you're my worst nightmare
and my greatest daydream
one moment i'm floating on a cloud
the next i'm trapped in the pits of hell
feelings are a curse; having them willingly i wouldn't dare
cracking and unraveling at the seams
trying to hide my shame among the crowd
but you know me, i love the pain, i know it so well

throw rocks at me until i bleed
nail me to the cross and light me on fire
pour the gasoline over what's left of me
give me something i can feel
take all of my heart, show me your greed
step back, watch me die, please admire
a melted corpse, maybe that's what i'm meant to be
my pain and suffering i no longer can control

rake your nails across my skin
show me how it feels to truly sin
grab my throat and don't you dare let go
so that my mouth can no longer create audio
run me into the ground like i so badly deserve
cut me into pieces, smoothing every curve
rip my spine from my back
watch me die, for the rats, i become a snack
all i want is to feel something,
and your brutality, i've been worshipping
all i want is to feel nothing at all
let me hit the cement hard, and don't you catch me when i fall