everly

everly Feb 2018

man up

even when wiping away tears,

you ridicule me about how there’s bigger things for me

to cry about.

found this in drafts…

everly Feb 2018

thalia

holding my baby’s feet
i’d count the little toes
1,2..4..7,8..10
one day these feet’ll walk miles to find who she is
and possibly stumble across a potential lover..
smoothing my baby’s hair
i only hope she learns to appreciate herself quicker
than her mother did.
caressing her ears
i fear of the criticism of foolish school children
that will bring her down even on days where it seems like things can’t get any worse.
all swaddled, she’d giggle in her sleep and off she dozes..
i’d kiss her forehead and whisper

i promise i will try my best to raise you better than i was

taking a little break..

everly Feb 2018

hollis

the uber ride felt longer than it was
the motions of the words that unraveled from his mind
rolled off his tongue and out onto the vulnerable open
fear of judgement only meaning the best
he said.
he didn’t want to hurt
he wanted me to see
open my eyes and look past all the puppy love-
if it’s worth investing energy into another soul..
i tuned out and imagined i was still with you
that night at the amusement park
when you held me- wrapped around my right hip
and you leaned and whispe-

do you even hear me..i’m sorry if i’m upsetting you

everly Feb 2018

carry me home interlude (ft. Thea Gajic)

I know you're weary and I've worn you out, but you can rest your mind here and take your trainers off and... I apologize.
I should have approached this differently.
We said we'd be honest with each other so I guess... You make me feel like the unrequited lover. I don't wanna follow you around until you find the truth.
But I'd rather not kiss every stranger until I find you.
Can't you just appear in my hands and I'll carry you instead?
There's planets in my palms, if you get bored of my skin, I'm in change with the moon.
Habitual rituals.
Your smiling and light is my only residual.
The first time we met, did you go home and think of me too?
Our silence settles strangely now and self consciousness is heavy.
I know. People overthink things.
Women wreak havoc. Men implode.
But don't trouble yourself with my opinions.
Just remember me in the morning and carry me home

i just replay it over and over and over again until i numb myself with our memories and the love you just constantly seem to give off..

everly Feb 2018

tbh

i feel useless when
i’m you-less..
i can’t help however that she’s
the one he chooses.
when you kiss her and watch me
it cuts me and you know
you’re ruthless.
in the playing field of love
i’m always the one that loses..
and to think the cutest would be
the truest
but really just the most
clueless.

for you know who

everly Feb 2018

pineapple after

keeping money is like vanity
my mother says with a cider beer in her left
as my father deals the poker chips.
texas hold ‘em, you ready?
he says brushing past my mothers routine complaints..

its useless- a waste..
i watch my mother eye the stack of bills from across the room
like seeing your friend tell the same joke for the third time waiting for your reaction,
everyone gets two cards and you can look at them
and get rid of the card you find the least valuable
he says

the tension in the room is unbearable like a thick cloud
so i sneak away
to avoid being asked my opinion.

everly Feb 2018

mk

i opened the door of the bathroom
because of all the steam that was fogging the glass.
took a towel and dried up,
curls were dripping on the hardwood floor
left to be soaked by some warm socks in an
hour or two..

parents went out
siblings went out..
what to do what to
doo..
i texted you
lathered myself in jojoba oil
and asked if you want to come over
and play for a little

and you said
k.

lol daydreamsss