Don't hurt yourself
I am hurting myself
I wasn't even aware
But the damage is done

Negatives of an old life
that wasn't a life at all
but the embryo and the egg
from which everything stems

I need you **** I do
but I lash at myself
and I hurt myself because
I think of you

This is hell
I've been through this
be patient
light wins

I need to snap out
this is not real
this is the devil
absorbing me

But how to snap out
that's where I am now
I need you, oh I do
can you love me
being this wretch
being this supernova
being this mess

Life is a battlefield
so dance! in the sweet intervals

I feel like I could not write
it ***** up my mind
what is it I am so afraid of
perfection, happiness, for once?

I feel unstuck
and that's good, that's great!
if you touch things, they'll turn to ****
not to gold, hey

that deep need to tell
crosses with my need to live
my need to meet God
to do versus to speak
I don't think they are so apart, you see

I will venture deep into my brain
with one hand outside the hole
to climb back
so I don't lose my soul

Irony everywhere
it's the key to success

Love is a threat
love is a danger fix
scary to be in
scarier to never be

this is right!
this is nice!
but I'll see further
for love is wide

don't forget heaven
but stay in tune
for those divine waves
in the sun and the gloom

I see it wide
can't hide!
what am I to do
I am not by his side
and there's so much time

those twisted corridors
of the mind
they are real and
they are lies
learn their swing
learn to dance!

if I crumble, I will crumble with you
love in extremis, we will rise again together
(and who knows if it will be better)
death, death after life
the wheel of the year, the joke on us

strength and weakness
health and illness
the witches, the witches!
live inside of your chest
like hags clawing at what you love best

Unmagic it all so it can be magic again
Unmagic it all so it can be magic again
Reorganize, ******* clean up your brain!
-do nothing instead-
my incantation to myself
Magic never dies, but it resists
any attempt to be sacralized
because the eternal is not holy
it just IS
so swallow your words and your act
swallow all your quest
swallow all that ****

I am not coming "and I might be dying"
but I will leave indeed some writing

I am dying
listening to La Zowi
I am eating myself up
I can't bear up that fate again,
no, God!

I can't live without love no more
Without that holy shaking no more
I don't want to live away from God no more!

Obsessed little ****
because I never knew you much!

**** your god if he tells you "no"
so angry because I can't come!

I am speechless
like one is when dying
I am motionless, I am rotting
all of a sudden, couldn't see it coming

I am empty and filled with noises
I am yearning for something
which hasn't escaped so long ago
how can I catch it, and have it once more?
Listen to your words, teacher,
like pagan scripture
ah, are you that somebody?
I am that somebody.

That old love
which you called love
which was nothing but
loneliness and hunger
for a body close

He filled nothing
but the void in your guts
which was so profound
you could not even tell
you were inside

That sunrise
in the twilight
That hint of nothing
which spawns something

Reorganize your brain
or at least
don't let the cobwebs
take place

And when you woke up
it was gone, as a dream it was
but it lingers in the day
as a shadow
of what could have been
it speaks volumes
in a language that can't be read

the beauty of arriving there
of the lingering beat!
a stream down my legs
I am waiting for you, dear
(you are not dying
you will be ******* reborn
you do it every morning
with the rising Sun
embrace the joke)