dying alone,
being forgotten,
fire,
heights,
and the weather
are all pretty reasonable fears

but,

my biggest fear with you
is being happy,
because I know
that it will be life-changing
my world will revolve around you
and no matter what happens,
I'll know that you alone
will be enough to sustain me
and then one day
I'll wake to find
that you're gone
and I'll be completely lost

.
.

I was sitting in my room one evening
racking my brain for something, anything that might resemble a poem
when I realized that I wanted to go home
it had been so long since I felt at home
that I wasn't even sure
where home might be,
if it even exists
but I think maybe
I caught a glimpse
last time I held you in my arms

.
.

I can usually keep things peaceful

and I don't get in a hurry about things

but

every time I hear your voice

my heart flutters

my palms get sweaty

and the words that I am trying to say

end up getting stuck

I thought that I would get over it,

eventually, but

if anything it's been getting worse

with my level of attachment

the more you mean to me,

the less I can really say

without tripping over my sentences

or otherwise sounding like a fool

.
.


I lit a fire once
spent hours feeding it
fanning the flames,
stoking the embers
just so I could watch it burn
until I got bored
and decided
to watch it die

.
.
.

leaves fall silently
people come from all around
to see them decay

.
.
.

clouds of smoke rising
as the day is burned to ash
taking hours with them