I was sitting on the side walk when all of a sudden, inspiration hit me like a ton of bricks.
now the pen in my right hand has the power to bring life to the words unspoken by Mother Earths two lips.

And her words send my mind through a voyage in the sea but it seems that I forgot my floaties. But that's okay, because this sea is made up of 10% hope and 40% mercy. The other 50% is not meant for mortal eyes to see. Because even if you saw you wouldn't believe. That what you put in is what you receive.

My intentions aren't meant to deceive, no.  They are to set your mind at ease. So Please! DON"T TEASE YOUR GIFT! LET IT RISE AND SPREAD ITS WINGS! LET IT SURFACE TASTE AIR AND BREATHE!

Because I'm breathing in toxic fumes. I'm taking in your aroma like a cosmic perfume. Don't be quick to judge, because I'm never what they assume. I drown out my insecurities not giving them any room to surface. I am overly aware, I see things that you don't notice, and know this. I hear words spoke through mute lips. They fill my ears like q-tips and the say things like "NO, please! Don't do this!" "There's gotta be another way!" "Ever since you started messing with that ****, you ain't ever been the same!"

They look at me like I'm insane. When in reality I'm more in-tuned with my brain because I know my life is short so I will never take it in vain. And through my veins flows blood in the form of memories. Like crimson tides in a blood red sea. But as I said before, I forgot my floaties..

Sink or Swim?

it's the things you don't say that hurt me the most

not knowing tears me apart

the silence is disturbed by the beating of my heart

which races with each passing moment that you keep your lips sealed

it drives me crazy and it makes me question

what did i do wrong?

but no answer is found

all that is left is a fake smile to fool the world

when in reality I am not okay..

i don't know what I'm trying to say

i really wish it didn't have to be this way...

dry cry..

muted scream..

faded pictures of memories..

memories of the days when we were young

when we all got along

where nothing ever seemed to go wrong

where have those days gone?

why have they decided to hide from us?

i would give it all up just so i could go back to them

before this pathetic excuse for a life ends

and i forget what it is like to trully be happy

because lately i have not seen happiness

just anger sadness and stress

why have they decided to hide from us?

it is like a twisted game of hide and go seek

but everyone stopped playing before they found me

sit and wait..

okay, so i lied..

my heart never actually "died"

no..

its still here

and beating from what i can hear

its heavy

not with guilt

not with regret

not with anything that we will ever forget..

what's my point?

I'm not sure

just killing time with a random selection of words

though time is immortal

so in my attempts at murdering something that will not die

I'm only wasting mine

time that is...

tick-tock...

you took me higher, faster than any other

but you brought me crashing down just as fast

all those "i love you's" are a thing of the past

wish i would have listened when they warned me

but i was blinded by "love"

which did nothing but harm me

i'm walking forward and never looking back

all those "i love you's" are a thing of the past

they should have used a different expression

"broken heart" doens't even come close to the actual pain

i think ill give it another name

something to explain it flawlessly

something that describes the deception

along with its hidden objective

which is to break a person down with out mercy

but nothing comes to mind

you have always been around

and you will never let me down..

never betray me

and you make me want to sing when i don't even want to say a word

im lucky to say that you will always be in my life

always with me till the day i die

i will take you with me to the afterlife

where you will keep me company for eternity

music...your the only one for me

its was perfect..

more than i could have asked for

nothing i will ever regret..

nothing i will ever forget..

and i was too afraid to sleep

too afraid to wake up and find out that it was all a dream

but the next day i awoke and realized it was in fact reality

so i stored that night

that moment

along with all my fondest memories