Chaos

Chaos Feb 2015

How do you say goodbye
To all the things you love
How do you leave
All of it behind
Do you whisper
The words
As quiet as you can
As soft as a breeze
How do you say goodbye
To everything you have
How do you turn away
And never look back
Do you walk
As slow as possible
Or do you run
So quick you're invisible
*how do you say goodbye

Chaos Feb 2015

Falling Apart

I'm falling apart
And you are all
That is keeping me
From breaking
Into a million pieces

Chaos Feb 2015

For a minute

For a minute
I actually thought I was okay
And then
I heard that song
The one we danced to
In the moonlight
Under the stars
At midnight

Chaos Feb 2015

How do I tell you?

How do I tell you all those difficult things?
How am I to let you know?
The words don't come
And the phrases are hard
They get stuck in my throat
How do I say we can't be together?
How do I get the words out?
My thoughts are lost
And hard to find
They evade my every grasp
How do I not break your heart?
How am I to know?
I always seem
To let you down
And cause you so much pain

Chaos Feb 2015

Your Words

I heard your words
And I tried to pretend
That they weren't about me
But for another girl
I attempted to ignore
The butterflies
That fluttered in my chest
The racing of my heart
And the quickening
Of my breath
I saw those words
Written so boldly
And flushed chartreuse
I was momentarily
Beyond ecstatic
But then was slowly
Brought back to earth
When I realised
There was no way
It could be me
Your words are about

Chaos Feb 2015

Easier

Sometimes
It's just easier to pretend
I'm okay
Than to explain why I'm not...

Chaos Feb 2015

It's me

It's me
I'm my own enemy
I create the demons
That live in my mind
It's me
I'm the villain
Who breaks the hero
Until they can't survive
It's me
I'm the assailant
Who beats myself up
And falls to the ground
It's me
I'm the monster
Who pulls myself down
And burns my soul to black