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 Nov 2016
Butch Decatoria
1.
Remember the puppet that you were

who thought himself
a real boy
still only just a boy

remember
like perusal of hate mail
        their postal telepathy
as though flipping through cellophane
photo albums of many nameless
faces

distant / detached / unmarred

Remember how you had
not known them then
                 floating on airs
ignorant  / clueless / willful
still constantly fair

like May flowers
in pebbled gardens

Self sacrificed fool
still only just a boy
and like all in their youth
selfishly optimistic
        a wide bellow
for the wide world
and untoward
night

Yet this life / its tangled strings
(tug & pulling)
with Geppetto's fermented footing

precariously
curious and nimble

such as
and / that boy was
quite...
           agreeable to a fault

happy to oblige a fly

But something else
also had its gravity
(pride for tiger stripes)
taunt
there within : an invisible string

to keep true
be mindful
be cool
(nimble thimbles cool)
searching  but not so...

"you will know when you find it
you, a perpetual student"

open
as pouring rain
always in awe of it
                                  all
dismissive of the drowning
barely afloat in city-scape

And now a real boy
living / colors / the lessons
of life  
            a dance  
     (Kick ball change)

carrying its rhythmic weight with
a style & a smile
always in all ways / in awe

Boy refusing to grow up
who's dreams are tall
Inside a lotus waits to open

Brown Eyes
         like quiet ripples

A dragonfly
on the pond

in our pebbled garden.


2.
Smooth stones
pave a path for bare feet
there's no use or need for dirt
on our way toward
peace.

no ripples on the pond
dragonfly wings - like glass...
clear of mind
tend to the life and health of our garden
that is the duty of Earth's wardens
a light to shed the night...

although the lotus may bloom
out of season, arriving late,
it is the wisest of all flora
knows to wait for the rain,

so here we are late bloomer
Lion of the southern gate of Maan,
looking for you ...

The circumference of every pond
is only valued by how deep
it quenches
the thirst those who drink...

my hands are empty
and what falls from heaven I will cup
that's my gift, overflowing, honest, open
Falling
up.
Edited 08252016
 Nov 2016
Butch Decatoria
Dead leaves fall from a living tree,
captured by a breeze, to gather at my feet
tiny mounds
of earth browns
and ill-colored greens
piled on one another / rustling / serpentine screams

tiny graveyards
un-esteemed;
reminding me of last evening's
public television show (almost
appalling)

a special / they called it
on letters from the holocaust,

a reading / from surviving
members now grey and slowing

as they speak (aging)
in sepia slideshows during their
somber, teary-eyed recollecting;
lifting ghosts and rocks

heavy, from the moss
of their memory
silver photos of nannas, sisters,
brothers and fathers lost
fading details of the war

which time has (and they gladly)
frost, depressing
me with my big screen magnavox,

i remote control a pause...

&

still dead leaves of cemetary browns
and soldier greens,
lifeless and lifted by the wind
without empathy / or guilt of sins

an airy power, a commanding force / unseen
gathering / stems or limbs
of these casualties / of autumn
none following the flight

of concord cold fronts

clustering together / piled / inartistically
at my sandals, toes wriggling
crunching underneath my feet

weathered

death seems simple - like a mindless breeze,
natural and indifferent dust devils

it is the way of things
shifting graveyards of leaves
as if a memorial of use-to-be's
from a roar of sightless tragedies
memorium of wars
tombs of bodies / images of defeat

not so simple or beloved

the nature of such things
in these leaves i see
of thee i sing....
 Nov 2016
Butch Decatoria
After the preaching is

Done-finished picking at the scabs

Of our guilt,

At week's end / day of rest;

When we almost had it gone

Forgotten

From our minds...

It's a kinder kin to amnesia

A softer fog of fugue

A healing art of our brain farts,

Not soaking in shame's

Diminishment

Or stewing in self helps

"Deliver us!"          bow down genuflect

But then again

Here we are together to gather

Uncomplainingly

Complacently listening

Absorbing every lash

Of the metaphorical whip,

To be guided back to good

The sermon for the humans that we know

We are -- unworthy

But willingly we suffer

The word...

On how to be just like

The lamb...


So afterwards, when after we've been

Emotionally & verbally punctured

Full of hollow

We are holes unworthy

Of being

Made whole...


Or so, we've been told

It is written.


So then let us meet for homily

After King James harangues us

His version of fellowship,

Let us have verbal

******* with the word.

Perhaps over supping

Or during beer & NFL

Or some blood

Sport

Non-emasculating

Reminding us how

Weekends roar

And Life is

Worth more

Than the inner wars

We are ourselves

Fighting.

After the sermon,  

Let's have true verbal

*******.

(Without a shred of guilt.)
Inspired by Jason Clarke, after researching the word homily. Ty JC. Lol.
 Nov 2016
Butch Decatoria
And I swear to you, God is a woman


Since nothing is as astonishing
a universe thus designed
and beauty made paramount
Love lifted toward divine


So God is a woman, a mother to birth us all
yet like most mothers
who perish at the thought
will relinquish the needy virulent babe
turn her back like stones : a wailing wall
remembering our better days

tough love can spurn
but does return
we are family after all

born not made
to rise not fall
all that mother gave
this which love has saved.


Peace be with you
and Namaste.
 Nov 2016
Butch Decatoria
Belief is like the sensation of a breeze,
goose-flesh like finger tips on our skin

Faith is listening to it roar
yet naught to see from where it cries,

nor with our eyes direct complaint
or worry, both are much the same

Twice  the invisible evidence,
a presence not present but one can elude

there is something more, there, somewhere
out in the wide-yet-to -be-known.

There goes a whisper passing me,
and attend my eyes to watch the gusts

of wind as a witness upon a tree
rustling shaken / limbs creaking / bows

as its old leaves brittle to let go
where they crunch under our giant toes.

Its clear to me, although unseen, there
are much greater things beyond

believe have faith it is absolute like light of day,
to know everything is much too much

Don't lose one's mind to fear, I dare say,
let the sky fall gently April tears

I will drink of it
much the same,

believe me / have  a little
faith...
 Nov 2016
Butch Decatoria
These creases of ours:
Tales of dragons and white ships.
Neatly folded sheets.
 Oct 2016
Butch Decatoria
Morning-star-burst bloom
Floral crown on tranquil lake
She walks on water.
 Oct 2016
Butch Decatoria
Dawn's ceremony.
Wet grass tickling bare feet.
Wave away the night.
 Oct 2016
Butch Decatoria
Words are only words
and songs sung are words made light

magic.
And what heaven must be like?
When all sounds are only words & music
spoken.

words to who understand and listen
with much emotion
deeply weeps.

Oh wonder what wonders
if we could only hear beyond our ears
without. within.

Sacred is the heart.
What it must be like up there
what Love is symphony
saying...?

And yet we are mad
with our blurbs
verbose verbs absurd

"In the beginning was the Word..."
Word up it was

POW!
Boom goes the dyno-mite
birth and god's kiss

What word could we equal
to carry All that Is

Omygoodness/AllisLightisLife/Is
This.
March 2016
 Oct 2016
Butch Decatoria
So divine such grace
Words not made to embody
Ballet when God speaks
 Oct 2016
Butch Decatoria
I want you to understand my name,
the robes of rude electric activities
were once made to fit my
curves and canvasses
when i use to paint them
perspiration / desperate / commotions
all mixed in a soup
of sensuous satiation...

I once had hands so clever
with ingenuity and imagination,
i held nothing, really
but the naked mute
holding nothing
just palms lined with psalms'
life lines and predictions
many unable to read
or feel akin...
predictable and gullible
are we not made
to change?

In the lion's pit Daniel learned
swift and well
the name of the game is
Live to Tell,
we create our own designs
and belief
and even our own hell...

I want you to know my name
when I name one angel : "wisdom"
and one skeleton : "shame"

know me well
forget yours just the same,
once i was the victim
soon now the Lion's Mane...

One angel :  "wisdom"
One Skeleton :  *"shame"
 Oct 2016
Butch Decatoria
In the land of the wasteful

The flesh is bound to despairing

Time like a mosquito

Caught in Amber

Unmovingly

All dreams dreamt away

Are as transient as its blood

Orange clarity

In the mind

Of thee, those in the land

Of the wasteful...

Pain is as hollow as

The uncaring

When already the broken heart

Has let go, passed long ago

Since childhood's end

Not having known

To recognize

Or find oneself

In the beauty of a world

We played pretend

In the land of waiting

For our sadnesses to end

Waking up alone

After all

In the land of ungrateful men.

*(The kind have gone extinct)
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