collin: Poems

343 · Jan 2016

invade

collin Jan 2016

invade

in clouds
calming down
climbing the walls
of the compound
louder now
but still,
without a sound
commence the countdown

343 · Nov 2023

deposit

collin Nov 2023

deposit

i think i built a crane
to lift the things i can’t
a wagon to carry my baggage
a ***** pack for my angst
a tote for all my love
backpack for the parts i hate
i drag these bags around
i take them to the bank

342 · Jul 2015

bedtime

collin Jul 2015

bedtime

she said
not until the streetlights come on
so we laid in her bed
laughing and strong
songs of the future
curb stomped my head

342 · Sep 2016

Lovely

collin Sep 2016

Lovely

so on this
abandoned
breathing
night
lying desolate
complimentary companionship
slovakia in fortune
uneasy with this future function
the ceiling laughs
it's easier to explain to myself
than anyone else
breathing
abandoned

342 · May 2015

about a girl: the end

collin May 2015

about a girl: the end

sometimes the trailer is better than the movie
perhaps we'll recast for the sequel

341 · Oct 2016

creeping complacency.

collin Oct 2016

creeping complacency.

i'm afraid of confrontation
so i'll save it some place vacant
to be stagnant. decapitated.

340 · Jul 2015

consistency

collin Jul 2015

consistency

when the checkered flag waves
and the street lights fade
promise me we'll stay the same
and when the roads we've paved
all go astray
promise me nothing inside you has changed

340 · Mar 2022

Irreconcilable

collin Mar 2022

Irreconcilable

i spent a day away
and after that, all i can say
is i felt the distance like a scab
itching for a hurt you never had

how tucking dumb of me to think my absence
would make your heart grow fonder
imagine my surprise when you found
delight at the sight of me underground

338 · May 2015

Indian giver

collin May 2015

Indian giver

a dream, it seems
a whimsical gleam
head and heart form a team
a tyrannical regime
with an evil scheme
an atrocious deed
teach your eyes to see
something just out of reach
it leaves you as you scream
on the edge of your seat
*please, let me keep it
it's all that i need

338 · Dec 2021

the road

collin Dec 2021

the road

the cold has become
less like needles in my skin
more like fuzzy ear muffs
i haven’t forgotten
i stopped nodding off
during the lessons
i’ve gotten more attentive
to my own intentions
and things that draw my attention
not to mention, i maintained the heart
in my possession

334 · Jul 2022

relatively speaking

collin Jul 2022

relatively speaking

a spider in every corner
a crow on every street light
the golden sunset
its brazen rays on industrial style housing
the summer heat subsides this evening
and a breeze rides down, cool relief
in the land of the morning calm

334 · May 2015

scatterplot

collin May 2015

scatterplot

lately,
i haven't been my
usual
crazy
delusional
self
maybe,
i finally placed it on
a high
dusty
free from eye
shelf
in dreams,
i see the image of you
immaculate
stupendous
impeccable
in a nutshell
it seems,
i'm defeated, i need your
understanding
compassion
love
*help

333 · Aug 2019

i’ve lost touch

collin Aug 2019

i’ve lost touch

words are like the squiggle in your eye
just out of reach and then they wiggle
then they die

i’m Pretty sure I don’t know how to write anymore.

332 · May 2015

fighter jets

collin May 2015

fighter jets

the cherry sky laughed
it was a beautiful laugh
but only for you

331 · Nov 2019

everything I do not want to be.

collin Nov 2019

everything I do not want to be.

with every wisp and tail
flickering and disappointing
littering the air with kissed feelings
my sleepy eyes succumb
to shade and lack there of
the flinting glimpses of whisks
my bones are numb

I have become.

330 · May 2015

about a girl pt7

collin May 2015

about a girl pt7

i sharpened my blade
preparing for this duel
an inevitable loss
but i fought all the same
to keep you from my

*brain

329 · May 2015

the days we live for

collin May 2015

the days we live for

when each cheddar fry
tastes better than the last
and each song on spotify
reminds you of the past
not the bad parts, the ones that spend a discounted rent to live in your heart
you invite the sunshine
and the cool spring breeze
and they show up hand in hand
with diamonds in their teeth
that's when you'll see
you're okay

329 · Jun 2015

holes

collin Jun 2015

holes

she lies with eyes
despising the skies
for their soaking surprise
and cataclysmic cries
under a canvas and metal stakes
hammering them with haste
so the wind won't blow it away
each missed stake a mistake
this great escape from the day to day
**was supposed to be fun

327 · May 2015

fuck you bro

collin May 2015

******* bro

why the **** do you want to be friends all of a sudden?
what kind of ******* fool do you take me for?
maybe you're trying to get close
so you can memorize my strategies
and use it against me.
or did you just want to show off the
stupid giant ******* teddy bear you won
well congrats, i hope it animates and kills you in your sleep

327 · Jul 2015

going once

collin Jul 2015

going once

my mother didn't raise no quitter
cupid has one less arrow in his quiver
but every weekend you float the river
and sell your liver to the highest bidder

327 · May 2015

ctrl+alt+delete

collin May 2015

ctrl+alt+delete

i'm done. i'm finished
i can't compete with this
generation of ignorance
if you like it, put a ring on it
but if you love it, put your **** in it
what no

327 · May 2015

bewildered

collin May 2015

bewildered

i wonder if her eyes can listen
because they can sure as hell talk

326 · May 2015

bat shit

collin May 2015

bat ****

there in lies
the reason why
your eyes
have never danced in mine

you're very sensible
and i'm going crazy

4U

322 · May 2015

about a girl pt6

collin May 2015

about a girl pt6

not a single frame of your oak eyes today
the only thought i had was of that song
the one at the end of furious seven
how pathetic am i

322 · Aug 2015

Untitled

collin Aug 2015

Untitled

idk *** u want from me

320 · Dec 2021

valid

collin Dec 2021

valid

i’m allowed to feel things too
said the turtle from his shell

320 · Sep 2016

sheets by you

collin Sep 2016

sheets by you

despite how i feel
you're still the one i feel
the fibers sings songs
filled with your name
and memories of it
**** it
**** it
i lie to myself again
void of memories
in which i didn't love
void of memories
in which you did

317 · May 2015

mr. Fargo

collin May 2015

mr. Fargo

despite everything
i've frivolously expended
you remain resilient
hang in there, little guy

a poem of my financial status

317 · Oct 2021

ydg?

collin Oct 2021

ydg?

every broken, filthy brick
this wall will fit
between who i think i am
and the worms and dirt and grit

317 · May 2015

Untitled

collin May 2015

Untitled

one man's dance
is another man's seizure

316 · May 2015

breakfast club

collin May 2015

breakfast club

you bring the eggs
i'll bring the scrambled
i've been stampeding
through the grocery store
eating all the free samples

315 · May 2015

bcs

collin May 2015

bcs

home is a funny word
sometimes it sneaks it's way in
unheard but not any less unwanted
i don't want to confuse myself

314 · May 2015

about a girl pt2

collin May 2015

about a girl pt2

times winding down
sweat eclipses my brow
he shoots
the buzzer sounds
he misses
that's the game, folks

314 · Jun 2015

to whom it may concern

collin Jun 2015

to whom it may concern

the creator can't contemplate
introducing the late
great
devastation
a cavity
decaying
depravity
just saying
if you could erase it all and retry
now would be a perfect time, big guy

313 · May 2015

geminate

collin May 2015

geminate

intertwine
like the the aliens from avatar
or two dwarf stars
in a telescope from afar
or two violently colliding cars
of which both drivers lost all control

313 · Jun 2015

working for the weekend

collin Jun 2015

working for the weekend

i'm going to dance
i'm going to sing along
i'm going to win more than i lose
i'm talking about beer pong
we're going to laugh
until our cheeks grow new muscles
we're going to defend
each other when the locals want to tussle
they're going to hate us
for generating so much light
they're going to say
we shouldn't have picked this fight
you're going to question
every stumbling thought i verbalize
you're going to wish
for a snooze button on the sunrise

312 · Jun 2015

we the people

collin Jun 2015

we the people

creepy, crawling and criticizing
ignore their harmonic synthesizing
explore the ironic hypnotizing
my belly is swollen from all the lying

312 · Jul 2015

this morning

collin Jul 2015

this morning

the paralleled walls
that the spiders dance along
crawling to the song
playing just before the dawn
under the shimmering sneaky sky
eyeballs glaring allow the sun to rise

311 · May 2015

about a girl pt5

collin May 2015

about a girl pt5

if i was a betting man,
seventy seven floor tiles.
doesn't sound like a lot
but you fail to consider
the load you're bearing
and at the end of your journey
there's a cat with an appetite for your tongue

311 · Jul 2015

what a foreign feeling

collin Jul 2015

what a foreign feeling

cheeks flushed red
out of the blue
something so fresh
something so new
without the slightest clue
why.

310 · May 2015

i'm wide awake, it's morning

collin May 2015

i'm wide awake, it's morning

i set out to exercise
or exorcise the demons
of the weekend
they were sleeping
they thought they got away with it
what i found in the
earliest hours of the day
was the world glazed
over with golden rays
that say good morning
to the joy and love
and hate hiding in the shade
and scares them all away
as they disperse with the shadows

310 · Jul 2015

?

collin Jul 2015

?

the question
the answer
that will never change
regardless of how you feel that day
are you okay?
i have been

310 · May 2015

we'll sing

collin May 2015

we'll sing

when sentiments don't work
a long neck bottle will be my final resort

309 · Jun 2015

halo

collin Jun 2015

halo

a defining moment
golden as it's rolled
in molten stone and
rose thorns
i'm torn apart but
can't be mad
i didn't see your horns
that's my bad

309 · May 2015

inevitable questions

collin May 2015

inevitable questions

the message received
from mother to me
do you have a girlfriend
i laughed myself to sleep

309 · May 2015

boy meets world

collin May 2015

boy meets world

the moon orbits around the world
worshipping it, loving it
believing his shine to be her pensive absorption
while the sun has been present since the very beginning
knowing the truth

309 · May 2015

sunset

collin May 2015

sunset

and so the sun set
once again on our story
i will patiently wait 'till morning
to hear your final allegory

308 · Jun 2015

greed

collin Jun 2015

greed

i feel this solipsistic need
to make you love me

308 · May 2015

imagination

collin May 2015

imagination

i watched a documentary today
about the rise
to fame
and fortune
and pride
then the violent drug-induced collapse
into an existential depression and
a shallow grave
family and friends joined along
concerned they all gather around
*you've been staring in this mirror
for hours now, please come down

308 · Jan 2022

i bite my lip til it bleeds

collin Jan 2022

i bite my lip til it bleeds

i constantly curb every edge with every fix
anxiety’s muddy boots stomp a hole in my lip
maybe the sting brings me more luminance
stuck in this state and i fear it’s effervescence
addicted to the feeling as the skin rips
my memories are package and wrapped
in scabs and tape made of missing dad
and stamped with wishing for the love i had
between my sister and brother and mother
and shipped amidst thinking they could die
today.