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83 · Oct 2020
Sometimes...
Cydney Something Oct 2020
...what you thought was a frisbee turns out to be a boomerang.
83 · Nov 2020
Make No Mistake,
Cydney Something Nov 2020
The ravenous,
Beastly harlot
With the many arms
And many horns
And the tongue of
Honey and silver
Is not at all
Tamed.

She is simply
s l u m b e r i n g

All you need do
To wake her
Is lean close
To my ear
And whisper,

"Now."

~
83 · May 2019
I hunger
Cydney Something May 2019
For days past
For touch
For your fingers
And lips
And all the things
Out of my reach
For steak
And potatoes
And strong drink
For God's sake
For tomorrow
For us to exist together
And cease
The games
For life
For death
For salt
And sugar
And blood
And sweat
And tears

For you <3
82 · Oct 2020
"And one more thing...
Cydney Something Oct 2020
She's been a joy the entire journey."
82 · Nov 2020
Salt in my coffee
Cydney Something Nov 2020
Well, **** me.

I guess it would've been
More acceptable
For her to leave you
Over pizza

Whatever.

Fine.
Oop, woke up angry again!
82 · Oct 2018
Glitter and Dandruff
Cydney Something Oct 2018
Roll
Stretch
Yawn
****
Ugh
Bloodshot
Eyes
In
The
Mirror
Empty
Can­s
In
The
Sink
Glitter
And
Dandruff
Cover
My
Pillow
82 · Dec 2018
Sobriety: Day 1
Cydney Something Dec 2018
My roommate's dog is howling out back
Someone stole my garage door opener
So now I'm gonna get robbed
AGAIN
**** this city
**** sobriety
**** life
**** all of it
Because I'm alone
Always
Always
Always
Alone
I deactivated all of my accounts
And slipped quietly away from it all
And crawled into my first day of
Hell
The world
And everything in it
Can kiss my ***
Because I'm in a decided state
Of HATRED
And it hasn't even been
24 hours

****.
81 · May 2019
U-S-of-A
Cydney Something May 2019
The highways are cracked
And driven by madmen
Driven mad by
The cracks in the highway

The fragmented American Dream
American Idol
American Scream
Bavarian Cream

Men cutting their hair
In strange styles
To attract women
With large hips and *******

Women fighting their raising
Deciding how often
To spread their legs
For the men

God has no power
Over the U-S-of-A
We **** and ****
To our hearts content

And there is no God
To stop the horror
Of a hot-blooded
American Boy

We dream of superheroes
And willing, wet *****
And a God to save us
From destroying everything

For we are wild
And free
Driven mad
By the cracks in the highway
Cydney Something Oct 2020
You know I was strong
And didn't cry til later
On the drive back "home"
80 · Nov 2020
So...
Cydney Something Nov 2020
Is this it, then?

A salad with tiny bacon bits?

I wanted the bacon cheeseburger!
Meat and cheese=happiness
Veggies=sadness
79 · Sep 2019
In Case of Fire:
Cydney Something Sep 2019
Break Glass

In Case of Water:

Take Glass

In Case of Earth:

Break Down

In Case of Air:

Start Fire
79 · Apr 2020
Home
Cydney Something Apr 2020
Nowhere feels like home
When your heart won't settle
Won't beat
Won't swell or even thaw
So
I
Guess
I'm
Homeless
Cydney Something Sep 2020
The way you guide
The frenzied wanderings
Of my heart

Will surely make me
The next great
American poet
78 · Nov 2018
Oh, God...
Cydney Something Nov 2018
But...hear me out...what if I actually do die alone?
Because I wasn't born alone
Cydney Something Oct 2020
You were the song
On repeat
But I didn't mind

All along
Your goodbye
Was a sad crescendo

My dissonance
Rang clear in the night
To interrupt your aria

Maybe it won't
be so bad
if he hates me

But you thanked me,

And

The night
Wil end
As all
Nights do

I'll always be
In love
With you
<3
78 · Jan 24
#259
I thought
I'd be done
With the sad ****
By now
77 · Mar 2019
I want
Cydney Something Mar 2019
There are rooms full people
Talking small with large, gaping mouths
I want to stab them, one by one
Until they notice and scream
I suppose it will take hours
For the fear of death in their bodies
To outweigh the fear
Of life in their minds
I want them to scream in panic
Scream for survival so that they might live
And tomorrow, when they meet again
I want them to speak of the frivolity of war
Of the importance of animalistic copulation
Of the stench of the blood and **** on the floor
I want them to refrain from cleaning the floor
So that they remember the hecatomb
And speak of the martyrs
Who reminded them of their ability to speak
Of more than just the ******* weather
77 · Nov 2020
Half the Day
Cydney Something Nov 2020
During my endless
Crashing
Maddening dances
With pain
And exuberance
Will be
A light show
That lasts
Half the day
Cydney Something Nov 2020
It's just Lana Del Rey's
"The Other Woman"
On repeat,
Then Bonnie Riatt's
"I can't make you love me"
While the pills dissolve
76 · Mar 2020
Wrecker
Cydney Something Mar 2020
Your home,
My insides,
Both of our lives...

Give me the chance
I'll wreck
Everything.
76 · Sep 2020
YA Novel Bullshit
Cydney Something Sep 2020
This.

This is the stuff
They write about
In books where
The protagonist is 17

And finds love.

But not just love
True love
Life-altering love
Undeniable love
Unconditional love

That innocent affection
Giving way
To bouts of
Passion
and
Trust

A depth and breadth of love
Which did not seem
Possible
Until there was
You
75 · Sep 2020
The Nympho in the Rapids
Cydney Something Sep 2020
How did
A gal like me
Get to deserve
Having
A guy like you
Dangled in front of her?

What did I do
To justify
Your sweet,
sweet
Tortures?

That karmic force
Which propels me
From tragedy
To tragedy
Sent me
helplessly
To you

And I find myself
yet again
In a state of breathless
Wonder~
A moth
Reaching for
The deadly kiss
Of your deepest fire

Drunken on
Your words
And every
Drop of
Tenderness that
Poured from them

This is the state
Of my ravenous soul

To Hell, I'd gladly descend <3
75 · Nov 2019
This
Cydney Something Nov 2019
I know
I'm
Being
A *******
Child
,
But
Knowing this
Doesn't
*******
Help
Me
!

I'm just a weak person!
74 · Oct 2020
I miss you a lot
Cydney Something Oct 2020
As much as I try
To pretend that I'm fine,
I know that I'm
Not.

I wrote you a letter
That I might just
Burn

When
Will
I
Learn?

I could be
Anywhere,
But I wannabe
With you

What say you?
74 · Apr 2020
The Bottle Will Be There
Cydney Something Apr 2020
When the job
And the money
And the boy
Aren't
74 · Nov 2019
Over Again
Cydney Something Nov 2019
Nope.

I can't
Find the
Words

They won't leave their
Amorphous shapes
As I try to
Catch 'em
74 · Oct 2020
"Death" in D Minor
Cydney Something Oct 2020
And the flies tickle my skin
As the last glimmer of hope
Drops from a stationary eyelid

She is dead.
She is dead?
She is dead!

No one to save her
Not now
When it matters
She is dead...

Take them with you,
The parts of her
That you loved
74 · Sep 2019
Holy Toledo
Cydney Something Sep 2019
Everything swirling around me in ribbons of colored light, making rainbows in the air

I'm dizzy

I'm really actually pretty stupid when I think about it, but they tell me I'm so smart

Don't trust anyone

We can't trust the thoughts or feelings we hold because they are made of air and wishes

It feels good

To give myself to the feeling of longing and perceived need and lust

But
I
Get
Hurt
A
Lot
74 · May 2020
Drunk. AGAIN!
Cydney Something May 2020
Who knows
If
I'll be able to
Work
Tomorrow

All I know is

The world constantly disappoints me
And liquor
Only
Seldom
Does
73 · Dec 2019
How are you?
Cydney Something Dec 2019
******.

I feel ******.

So ******.

But I'm too drained to change my mind.
73 · Mar 2020
The Coward
Cydney Something Mar 2020
If
I'd
Had
The
Guts
When
I
Was
Thirteen,

I
Would
Have
Been
Relieved
Of­
Fifteen
Years
Of
*******
#suicide
73 · Feb 2020
Loneliness is a Lady
Cydney Something Feb 2020
She smiles sweetly
Her nametag reads
SOLITUDE
And she follows you
Through crowds
Whispering in your ear
Quietly
Yet drowning it all out
"I am with you"
She smells so sweet
As she gently places fingers
Around your shoulders
And you stiffen
"Relaaaax"
You relaaaax
Where did everyone go?
Her fingers tighten, tighten,
Massaging away the crowd
"I am with you"
She turns your shoulders
You walk towards a blackness
Blindingly bright blackness
That burns the eyes
"Here"
She is hissing
Fingers around your shoulders
Digging in and biting down
Fingernails slowly sinking
In and down and in and down
"I am everything"
The blackness deepens
The blackness thickens
The blackness burns
"You are nothing"
Something presses to your back
A ****
A hard, sharp, thin ****
Pressing to your spine
Harder, harder
Growing against and into you
Slowly piercing, ever growing
You cry out
"I will ******* to DEATH!"
Her **** gores your spine
Searing and scrambling
Your guts and lungs
"YOU ARE NOTHING"
The bloodied, pointed head
Emerges from a burning hole
Up through your chest
Pointed to the blacked-out sun
This is the end
The end
THE END
72 · Apr 2020
Susan S. Ide
Cydney Something Apr 2020
They call her Sue
For short
The life
She cuts
71 · Oct 2020
Goodbye Again
Cydney Something Oct 2020
Another chapter
Of my Hell
Closes

Progress Report
Reads:
Needs Improvement

Oh well,
I'll try harder
Next time.
71 · Feb 2020
Why Bukowski Lived
Cydney Something Feb 2020
Despite his incessant
******* and moaning,

he wanted to.
because this life is pain and pain and beautiful pain and you *** and you go and you stay the night in the bed of some beautiful creature that couldn't possibly be the same ***** ragged species as you and you think OH MY GOD I DON'T BELONG IN THIS PLACE and you try to convince yourself that it would be easier to leave because everything is wretched and everyone is wretched and most of all you are wretched but you stay because the mother isn't finished scolding you yet and because death is still afraid of you and there are still deep and aching pains to feel and because of those deep and aching pains there are bright and powerful joys to feel but they will not stay and so we will throw tantrums until our lives are **** and we try to leave again but the mother isn't finished scolding us yet and death is still afraid of us
69 · Oct 2020
A Poem About Flowers
Cydney Something Oct 2020
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Writing these stupid things keeps me alive,
And, ya know what? Kinda,
So do you
<3
69 · Oct 2020
Among the Lavender
Cydney Something Oct 2020
He's talking
But not to me
And I'm thinking about
You
69 · Nov 2018
Season of the Ghost
Cydney Something Nov 2018
Seasonal affective disorder
Is all the ******* rage:

Seclude yourself!
Ignore your friends!
Blow off your obligations!
Justify your behavior!
You're SAD!
YOU DON'T NEED TO FIX IT!
It's the way to freedom!
Never deal with people again!
Never deal with issues again!
Just curl up in bed!
You deserve to be SAD!
DON'T go outside!
DON'T communicate!
DON'T apologize!
Just!
Be!
SAD!
Sick of everyone's *******. Fight me.
Cydney Something Mar 2020
And the scars tell their stories-
The punk who ashed his blunt
On my back, or
The guy who bit my right *****
So hard it made a hole

So many pounds gained and
Lost and gained
And lost
And nights spent drinking instead
Of sleeping
Smoking and turning my
Insides to Hell

Exacerbated by the bad
Lovers
Are the aches and pains of
My body

Red eyes, dry and
Out of tears
Dark shadows of a
Disease
That he gave me
The best of
The bad lovers

And finally-
A somewhat-desensitized
****
From the worst lover of all

Me.
68 · Oct 2018
Seriously, FUCK THIS GUY
Cydney Something Oct 2018
**** him.

**** his voice.

**** his touch.

**** his hair.

**** his scent.

**** his name.

**** his gaze.

**** his stare.

**** his arrogance.

**** his sweetness.

**** his charm.

**** his pheromones.

**** his bare chest.

**** his loyalty.

**** his lack-there-of.

**** his secrecy.

**** his mystery.

**** his heresy.

**** his history.

**** his Fox.

**** his Fix.

**** his memories.

**** him.

**** him.

(But GOD, how I wish I could)

**** him.
68 · Jan 2020
Even
Cydney Something Jan 2020
I've stood in this
Field for hours
But all of the flowers
Have an even
Number of petals.
He loves me not.
67 · Jan 2020
Lover
Cydney Something Jan 2020
Listen as she weeps
Deserved tears of the harlot
She sobs as though a child

The AUDACITY
Of pretending to be worth something
She is guilty
Of impersonating a lovable being

Reserve your pity
She deserves it not
For the things she has done with her hips
Could destroy the world

Not a holy book exists
Which does not warn of her:

...and with great pride and haughtiness did she walk, and tho the ground scorched, she wore no shoes. To the master of the house she said 'Take me to thine bed chamber, that I might rest from my travels.'
The master raised his whip to the woman.
'Get thee out, harlot!'
His guards seized her and threw her to the street beyond the city wall.


Spare her not a glance
Acknowledge not her tears
Rejoice in her glorious failures
'Til the day of freedom from her stench

And so, children!
Beware the harlot!
Follow not her path!
And ye shall be saved!
67 · Oct 2018
Well, I mean, Yeah
Cydney Something Oct 2018
I love you
You know this
It's stupid
You're stupid

Buuuuut

It's hopeless
We're drowning
The boys are out
Now, run away

Stay

Leave, I guess
Grieve, I guess
I don't care
You don't care

We care

We care too much
And we drown
And we fail
But hey-

You know all of this
67 · Oct 2020
Buzzing
Cydney Something Oct 2020
If you
Are the reward
For misbehavior,

I will scorch the earth.
65 · Apr 2020
Some of these days
Cydney Something Apr 2020
Mama said there'd be
Days like this
But some of these days
Are actually

Kind of okay
64 · Nov 2018
On Masturbation
Cydney Something Nov 2018
That feeling when you're empty
And lonesome
In need of distraction
Something to fill you

That feeling when you know
The world is cold
And you just want
To be warm

So you push and pull
And struggle
Past the wall of thoughts
And worries

Forcing your mind to the alley
To the ***** streets
Where lovely things die
And the wholesome withers

You dive into nastiness
Depravity
A ****** highway
To hell

Because when you arrive
You die
And not in the way
You hoped you would

The hands and mouths of ghosts
Have all left
You're cold on the bed
And still alone

The last light of ******
Flickers out
Like a repossessed dream
Like a phantom

The space between sleep
Is now laughing
But you cannot tell
From whence it comes

Reminding you of
Your feeble attempts
At escaping
By the highway
Somebody check on me. I'm not fine.
64 · Sep 2019
The lonely hour
Cydney Something Sep 2019
1:46am
4:46am
Two time zones between
I'm trying to s l e e p
Maybe it's too late
Maybe it's too early
I don't know much
But I know
That I'm lonely

Even if I'm not alone
63 · Oct 2020
The Heart
Cydney Something Oct 2020
I had a short interaction with a stranger, and I wanted to stay alive for them. It's over now, and I want to die again.
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