--
Your house is safe now
So why is it--

come down in the flatland
show me your shoulder
wait now where the black hand touches us
we'll both grow older

and the sky above us
and the ground beneath us
and the air around us
and the ocean to the right

measure your arm length
i can't live without it
i treasure those thirty inches
i want to talk about it.

and the sky above us
and the ground beneath us
and the air around us
and the ocean to the right

love you in the cold air
your long hair makes me shiver
above you i see the sun
light up every sliver

and the sky above us
and the ground beneath us
and the air around us
and the ocean to the right

and the sky above us
and the ground beneath us
and the air around us
and the ocean to the right

I could go off the deep end,
I can **** all my best friends.
I can follow those stylish trends.
God knows I can make amends.
But I've got an angry heart
filled with cancer and poppy tarts.

If this is how you folks make art,
its ******* depressing.

And it's sad to know
that we are not alone and it's
sad to know there's no honest way out.

I'm afraid to leave the house,
I'm as timid as a mouse.
I'm afraid if I go on I'll out wear my welcome.
I'm not a courageous man.
I dont have any big, lasting plans.
Too cowardly to take a stand, I want to keep my nose clean.

And it's sad to know
that we are not alone in this,
and it's said to know there's no honest way out.

In this life we lead,
we can conquer every thing,
if we could just feel brave to get out of bed in the morning.

we had our passports out and the kits to fix 'em up with.
and the hurricane lamp cast our shadows on the ceiling.
i watched 'em box with one another like punch and judy.
it was dangerous and delightful.
it was that kind of feeling
when you said you were sure there was nothing standing in our way.
and the lie ran off and hid itself in the alleys all around  the bay.

i saw you knock the lamp over while reaching for the scissors
and i wondered how we'd ever get by without it.
and you fell into my arms, sweet and gentle.
poison in the water.
little doubt about it.
and you said that one of us would be all alone someday.
and the truth of it echoed inexhaustably all across the bay

I always held on to your eyes as I believe
That somehow you'd always be next to me
This empty room reaches out to take away the best of me
There is no silence to describe what I feel inside

Walk with me, Talk with me
Imagine there is nothing that can harm you in the world
Stay with me and Look at me Just wait before you go
This life has done you wrong, Hold on

You're faithless, you don't believe in anything
Captured by life's sadness, You're all right

You're faithless, your head down in despair
Stuck there in the blackness, you're all right

Sort of love that out lasts time
My relative annihilistic thinking left behind
I'll cover you and keep you and your beautiful smile
Vanish from the physical into my mind

Walk with me, Talk with me
Imagine there is nothing that can harm you in the world
Stay with me and Look at me Just wait before you go
This life has done you wrong, Hold on

You're faithless, you don't believe in anything
Captured by life's sadness, You're all right

You're faithless, your head down in despair
Stuck there in the blackness, you're all right

You've got the best of me
You've got the best of me

For my wife to whom I comitt my soul

Oh Lord Of Slumber

You've walked the corridors of dream, have you not? When you go back there again, would you tell them I miss the old dreams, the ones I had when I was younger... the ones that made me what I was?

You and me
Go together like carrots and peas
We should be a happy family
Or a traveling travesty, at least

And love
Will **** us up
Love will **** us up

Breath in deep
Breath as deeply as you can breath
Breath deep til you're drunk with glee
Breath deep til you're drunk with glee

And love
Will **** us up
Love will **** us up

To you whom We have seen
Stalking at night by eyes keen
Transcendant of savages
Sating thirst sans avarice
Your coffers stay stuffed
By social graces robust
None know your nature;
save Us
None share your fate;
save Us
None welcome you as kin;
save Us.

meanwhile downstairs
i'm setting up shop
a little too proud
to let the matter drop

i can see you up there,
isn't it romantic?
you're huffing and puffing
their chairs on the titanic
and i reach for a glass
of cool water drawn from the rivers of babylon.

meanwhile outside,
the stars have come out.
and the humid summer air
tugs at the ring in my snout.
and you come to the window,
and i spread wide my arms.
jump if you want to jump.
jump if you want to.
the water's warm.
me, i know.
i know 'cause i've been swimming.
blindly along through the rivers of babylon.

The devil told my grampa The day that he would die
And my grampa told my grandma And she thought it was a lie
Then the day came and my Grampa he lay dead Just like the devil said
A train cut off his arms and legs
And it's a story that my mother told to me
Some people say that it's too hard to believe, but
You gotta believe that my mother never lies
She's never in her life and my grampa he did die, yeah

My father he's hard-workin' man
The devil's never had a hand In anything he did
He's the hardest workin' man I've ever seen
But I guess his hardest work, It never worked on me, 'cause
He thinks I'm lazy and he
Thinks that I'm a shame because I haven't got a job any Money or a name and:
He's worried about me and what I'm gonna do
How I'm gonna live I hope the devil's worried too, yeah

My lover she's what keeps me alive
She's the only thing I like in this World that I despise
She sings and her voice is soft and sweet
She whistles in the shower and Somehow she loves me
My grandson asked me once, he said "Grampa are you crazy?" and I said "Just a touch" and
I Got out my guitar, I showed him how to play and
I Taught him how to sing the song a little out of key, yeah

And the devil sang with me, and the devil sang with me
On my shoulder like a friend that never leaves
And the devil sang with me, and the devil sang with me
On my shoulder like a friend that never leaves

your skirt was red and flowing,
your blouse was blue
on the night i locked eyes with you.
it seemed to me like i hadn't seen your eyes since last december.

my shredding muscles
my popping joints
i saw the pupils of your eyes by firelight shrinking down to pinpoints
you were poking at the embers
there's a cold wind coming off the ocean.
there's a cold wind coming off the ocean.

i wet my finger with my tongue and pressed it in the ashes,
rubbed it up against your perfect eyelashes.
you said something really important,
something pretty seems to have slipped my mind.
walls were freezing, so was the floor.
i didn't want to hurt you anymore.
you had a sad, sad, friend in front of you,
that dying fire behind.
there was a cold wind coming off the ocean.
there was a cold wind coming off the ocean.

the eye of the needle lies in the teeth of the wind
the mouth of the cave lies in the skin of the pearl
the dream is the door and the star is the key.

ALL CRIES ARE WAKING!
Whitest White of all White!
Blackest Blacks of all Blacks!
Shame and Son, Sun, and Shadow!

Stronger than gods, brighter than mortals!
Only He is Awake! Only He is Alive!

He Knows the Names and the Naming!
He Knows the Wait and the Waiting!
He Enters into every Star and Moon!
He Shines through their Shadows!

One Shape, One Spelling!
One Wraith, One Casting!
From Darkness, He is Armed!
From Light, He is Warded!

He is All Things! Drake! Liche! Theomen!
On rivers of fire he comes forth!
Through storms of dreams he rides!
With slivers of steel he pierces the Heart!

All Spells, Powers, Curses Broken!
The Chains are Shattered!
The Scales Fall Away!

I see you with MY EYE!
And all is SILENCE!
I Wake!
I Remember!
LORD!

THE DREAMER IS AWAKE!

a bad dream shook me in my sleep and I woke up sweating.
ran through the dark to the shower,
already forgetting.
tried to think good thoughts.
trying to find my way clear.
let the room fill with steam,
traced pictures on the mirror.

ghosts and clouds and nameless things.
squint your eyes and hope real hard,
maybe sprout wings.

I clawed my way to the living room window,
stood there in the cold.
the last bits of my dream like figures in the distance,
hard to hold.
I thought of old friends,
the ones who'd gone missing.
said all their names three times.
phantoms in the early dark,
canaries in the mines.

ghosts and clouds and nameless things.
squint your eyes and hope real hard,
maybe sprout wings.

Don't know if I believe in god
But sometimes I pray
Because the way I was raised
Keeps me afraid

A scientist that has to have his way
I subsist of a steady diet of shame

I hope I can forgive me
For having the nerve to exist
I hope someone can help me
Make some sense of this

I work a ten hour grave
From nine to seven
And I can't fall asleep
Until eleven past eleven

There's no drug that I can take
That will keep me from being awake
Past my, past my bedtime

Truckers are the blood in the veins of the body of America
States are the arms and the legs and the brains and the eyes
There's a disease spreading from ***** to *****
And you are the white blood cell that fixes the problem

You don't know your own power
You don't know what you're worth
You don't recognize your valor
And until you do, nothing you do will matter

the building shook with the sound of wild kittens,
and i grabbed my scarf and i pulled on my mittens,
took my coat and i went down
to the useless lot on the outskirts of town.
the dogs were howling.
the wind was blowing.
the birds were singing.
and i saw you.

your eyes as bright as burning coals,
but ask not for whom the bell tolls.
'cause it tolls for those who ask that question.
and it tolls for those who answer that question.
dogs were howling.
the birds were singing.
the wind was blowing.
and i saw you.

No one will know how evil I really am
No one will know how evil I really am

Cause I like to wear disguises
And I like to disguise my plans
No one will know how evil I really am

And no one will know truly how I feel
And no one will know how I truly feel

Cause I can no longer differentiate
Between what is fake and what is real
I don't know how I feel

I was born in a hospital
My first two days were spent in the care of nuns
But my mother found it in her
To go ahead and take me back
And I love her

And I will always appreciate bad days like this
Because they grant me a point of reference
in regards to my happiness

And although I feel cold and empty
one day I hope I can feel warm and full
Stand with honor, and comfort, and dignity

I'm on an island and that island is sinking.
That island likes to stay up all night drinking.
How could I escape it?
Do you think that I will make it out alive?

The other island is one that I'm well acquainted.
For three whole years I've been back and forth 'till I nearly fainted.
I loved that island dearly,
But I've hunted all the animals into extinction.

And I was born to sail away.
And I was born to live my life.
I think I should learn to swim or build a boat to love myself again,
To learn to be self-sufficient.

I wanna tear apart my heart
Glue the pieces to my car
Crash it into a wall
I don't wanna feel at all
I wanna break apart my heart

Douse it in gasoline
'till the fire burns clean
Then flick a cigarette
Like that movie con-air
Doused in gasoline

And if you think you are better than me your right
There's no one to love, no one to trust
In my life

I wanna pick up the pieces
And plant them in the ground
And when a tree grows there
I want to chop that tree down

Build it into a boat
And float it into a lake
And with dynamite
I will explode the thing
That makes me make mistakes

Sometimes I get so lonesome I can't breathe
Sometimes I get so scared I can't speak
Sometimes I get so worried I can't hear my heart beat...anyway
Anyway

I wanna tear out my heart
And give it away
Too a person more deserving one day
If all I see is the worst in everything
Thats all I'm gonna get, it's all I'm gonna get

Hey, where's my pills?
They were right here on the window sill.
Should have known something was wrong
When last week you took my favorite ****.
Now it's gone.

You're messing with my drug life.
You're messing with my drug life.

Dimebags flash up the union square.
People walk in serotonin pairs.
I remember it was only play
Devil's ******* in the proteges.
Just shuffle off through the golden mist.
Take a number 'cause you're on my list
And later on, second avenue
If it comes down to the drugs or you
Baby, Its you...

I wish I was a bumble bee
I wish I lived to love my queen
Flying from flower to flower all day
I'd dance if I had somethingto say
Everybody working to feed our babies,
Such a simple and honest community
Not making money, just making honey
I wish I could make something that sweet

I wish I was a mountain goat
I wish I didn't know all the things I know
I'd eat alpine flowers for lunch each day
I'd take naps in the sun in some secret place
Living high on peaks all covered in snow
In the valleys that no one else could go
What some people call danger I'd call my home
And I'd never have to hear another telephone

I wish I could be them both
Anything's bettert han being a ghost
I wish I was a live
I wish nobody ever had to die
I wish I was a alive
I wish nobody ever had to die...die...die...die

I will rise up early
and dress myself up nice
and I will leave the house
and check the deadlock twice.
and I will find a crowd
and blend in for a minute
and I will try to find
a little comfort in it.
and I will get lonely
and gasp for air.
and send your name up from my lips
like a signal flare.

and I will go downtown,
stand in the shadows of the buildings
and button up my coat,
trying to stay strong,
spirit willing.
and I will come back home,
maybe call some friends,
maybe paint some pictures,
it all depends.
and I will get lonely
and gasp for air.
and look up at the high windows,
and see your face up there

I wish I had more money than I have
and I know that's not punk,
but I need to pay my rent.
I can't survive without money.
I can't survive without money.

And I want to eat red, red meat.
I want to feel it digesting inside of my tummy
and I support animal testing.
I'd **** a kitten to save a human being.

The whole human race are big, big *****.
We **** holes in the world
and **** everybody else
We **** because we are lonely.
We **** because we are lonely.

We ought to give it one more shot
we have to save the world
and bathe ourselves with love
because love is all we need
except that love isn't really all we need.

We need compassion
and we need empathy
and we need love
and we need money
or another way to fulfill the basic needs
we all have

Black mollies in the aquarium
Darting back and forth as though an earthquake were certain
And I turned up the heater
And I ripped off my shirt

And I grabbed hold of my stereo
And I threw it out the window
You were in town again
You'd come around again
You were dragging me down again with you

Siamese fish flashing like sparklers
It started to rain
And the telephone rang a couple of times
I put a bullet through its cold dead brain

and I got out my photographs of you
and I put bullets though all of them too
You were in town again
You'd come around again
You were dragging me down again with you