**** baby, i'd like you all over me
your fingertips are the match, my skin's the box
no one needs to know, no one needs to see
what we do, it's anything but orthodox
the thunder cracks and my hands shake
only you could make me feel this way
without your touch, my body will just ache
i want you passionately until we both melt away
that look in your eyes, it says more than enough
we're playing with fire but i live for the thrill
i'm better than you imagined, i called your bluff
you've cured all of my sickness, a miracle pill
the chemistry is explosive between you and i
you can't deny it, nor can you try
with our bodies like this, you got me so high
your eyes engulfing me, your hands on my thighs
i want you like this until we see the light of dawn
your skin on my skin, a livewire
we're two sinners, and together we get on
and i knew only you could light my fire

my once sunny sky
is now ominous black
now no one sees me cry
no one saw me crack
the sunshine made me grow
optimism was in my blood
now this air of sadness is all i know
engulfing me like a flash flood
the people around me think i'm crazy
and maybe i am just that
nowadays my life just looks hazy
half the time i don't know where i'm at
losing my grip on that sane feeling
spiraling, it's like i'm losing everything
where's my sense of safety, of healing?
how much more pain can three weeks bring?
there's a boy that loves me more than i deserve
will life dare to take him away from me, too?
as the days pass, i slowly lose my nerve
just a broken girl, with no clue what to do
i once was chasing the sun above me
and now i'm drowning in the rain
the fog surrounds me so i can't see
so much anxiety, so much disdain
where's the sun, where has it gone?
what did i do to deserve such darkness?
with cloud cover like this, it'll never again be dawn
my world, once glistening, just reeks with starkness.

rays of sunshine illuminate my face
highlighting all the imperfections i cannot erase
your sleepy eyes open and you pull me close
and in these moments, i swear i feel that time froze

your touch so soft, heart so light
for a while, everything just feels alright
i try to hide the smile creeping across my lips
when your fingertips tickle the skin around my hips

happiness and sunlight look so **** good on you
you're infecting my heart, what can i do?
your hair's in your face, you look so at ease
and my worries just float away in the breeze
the light of the morning sun hits you at all the right angles
our legs and fingers in all sorts of tangles
i'd never want this moment with anyone else
i lose my cool, and my heart starts to melt

concert hall lights; orange blue and red
filling my heart with love instead of usual dread
you sway and lose yourself to the beat
standing there with you, i felt complete

the music vibrated through us as you kept me close
your happiness radiating at the live shows
you wrap your arms around me in madison on a friday
singing and laughing the whole night away

happiness and spotlights look so **** good on you
you've infected my heart, nothing i can do
your hair's all over the place, my smile's so sweet
my worries melt away as we feel the beat
the lights shining on us, highlighting all of your beauty
preserving your heart, i willingly stand guard duty
i never want these moments with anyone else,
i lose my cool, and my heart just melts

you hold my heart when you hold my hand
i'm scared, this is not what i had planned
but for me, a light always surrounds you
even in the dark, you shine no matter what you do

happiness just looks so **** good on you
you're not an infection, and loving you is what i'll do
your hair always looks nice, even in a mess
and no longer shall i fight it, i failed my own test

you're my worst nightmare
and my greatest daydream
one moment i'm floating on a cloud
the next i'm trapped in the pits of hell
feelings are a curse; having them willingly i wouldn't dare
cracking and unraveling at the seams
trying to hide my shame among the crowd
but you know me, i love the pain, i know it so well

throw rocks at me until i bleed
nail me to the cross and light me on fire
pour the gasoline over what's left of me
give me something i can feel
take all of my heart, show me your greed
step back, watch me die, please admire
a melted corpse, maybe that's what i'm meant to be
my pain and suffering i no longer can control

rake your nails across my skin
show me how it feels to truly sin
grab my throat and don't you dare let go
so that my mouth can no longer create audio
run me into the ground like i so badly deserve
cut me into pieces, smoothing every curve
rip my spine from my back
watch me die, for the rats, i become a snack
all i want is to feel something,
and your brutality, i've been worshipping
all i want is to feel nothing at all
let me hit the cement hard, and don't you catch me when i fall

cyclones have been raging in my soul for a hundred nights
rendering my head and heart unresponsive.
the turbulence of this is almost too much to bear
i don't want to live like this anymore

this uncertainty and chaos is causing me to pick all the wrong fights
making those around me close to irresponsive.
these storms under my skin, they just rip and tear
it's me verses me, an all out anatomical war.

i can't remember the last time i've seen the sun
or the last time that the wind stood still.
all i can remember is chaos and atrophy
running wild through my own veins.

just when i think it's subsiding, it's never truly done
it destroys my sanity, murders my will.
every nerve in my body becomes a casualty,
and i become wrapped tightly in invisible chains.

i can hear myself screaming, but no one else can
the water is drowning me, i can't make a sound.
no one knows, but does anyone really care?
we never really know until we're no longer here.

has it ended before it even began?
i'd only just begun to fly before i hit the ground.
i'm no angel, with no wings i have no prayer
to think i could fly away and persevere.

two lights shining in the midst of twilight
sparkling among the stars above
buzzing in beautiful harmony
illuminating a little of the night sky

eventually, one light started to flicker
slowly but surely, it was losing its shine
but the other light was still just as bright
uncertainty brews in the darkest of nights

the flickering light tried with all its might
to keep itself alive with hope and love
but it burned too bright and too carelessly
and now, it must slowly die

i saw it, but i should've seen it quicker
nothing was alright, nothing was fine
i couldn't keep from burning out in the brooding dark of night
and now it's time for my last rites.

when you burn too brightly, or too passionately
you end up burning yourself
we think we forget how to feel
until we hurt ourselves
we think we go through life adequately,
just throwing our problems on a shelf
but we can't run from what is real,
so people just run from themselves

we smile, we laugh,
we tell people we're doing well when we're asked
but inside we know the darkness that stirs
inside we know the hatred that burns
and it eats at our very souls.
i was blinded on my own behalf
from running so fast from my past
when you keep getting high, it all just blurs
we forget to remember the world always turns
and we humans just play our roles.

it flickered and flickered until it finally succumbed to its fate
and the night just grew darker still
how will the other light hold up,
now that it's faced to fight alone?

for no one, will the world ever stop and wait
to live, you must be killed or ****.
one day, we'll all just blowup
and then there will be no more light to hone.

how many times do i have to get high
before my elevated mind will finally realize
you're not coming home, you're not coming back
whilst my heart slowly fades to black?

how many times do i have to think of you
before i realize you likely do too?
you'll never admit it, you'll never tell
but you and i, well, we both fell

when you walked out that door, i almost laughed a little
but deep down, i felt my stature shake
we all think it's fun and games until our hearts get stolen,
we all think it's fun and games until our brains get swollen.

i don't think you ever realized the gravity of this
my heart was ready to give you all of it
you run and you run and you run so far
and i always thought it bizarre
how far can you go until you hit the end of the world
and you realize that there's no one there but you?
such a lonely existence, best friends with the void in your heart
just because you were afraid to give anyone in your life a part
and it's sad, it's pathetic, it's moronic, but it's true
my sorry self would still give it all to you
nail me to the bedpost and set me on fire,
take some steps back, don't forget to admire

we run from each other like we're cops and robbers
i've got the gun, and you've got my heart
as much as i want to give chase, i can't bring myself to find you
and besides, you're best at running and hiding, it's what you do.

love for people like us is just so scary
when it's right in front of us, we aim to ****
we don't need anyone to us feel more misery than we do,
but my magic touch alleviated it all, and you know it too.

i don't think you ever realized the gravity of this
my heart was ready to give you all of it
you scream and you scream and you scream so loud
but only i could ever hear you over the crowd
how long can you scream until your lungs give out
and you realize the only voice you had is gone?
i was the only one who ever heard your desperate cries
and came running whenever a piece of you dies.
my sorry self would still come running to you,
throw me on a bed of knives and seal the deal,
pain is the only emotion we ever allow ourselves to feel.

eventually you find that you can run as far as you'd like,
scream as loudly as you see fit,
but you always find your way back to me...
and realize only i can hear your screams.

i know you from the inside out, your mind full of landmines
but i do it all willingly, i'd never change this
my ears are always open, no matter how faint the scream
you are, and always have been my dream.