10/20/08

11:42 pm



i've created a cancer
and fought it with chance,
her eyes are much bigger
than the hole in my pants,
and her teeth are much sharper
than i'd like to admit,
but she'll never know,
cause i won't flinch a bit.
her touch is too hot
and her taste is too sweet,
but i'll stay in the kitchen,
cause i like the heat.

9/28/07

2:45 AM



colors and textures
the rhythm combines.
sifting through spices
that drift in my mind.
what is it to feel?
what is it to taste?
the things i need most
are the stings i escape.
chemical compounds
that seep in the stream
coming together
to be what we mean.
combing through relics
of glories long gone
forging the iron
we settle upon.
next to your trophies
of crystal and glass
i'll steep on my shelf
and stare as you pass.
fueling on embers
as deep as your dark,
the shadow's upon us
like flame from a spark.

7/28/08

6:28 PM


my bad luck is broken
with words barely spoken
admittance
and penance
evicting the tenants
who left shattered bottles all over the floor

i knock with a sigh
to give it a try
and listen for the dull note
of an unlocking deadbolt
hoping to god that you'll open the door

silver metal and skin
my favorite flavor of sin
is now on the menu
knowing that when you
invite me in i will stay for a while

with a shrug of my shoulders
you took off the boulders
that were holding me down
so I'll keep you around
and with every new address you reveal a smile

7/21/08

10:47 PM


not sure what to call this
this new lack of air
but when i close my eyes
i can put myself there
back
in your room
lights blinding bright
and with everything so wrong
you're my one thing that's right
so tonight i will snack
on our flirty chatter
and pretend i'm not impressed
when you talk so
matter-
of-factly
to me
about just how you feel
towards every dumb *****
who can't let you heal
old wounds run deep
but they turn into scars
and the further i seep
i feel like we are
just are
for a while
i just want some fun
can't we just get a break?
can't we just make a run
for it
out of town?
out of ***
hit the ground
what i've got
a glance and a hit
a smile and a stitch
in my side
so i'll hide
in your arms for a bit
all i want is what's real
so lets throw out the old
make a new ordeal
and not do what we're told.

7/17/08

5:00 AM



hindsight is 20/20
especially yours
living to fight
fighting to live
**** my brother and call me a *****

but something is still lurking
barely beneath
breathe in the fights
while fighting to breathe
watching is hurting
feeling you smirking
wondering whose scent is now on your sheets

somehow i'm still here
forever i might wait
realizing the lies
in the depths of your eyes
finding the pieces
amongst the diseases
trading in peace
for the most of each drug

unattracting myself
to your perfect bait

unlearning love
and executing hate.

2/27/08

1:09 PM




morning brings familiar things
distance and silence
stubbron compliance
tripping on boundaries
and slipping off rings

mulling it over
chewing like cud
eating away
acidic mud

i walk the line
like crime scene tape
wondering
how much
is too much to take

tangeble tension
in every room
gasping for air
in this musky tomb

treading water like horses
far beneathe the sea
begging and pleading
to make it stop bleeding
i'm finally seeing
the selfishness that is me.

12/24/07

1:31 am


She sleeps like a female
orgasming
arms up over her head
fists gripping invisible string.

She snores like a feline
a pleasant purr
redundantly peaceful in rythm.

Stirring
she moves slowly
looking disgruntled
by a jostle from my side of the bed.

Open palms like jesus
relaxed and willing
to save my soul.

Beneathe the covers
her legs are a valley
a proud flock of geese in winter
and i am always their leader.

The cotton sheets
covering her steady soles
present two perfect triangles
like the smooth wooden building blocks of yesteryear
or mommy-tailored sandwich halfs.

Stirring again
she props her arms under her calm face
soft and sweet
pulsing and pure.

Her hair, the darkest moss
spry and lively
tangled in ribbons
like christmas bows
just waiting to be unwrapped...