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 May 2017
Butch Decatoria
I would of liked to have said good byes
Look upon your face into your eyes
Looking for my little princess somewhere in there
I want to tell her I was sorry

Before I leave

I want my baggage to be light as air
No strings to bring me worry
When recollecting the most memorable
Letting **** go, most amiable

Before I leave

The America that fostered me, Disney made believe
My hopes heart filled with 3-D colored dreams
I hope to give my thanks even on the other side
The world might end while closing the eyes

Before I leave

I would rather not have any need of all that
Find myself in all this, happy at that...
I would of liked to have waved goodbye
As I fly away ... Heartbroken in the sky ...

Before I leave

I just want to know "why?"
What did I do so wrong? Did I hurt you?
With my "such a user" usefulness, a deadbeat dad,
Reasons running away with the ghosts of us

The ones that haunt me still (eek-gad!)
I will let go / of - flying home past the clouds
I will look down and feel how small I'm now
and how wonderful the world I see!

Before I leave...

*(it's not about me)
 May 2017
Butch Decatoria
A perfect circle not yet
complete
has a gaping mouth
constantly
it will speak
has a void to fill
and so it eats
it can't help but be loud

C  how flat tires progress
U  may mistake for Pacuman
n ot so mindful without face
)criptid void's singularity

not so singularly polite
a circle incomplete is so similar
to an unlived life...

"No one will know the whole story
until its all been told"

Talk is cheap / Silence: Gold

and around and around
we go...
"Weeee!"

(Perfectly childlike
circles in the playground
laughter in our soul)
Free verse, spontaneously just written. Thanks Onoma.
 Apr 2017
Butch Decatoria
I barely know much about him,
Just another homeless man
I give my aluminum cans (minus the pop)
"Where's Wallace?"
Got Glad bags full of tin
Look for his shopping carts
If you connect the dots
Within its circumference
You may find him
in the shade
Or sleeping on the lawn
Outside the closed apartment gates
Or between the carnaceria's walls
Alley cat black
A good guy at that...

He's one of many
The growing crew of indigents
Nothing new to city streets
I met the semi permanent fixtures
The regulars that camp out
Here on the boulevard, near the Strip
Know them by name
But barely know who they are
I try not to get that close

Because you know what they say
You feed one pigeon
They all flock at once,
And Hitchcock's horrors are
My own,
Nowadays when it's a luxury
To have a home,
Mine is precarious
We all protect our own,
That's what they say...

Wallace mostly dives alone
In the darkness of night
Or the end of days
When they throw away the food
Rules of expiration dates

With what I give, it's always fresh,
Perishable even for microwaves
Those convenient stores that let him in
But he's burnt most bridges
With his angry mouth
"****** it up" dropping F bombs
Even half asleep
I barely understand him
But I begin to when his wife
Visits the prison of his concrete streets
Brings him the warmth from home
Her petite loyalty bigger than any shame
I notice that she doesn't notice
The looks of blame
From the eyes of disapproving
Bigots and creeps

Wallace becomes someone else
As they sit together
It's more than just being fed
It's an intimate meal.
(there's tenderness I see)

I couldn't come near to understand
How and why he lives
This way, under this desert city's iron sky,
What a fool he is for romancing the night
Collecting minutiae treasure
All with broken worth
A vagabond crusade with the finger to the world,

I can only hope for the best
I have no opinion

But should he decide  
To wake up or realize
Such folly of a life
I say, it's better to grow and get old
Together with his wife

But then again
I barely know much about Wally
Or how the streets are calling

Away untoward
Those nights that're howling
These streets he's prowling
Much ado about

Wally.
 Apr 2017
Butch Decatoria
I can't believe how much I love him

   don't stop these spells of static stirrings
   won't wash it away, like sleep
   in my succint showers
(rightly, comely in my hand)

And still I absorb
the absolute-arrangements of him,
the bear-bulk hulk of him

still I swoon,
   aroused with naive-named niceties
   ceremonial dreams of touchable torches...
And I am overcome,
by flagrant fuels, aflow
ever the more juvenile
   for who am I / to have
   the grand spectacles of him...?

I can't imagine why I love him so
   can't begin to convince or list it
   don't keep this leaping lush of laden love
   ungoverned / inside...
I won't ignore it
I can not hide
I want to tell him
   like laughter spreads its joy
   he's a riddle to be reveled in,
Want to know the questions
his face the answer I want to see...

It is he that silences
the noise of me,

it is he that revises
the mistakes of me,

it is he that spends
the worth of me,

it is he that lifts up
the truth of me

I can't believe
I can't begin

how much I am
                            in love with
him...
 Apr 2017
Butch Decatoria
Survival...
             Owns no manufactuer's manual
on Life, it has no scheme or plot
nor the ability to count cards

it's genius has no shame
does not reflect
              or give pause for consequence
it does not think
about what great lesson it learned

Survival pushes on
with or without a Joker's grin
Or lack of grace...

Survival has no feathers
or Neitzsche beauty to display
                never hides behind a rock
it wears no shade

Survival does not express
fear, relief, or shock
just simple Strength
                with an unreadable
poker-face...

*(Because Death knows nothing of haste,
Nor cares for the human race.)
 Apr 2017
Butch Decatoria
He conjures conscience
constable of contrived control
pontiff in a pool of dogmas
commanding total touch
filigree lover, a shadow-figure
poses in folds of his focus
I am flush
He is the fury
Two isotopes fashioned for synergy's
ping-pong pleasing poetry
The poise
that invokes,
magic... Sticks and midnight
Strokes.

Magnanimously.

I try to bring love
as if it were the last remedy
in this, our irrelevant reluctance of relish,
our satin satire,

when we swell, swirl, swish
somehow we understand
kindled by this kink
kissed by kismet's lending allure
Luridly
He is the murk
Once I was the pure...

He stirs manx and mesh
a mint-tingle on my flesh
an open oyster
which offers black pearls
And quicksilver hush
Wrapped in a maddening shell
he is my guilty blush
I am his kiss and tell...
Rewritten from 2007 original.
 Mar 2017
Butch Decatoria
I make smiles from shattered eyes

cry December's distracting frost

move my soul with hopeful sighs

and pray our devotion is not lost



It is the eve of renewal's glee

gave sad promises to spoon the moon

but in the haste of glass we freeze

pose with strangers who fill our room



sweat bemoans my reaching hand

your eyes are vacant with his lust

he bids the hours by your command

we smoke our feelings into dust



this boy is weak yet worships you

opens darkest gates to breed

now enter light that stirs, confused

my screaming tears unheard,unseen...



i am a wish of hearts refused,

the sound of fallen poetry...
 Mar 2017
Butch Decatoria
Dead leaves fall from a living tree,
captured by a breeze, to gather at my feet
tiny mounds
of earth browns
and ill-colored greens
piled on one another / rustling / serpentine screams

tiny graveyards
un-esteemed;
reminding me of last evening's
public television show (almost
appalling)

a special / they called it
on letters from the holocaust,

a reading / from surviving
members now grey and slowing

as they speak (aging)
in sepia slideshows during their
somber, teary-eyed recollecting;
lifting ghosts and rocks

heavy, from the moss
of their memory
silver photos of nannas, sisters,
brothers and fathers lost
fading details of the war

which time has (and they gladly)
frost, depressing
me with my big screen magnavox,

i remote control a pause...

&

still dead leaves of cemetary browns
and soldier greens,
lifeless and lifted by the wind
without empathy / or guilt of sins

an airy power, a commanding force / unseen
gathering / stems or limbs
of these casualties / of autumn
none following the flight

of concord cold fronts

clustering together / piled / inartistically
at my sandals, toes wriggling
crunching underneath my feet

weathered

death seems simple - like a mindless breeze,
natural and indifferent dust devils

it is the way of things
shifting graveyards of leaves
as if a memorial of use-to-be's
from a roar of sightless tragedies
memorium of wars
tombs of bodies / images of defeat

not so simple or beloved

the nature of such things
in these leaves i see
of thee i sing....
 Mar 2017
Butch Decatoria
(It is like...)

. . .  a brief farewell
dismissive and brusque;

the outdoors as grey and as serious
as nature is without mercy

. . .

we sit across from
one
another
demure & remiss of words

as time between
colorless
bleeds

the Colosus
of our silence / becoming
a book
we master to read...
 Mar 2017
Butch Decatoria
I DREAM

Sleeping mind lovelorn,
wishful pining for the truth,
hoping vividly.



A DREAM

To keep promises
enthusiastic as war,
men at last needless...



IN SLEEP

cradled in silence
a loud mind coelesces
with the universe.
 Mar 2017
Butch Decatoria
AUSPICIOUS     Spaces
STAR-ship  to   Space-MEN

The Heart is (ART) to HEAVEN

Inside the LIGHT of Good.

AUSPICIOUS' de fini tion :
"Favored by Fortunes--Promising
Success--Prosperous--just Fortunate"


The Great EVENT - an Occasion!

L i f e  - I don't sweat it.
She's the most beautiful BLUE

PLANET in the Galaxy

"Milky my mother makes me drink"
For the good of my health and eye-sight-bones.

I tell myself "I want to Feel as BIG as I sEe"

I Look up at HEAVEN
Feeling the B I G  Upthere NOW
I See...

We were always celestial
But for now just.        Earth HEAVY...
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