Doc, I really need some help
it seems I can't control myself
I am my own worst enemy
because I act impulsively
I love a girl from another time
I don't fit in, so that's just fine
I find myself perpetually vexed
by this world overrun with ***
In 14 months, I've hurt her so
why she still stays, i'll never know
I think I really need some help
without her, I'd destroy myself
when I'm down, I'm inconsistent
my energy is nonexistent
within about a day or two
my life completely comes unglued
but when I'm up, it's much the same
I treat life like it's just a game
I can't sit still, I hardly rest
most all I think about is ***
I've got no ******* self-esteem
feel everyone is mocking me
I need some help, bit I can't ask
and I can't handle simple tasks
please, Doc, I really need some help
before I can destroy myself
I know that it's not good for me
but I can't break the cycle, see?
the drink,
the drugs,
the pain,
the ******,
I just can't take it anymore
Upon my second evaluation yesterday, I was diagnosed as Bi-Polar and given some potentially dangerous antipsychotic drugs, which I don't care to name, and I'm almost too **** scared to take, but at the same time, I really hope they work. I don't want to be a "zombie" but at the same time, anything is better than my current situation