I bleed bacon grease,
I sweat *****,
And I cry pure salt,

But you expect me
To function
Like a normal human

How many of us
Have to die
And starve
And scream
Before they get it?

All these words
Trail behind me
Spilling from my fingers
Gently pressed to a screen
What do they even mean?

All this time
With nothing to show
Laughing at Forever
Hardly noticing at all
How far I'm going to fall

All them nights
Lightning in the sky
Flattering a stranger
Poorly masking all my craze
I've got scary **** for days!

All that love
For different boys
Add them to the kite tail
Lightly floating in the breeze
Until the lighting finds the key

But you don't seem to love me...
The things and words and pictures
Only amounted to lust

I want to be wanted,
But you don't seem to want me
You despise me

Everything you said
Everything I did
Now haunts me

I dance after midnight
With ***** in my veins
You're on my mind

I want to be loved,
But you don't seem
To love me

I'll never tell you
How I feel
Right now

You appear
And disappear
And reappear
And it's Christmastime

I know I've said too much
I know I've tried to be nice
I know I've been naughty
I know I've gone too far

I think about you
And her
I think about your Christmas Eve
With a beautiful person

I'm drunk
If you can't tell
And broke
So Christmastime evades me

But you have her
And she
******* Christ
She has has you

I have three cats
Two dogs
Two passive *****
And a future hangover

She has you
And I'm jealous
So jealous
That I might actually tell you

Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
*******

**** her
**** me
Merry Christmas
*******

"It doesn't feel like Christmas"
Well,
No ****
We're so wretched

Poverty and jealousy
Impatience, opportunity
Blessed ******* scrutiny
Of all the shoddy mutinies...

You were a dream
No. 1 on the Christmas list
But Santa never brings
The most expensive things

So a good night to all
And
To all
A good night

But I'll never have
You
And I hope it's
Alright

How I wish
And wish
You cared enough
To say hello

But I realize
You are a free agent
Unto the will
You choose

And you choose
And choose
To not say
Hello

And you realize
I am a mess
Plagued by
Your absence

So that
Should tell
Me
Something