Suicidal thoughts,
Overthinking,
Cutting,
I
Eventually let
Them get to me, don't let them get to
You

So
Much joy
It brings
Let it show;
Eventually someone will fall in love with it

you are
my stupidity
forever

so much love
go invisible
when i see you.....
and
so many words
go unspoken
when i see you......
    -cute crazy-

One day
You will miss me
like the way
I'm missing you right now...
that day
you will realise
how much
you hurted me
With your
ABSENCE.....

wondering....
how it will be to miss you
just for a minute???
but....
never ready to feel
that heart ache.....

Sometimes I think you've forgotten about me
And you no longer love me
I don't think you hear my ocean of cries
That continues to rise
As the sun sets and rise
I need you now more than ever
I may be a little clever
But with you in my life
I know my life will soon get better
I feel so alone...

The flowers began to die
They would change color
They would curl
And suddenly they all died

And I am sick mentally
Hoping I will get better soon

I stopped walking in where the flowers were
Because I would break down
And I would water them
With my tears
And I knew I couldn't go back there
It's just too depressing
& yet I haven't cleaned it
Because I'm not ready to let go
Hoping that someday
Someone will walk in that room
And pick me up every time I fall
While we clear up the room

We'll replant new flowers
& watch them grow
Into something so Beautiful
So breathtaking

loving you
is the crime
i will do
all my life
for i know
you will
love me
someday.....

Listen and
I** will tell you
Excellent things and make you believe
Some of it was true

I** like to
Make believe  of
A world so magical
Gracious and beautiful
It exist
No matter where, just
A world
That
I can escape to, somewhere
Over the rainbow, somewhere
No one knows exist