I have been growing
Yet, still have fallen
One step forwards
And three back

"A period of self reflection"
It really is a double-whammy
I had to and am having to
learn to become an "adult"
While learning not having you around

I hope it's true
"The first is always the worst"
I really do hate to exacerbate
I just don't if it'll ever be the same

It haunts me, what you said
On the phone call of guilt
"It can never be the same"
My loving bones trembled

Of the guilt, there remains
It was a life ago we loved
You bid me farewell
On my voyage to be better

I am still not there
I know it's all up to me
But I hate to disappoint
I hope to still see you then