There is Another Side To My Addict Life. I rarely Write About The sights.
When I go crazy in my mind.
How paranoia Drives me Inside
Hearing Voices When Noones Aside. Seeing Things That no one Els but me see. Assuming Your Talking, But not a word Came Out your mouth. Having conversations with my self as if there were someone Els With me too.
Assuming all eyes are on me.
Feeling watched, Needing to hide.
From clearly nothing but The Thoughts in my mind Conveniences me there’s something.
Hallucinating heavily, tripping badly
Want to know the crazier thing?
I don’t need to be on drugs to experience all these things.
It’s the long term affects That impacted me.
When I’m sober I’m delusional.
I go Crazy With no drugs in me.
It’s really ****** sad and Scary.
Experiencing paranormal **** without being on ****
Etcetc

Same Broken Record
It's playing all day long
I'm singing & talking about the same ****** song.
How It hates life
Drugs are the only thing right
The cure to her diease was love
Sadly it ended up being with the wrong one.
It killed her
Not even a substance will make her feel Gone
Only reality, a slit to the wrist
Zone off From the deep cut
A slow sleep
Finally

I don't care
How people might View me
I don't give a ****
Call me a Drug Addict
I don't give a ****
**** I love it
Why deny it?
Ew you crack head
Ha ***** Mind yours
Cause I love that world
Drugs and drugs
Yes, I love all of them

I'm tired of it all
The Thoughts , the Confusion
Stressing and over thinking
It's all overwhelming
I'm sober and I'm hurting
1 hit will solve everything
A Hit always makes it go away
My problems, my feelings
Everything  I've been thinking
Dope completes me
I don't need no one when I'm on
Don't need love or company
It gives it to me all
As Well as dearh
That's what I'm mainly seeking
An end

I Don't Want To!
I'm nearing my sober views & i know your scheming
Leading me to go and find you.
Please Stop
I can't do this
I can't hold you
Understand we must keep apart.
I know Your the main damage
Idk how you manage
To lure into my mind
Making me believe all these lies!
I know drugs are not right
Their is happiness I just need to search hard to find.
Stop it Babylove
Leave me , let me be
Get out of me
Set me free
I want to be normal
I do want to live sober
I don't want to hate Nomore
I've been miserable for too long
Since 5th grade I've been hating
I want to like myself
I want to feel proud
I want motivation
I mainly want to Accept myself
To feel pretty & confident
I deserve to smile
I'm tired of this froun and negativity.
Baby Love please help me in Another way without your taste
Make me hate you
Make you be the reason I gain strength.
Make your love be the reason why I shouldn't go back.
Remind me That using you is wrong.
Although it's the only thing that's ever Treated me best .
I'm now confused and I know that's you getting into my head
Your switching up my mind right now as I text
Your right...
Babylove how could I forget
Aslong as am With I don't need worry about all this

I'm going to lose my life.
She's going To end it For me.
I'm Scared Now, what am I supposed to do?
I can't Run, She always finds me.
I'm Alone now.
Feeling Lonely And Hopeless.
That's what she feeds on
She leached on to me.

Midnight
The Time When it's best.
Interacting With The devil.
Releasing All My Stress.
Smoking & Lines
I'm tired of this life
Lien about recovery,
I want to stay high.
I Reached That Level
Where I should stay like this forever. Sobriety Always has me under weathers.
Being on keeps me
Away from all wrong.

My Life Felt Perfect.
The minute I took That 1st hit.
I was good , living Chill like everyone around me.
I felt alive & stress free.
Worried about nothing.
My life got complicated.
The moment My secret Revealed.
Now I feel twice as miserable.
I got a reminder of why I'm inlove with the unreal.
With All These complications
My minds Losing patience.
I wasn't craving.
now that it's known , I'm feining.
To relieve All These negative feelings.
I'm loving life High.
I'm feeling nothing, that's why

I preached the opposite
of what I reached.
It Was Too Late, To capture Myself.
I no longer hate..
Am I me?
Did I convert already ?
Why do I feel confused..
Are these feelings true?..
How long was I really in use ..
I'm driving my Self crazy ..
Sleepless night have crawled up.
Where is my care of freedom?
From The disease Or is it already leached on me ..
Addiction is scary.
Please Stay Drug free ...