Missing you
It's like trying
to breathe under water
and tonight I'm sleeping
at the bottom of the ocean

I believed in love before you but now I’m kinda iffy
I thought we were gonna last but you really killed me
My love was strong for you could’ve seen a thousand moons
Joy in my heart for the things you could do
Never touched your hands
But I know you touched my heart
You broke me down to this
Now im falling tf apart

Love is a ******* joke like a dark comic
Yeah we’ll show you this happiness but take it faster than sonic
I know you tried your best
But is that really true
Because I gave my all
And you only gave me a few
Reasons to understand
A fake love shown true
Never in my life
Did I think I would lose you

If love was a game I'd lose.
The pain of love is too much for me to
understand the pain of lost trust is
enough to **** your friend enough to
end your name and your life end your
being, but the gain from love is the
feeling of pride and happiness when
you look in their eyes. The feeling of
joy when you realize they are the one
you want for the rest of your life, but


Its Over.
Done.
No more.....
Of the love

The love you crave is now the love you craved.
The joy you feel is now the joy you felt.
The love he loves is now a love he once knew.

You see? Love is a gift and a curse a pain and a spell.
What is love?
Love is a four letter word just like Pain
Just like hurt
Just like that one feeling
that you swear should never be felt...
because the last time you felt it your heart.....
Broke.
"Love is pain and pain is love"

Pain shouldn't be heard in the love you deserve
The love you deserve is what will bring
You back to what you need.
What you need to be......
To be....
To be....
**Loved

Every word you speak feels like a song to me
Every smile you share can never be compared
No judgement here
You’re a never ending joy
How will long with this last?

I hope times frozen still.
Grateful beyond any words could describe


Feeling a real love that I never knew was possible
Is like looking through new eyes


Have you ever felt this love?
Have you ever heard this song?
Have you ever looked at yourself through someone else’s eyes?

I’m not just a cardboard cut out. I’m not just a walking doll. With you I’m transparent.

You are my favorite time of day
Like high noon shining brightly in my eyes
You give me love for my heart which was broken in two
I never expected to meet you
A shock in my daily. Unexpected and true
However it was trial run of love for you

Like a Netflix subscription you get 30 days free. You gave me 90, a promo I didn’t know I’d need.
3 months with you looking at the screen
1,000 miles away never touching me
3 months of love felt so deep
I’ll never forget you my cartoon geek.

3 months with you, and I cannot disregard the fact that I was hurting and love was scarred
You told me im beautiful, and were everything I’d asked God for.
But I wasn’t ready for you, and this you knew.
Childish, and petty. Fights and dismay.
My 90 days were running by quickly
I wasn’t ready for you.

Stuck in my covers, and darkness around me. You were my light trying to guide me.
Support me in my decisions, and correct me when I’m wrong. Laugh at my jokes, and listen to my song.

I here you ringing here comes another call. Late nights with you, sleeping on the phone.
Forever and ever? I thought it was true
However forever ended to soon.

They all said I’m crazy, and that you weren’t real. You couldn’t love me when you aren’t here.
Pictures can’t mean anything, words can’t either. He’s not standing next you. You’re in love with a computer.

Tick tock, tick tock. My trials almost over.
I don’t want it to end, but you’re leaving me it’s clear

A night I regret. I’ve never been so scared. I told you I loved you and another man appeared. Taking my strength the little I had left. No longer can I appreciate your light because that man took my eyes.

I’m really in the dark. Visions to see. You were so unhappy with me. Is it my fault? Did I do this? Should I have listened and reported it? It doesn’t matter now because you no longer care

I did it to myself you said it wth out words. You no longer smiled, or looked at me with love. And here they were again telling me to leave.

This man doesn’t love you. It just can’t be.


I’d fallen so deep in love with your eyes. Your smile had made me want to try.

Leave him they screamed. Forever ever? You’d say. But here we were still 1,000 miles away

My trial is over and it ended with a bang. A long text message I sent with regrets. Knowing I needed you, but listening to everyone else. Knowing you were done with me by the look on your face “let’s see how that works for you” it’s what you said.


3 months I spent on my phone
Late night calls, and I didn’t feel alone
3 months I feel oh so deep. In love with everything you mean so much to me.
3 months and my trial had ended

I had to pay up. What was the cost?
My heart is all that I had to pay.

Worth it I now say, because although you have my heart. I know what it feels to be in love.

Worth the pain, and now the lonely nights. As long I know that you’re alright. These months were worth all of my tribulations.

Now I know to listen myself, and no one else.

I could still be happy. Still in deep. Paying for my subscription for you indeed.

3 months of love
3 months of pain
3 months of hearing your name.
Every picture every word. Remains deep.

I didn’t realize then how much you loved me.

Because I was your Penelope.