I like to let myself drown
I've never tried to swim
I prefer the feeling at the bottom
Down there I know who I am

These walls and bars
They have a purpose
One day
If you stay
I will crumble

I've always wondered why
My umbrella had so many holes
Never suspecting the knife
Held tightly in my other hand

My hands could not reach the cupboards
When I was young I was always the dreamer
I was the hero that saved
Sticks were swords
But I could never reach the cupboards

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I'm still a dreamer
And I still need her
She was mess
I guess
As I'm sliding off her dress
And yes
I'm blessed
Cuz we shared the same bed
Where I rest my head
Its where I dream of you

It isn't the days when I am at work
Or even the nights I stumble in drunk
Sure, those nights I hurt, and hate myself
But,
It is worse when I wake up alone
At 2 am, and I'm stone cold sober
That is where my real madness blooms
Those nights I suffer, and struggle
But my mind is limited on its thoughts
To you, and of me
And why I'm so ******
In every way possible
And I can't sleep, because I have no alcohol in the house
So I leave and go to a diner at 2 am
Because I can't stand myself, or my loneliness
The truth is
I just want someone here by my side
To love me when I can't love myself
To eat my onion rings
Because I hate them
I want someone to fill the all the holes in my life that I cannot fill myself
You know
They say you can't love someone
Without first loving yourself
I don't believe that at all
Because I have so much love inside
And none of it is reserved for me

One more night
Dancing by moon light
Please, just one more fight
I know
I'll make it right